teen idle.
Marina and the diamonds. Lyrics

I wanna be a bottle blonde
I want to dye my hair blonde and look like the stereotypical image of a party girl

I don't know why but I feel conned
I don't understand why I feel like this, but I think I have been tricked into believing that this look and lifestyle will make me happy

I wanna be an idle teen
I wish I could be a lazy and carefree teenager, without any responsibilities or worries

I wish I hadn't been so clean
I regret being a good and obedient teenager, without any wild experiences or rebellious behavior

I wanna stay inside all day
I want to isolate myself from the outside world and escape from reality

I want the world to go away
I desire for all the problems and stress of life to disappear

I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake
I crave for excitement, danger and indulgence in the form of food

I wanna be a real fake
I want to pretend to be someone else, to escape from the reality of my own life

Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle
I regret not experiencing the carefree and reckless lifestyle of a teenager

Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title
I wish I had the confidence and popularity to compete for the title of prom queen

Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible
Instead of being a devout and restrictive Christian when I was younger

Feeling super, super, super! Suicidal
I am overwhelmed by feelings of depression and hopelessness

The wasted years
The years of my life that I have not put to good use or enjoyed to the fullest

The wasted youth
The time of my life when I had the most energy and opportunity, but did not take advantage of it

The pretty lies
The false beliefs or fantasies that I held about life and myself

The ugly truth
The harsh and painful reality of my life and the world around me

And the day has come where I have died
I have reached a low point in my life, feeling dead or hopeless

Only to find, I've come alive
I have realized the truth about my life and my desires, and I feel renewed and inspired

I wanna be a virgin pure
I want to be innocent and untouched by the darker aspects of life and sexuality

A 21st century whore
I want to embrace and explore my sexuality without shame or judgment

I want back my virginity
I wish I could go back to a time when I was innocent and pure, without the knowledge and experience that I have now

So I can feel infinity
I want to experience a sense of boundlessness and limitlessness, like I did when I was younger

I wanna drink until I ache
I want to numb my emotions and escape from reality through excessive drinking

I wanna make a big mistake
I want to take a risk and do something reckless, even if it has negative consequences

I want blood, guts, and angel cake
I want to experience a mixture of pleasure and pain

I'm gonna puke it anyway
I don't care about the consequences, even if it makes me sick

I wish I wasn't such a narcissist
I regret being too self-absorbed and obsessed with my own image and desires

I wish I didn't really kiss
I regret the times when I have kissed my reflection in the mirror, as a way to express my self-love and vanity

The mirror when I'm on my own
The only time when I feel truly honest and vulnerable is when I am alone with my own reflection

Oh God, I'm gonna die alone
I am afraid that my desires and actions will ultimately lead me to a lonely and unhappy life

Adolescence didn't make sense
I did not understand or appreciate the unique experiences and opportunities of adolescence

A little loss of innocence
I regret the times when I lost my sense of innocence and wonder

The ugliness of being a fool
The negative consequences and experiences that came from my foolish actions and decisions

Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?
Society often portrays youth as a time of beauty and wonder, but my own experiences have been anything but

Oh, alive
I am aware of my own mortality and the fleeting nature of life, but I am also filled with a sense of vitality and a desire to live fully

(Feeling super, super, super)
An expression of the overwhelming emotions and desires that the artist is experiencing