I Ain't Leaving
Mary Gauthier Lyrics

Broken on the inside, that's what I used to say
I used to think that something was wrong with me and my solution was to run away and avoid my problems.

Then I'd pack my bags, raise a white flag, drive away
Whenever I felt like I couldn't handle a situation or a relationship, I would run away from it without facing my fears.

I thought that's what made me strong
I believed that avoiding my problems was the strong thing to do so I wouldn't have to confront my deepest issues.

But I was young, I was wrong
I now realize that running away was not the right solution and that it only made me weaker in the end.

And I ain't leaving any more
I have decided that running away and quitting is not an option for me anymore.

I'm not walking out that door
I am committed to staying and facing my problems head-on instead of running away.

No more running away
I refuse to run away and hide from my problems.

I made up my mind to stay
I have decided to stay in the situation and try to work through it.

I'm gonna stand my ground
I am not going to be pushed around or let my problems defeat me.

Stare my demons down, I ain't leaving
I am going to face my fears and problems head-on instead of being scared and running away.

I don't know when it happened
Somewhere along the way, I changed my perspective and realized that running away was not solving anything.

But I turned a corner somewhere on the road
I had an epiphany and finally decided to face my problems.

And on this side of those stubborn years
After years of struggling, I have finally reached a turning point in my life.

Somehow I'm not so broken any more
After facing my problems, I feel stronger and more capable of overcoming them.

I pushed away what I shoulda held
In the past, I avoided situations and relationships that could have helped me grow and become stronger.

Yeah, but sorrow taught me well
Through my struggles and pain, I have learned important lessons that have helped me grow and become stronger.

there's still a whisper in my ear
Although I have overcome my issues, there are still challenges and negative thoughts that pop up.

That I'm trying not to hear
I am making an effort to tune out the negative thoughts and continue on the path of healing and growth.

Haunted voices from my past
Negative experiences and people from my past still haunt me.

Promises of greener grass
There are always temptations to run away from a challenging situation and believe that the grass is greener elsewhere.

Speaking to me everyday
These negative thoughts and temptations are a daily struggle for me.

Fighting hard to have their way
I am fighting against these negative thoughts and temptations to continue on my path of healing and growth.

But I ain't leaving any more
Despite the strife and negativity, I am committed to staying and facing my problems.

I'm not walking out that door
I am determined to stay and work through my problems instead of running away.

No more running away
I refuse to run away and avoid my problems.

I made up my mind to stay
I am committed to staying and working through my problems.

I wanna find out what it's like
I am curious about what my life would be like if I faced my problems instead of running away.

To live a different kind of life
I want to live a better life that is not defined by running away from my problems.

To hang around and fight
I want to stay and fight for what I believe in instead of running away.

For something I believe in
I want to stand up for my beliefs and values instead of letting my problems defeat me.

Understand I ain't leaving
I want people to know that I have changed and am committed to facing my problems head-on.

I ain't leaving
I want to reiterate that I am not giving up or running away from my problems.