In the past, band members dressed in outlandish makeup and costumes, and engaged in intentionally shocking behavior both onstage and off. Their lyrics often received criticism for their anti-religious sentiment and references to sex, violence and drugs, while their live performances were frequently called offensive and obscene. On several occasions, protests and petitions led to the group being blocked from performing, with at least three US states passing legislation banning the group from performing at state-owned venues. They released a number of platinum-selling albums, including Antichrist Superstar (1996) and Mechanical Animals (1998). These albums, along with their highly stylized music videos and worldwide touring, brought public recognition to Marilyn Manson. In 1999, news media, infamously, falsely blamed the band for influencing the perpetrators of the Columbine High School massacre.
As this controversy began to wane throughout the 2000s, so did the band's mainstream popularity. Despite this, Jon Wiederhorn of MTV, in June 2003, referred to Marilyn Manson as "the only true artist today". Marilyn Manson is widely regarded as being one of the most iconic and controversial figures in rock music, with the band and its lead singer influencing numerous other groups and musicians, both in metal-associated acts and also in wider popular culture. VH1 ranked Marilyn Manson as the seventy-eighth best rock band on their 100 Great Artists of Hard Rock. They were inducted into the Kerrang! Hall of Fame in 2000, and have been nominated for four Grammy Awards. In the U.S., the band has seen ten of its releases debut in the top ten, including two number-one albums. Marilyn Manson have sold in excess of 50 million records worldwide.
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Studio albums
Portrait of an American Family (1994)
Antichrist Superstar (1996)
Mechanical Animals (1998)
Holy Wood (In the Shadow of the Valley of Death) (2000)
The Golden Age of Grotesque (2003)
Eat Me, Drink Me (2007)
The High End of Low (2009)
Born Villain (2012)
The Pale Emperor (2015)
Heaven Upside Down (2017)
We Are Chaos (2020)
I Want to Disappear
Marilyn Manson Lyrics
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Look at me now, I'm so vacant
Look at me now, I was a virgin
Look at me now, grew up to be a whore
And I want it, I believe it
I'm a million different things
Hey, and our mommies are lost now
Hey, daddy's someone else
Hey, and we love the abuse
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
But I know I wanna disappear
Disappear
I wanna disappear
Disappear, baby
Wanna die young, sell my soul
Use up all your drugs, make me come
Yesterday, man, I was a nihilist
Now today I'm just too fucking bored
And I want it, I believe it
And I want it
By the time I'm old enough
I won't know anything at all
Hey, and our mommies are lost now
Hey, daddy's someone else
Hey, and we love the abuse
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
But I know I wanna disappear
Disappear
I wanna disappear, baby
Disappear
Hey, and our mommies are lost now
Hey, daddy's someone else
Hey, and we love the abuse
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
But I know I wanna disappear
The song I Want to Disappear by Marilyn Manson is a reflection of the confusion and emptiness that the singer feels within themselves. The lyrics are a commentary on the singer's state of mind and how they've changed over the years. The song begins with the lines "Look at me now, got no religion, look at me now, I'm so vacant." The singer is suggesting that they no longer have any structure or belief system to guide them and that they feel empty as a result.
The next set of lines "Look at me now, I was a virgin, look at me now, grew up to be a whore" describe the singer's evolution from innocence to promiscuity. The singer is conveying a sense of regret and shame about their choices, but also a desire for more experiences and sensations. The line "And I want it, I believe it, I'm a million different things and not one you know" suggests that the singer has a multifaceted personality that they struggle to express or understand.
Later in the song, the singer talks about their desire to disappear and die young. They want to escape the pain and emptiness they feel inside, and they're willing to use drugs and engage in risky behavior to achieve that goal. The repeated lines "Hey and our mommies are lost now, hey, daddy's someone else, hey, we love the abuse because it makes us feel like we are needed now" highlight the singer's dysfunctional family background and their willingness to accept mistreatment in order to feel wanted.
Overall, the song I Want to Disappear is a dark and introspective exploration of the singer's psychological state. The lyrics are a mix of regret, desire, and despair, and the tone is one of resignation and nihilism.
Line by Line Meaning
Look at me now
I am currently presenting myself in a certain way to the world
Got no religion
I do not follow or believe in any particular religion
Look at me now
I am still presenting this façade to you
I'm so vacant
However, I feel empty inside and am searching for something more meaningful
Look at me now
Here is another layer to my public persona
I was a virgin
I used to be innocent and naïve
Look at me now
This is the current version of myself
Grew up to be a whore
I have since become corrupted and lost my sense of morality
And I want it
I am actively seeking out and desiring these negative experiences
I believe it
I have faith in this self-destructive path I am on
I'm a million different things
I have multiple identities and personalities
And not one you know
However, none of them are my true self and no one knows the real me
Hey and our mommies are lost now
Both my mother and I are searching for meaning and purpose in our lives
Hey, daddy's someone else
My father is also struggling with his own identity and has changed as a person
Hey, we love the abuse
As a society, we are drawn to negative experiences despite their harmful effects
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
We are willing to be abused because it gives us a sense of purpose and importance
But I know
Despite all of this, I am aware of the truth
I want to disappear
I want to escape from this reality and all the pain and suffering that comes with it
I want to die young
I do not want to live a long life full of suffering
And sell my soul
I am willing to trade my morality and values for temporary pleasure
Use up all your drugs
I am seeking out extreme experiences and will go to any lengths to achieve them
And make me come
I am searching for pleasure and satisfaction wherever I can find it
Yesterday man,
In the past, I used to be a certain way
I was a nihilist and
I believed in the philosophy of nihilism, that life has no inherent meaning
Now today I'm
However, now I am different
Just too fucking bored
I am feeling restless and unfulfilled with my current life
By the time I'm old enough
When I am older, I will still be lost and unsure of myself
I won't know anything at all
I will still be searching for meaning and purpose in my life
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
Written by: Brian Hugh Warner, Jeordie White
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