Matt Pond PA has performed with Ted Leo and the Pharmacists, Nickel Creek, Youth Group, Mae, Keane, Guster, Dios Malos, Neko Case, Straylight Run, and Liz Phair.
The band's music has been included in the soundtrack for the FOX television program The O.C., specifically cover versions of Oasis' "Champagne Supernova" and Neutral Milk Hotel's "In the Aeroplane Over the Sea."
As of late 2007, the lineup consists of Matt Pond on vocals and guitar, Dan Crowell on drums, Steve Jewett on guitar, Matthew Daniel Siskin on bass, and Chris Hansen on keyboards, guitar, and vocals.
Albums
* Deer Apartments (1998)
* Measure (2000)
* The Green Fury (2002)
* The Nature of Maps (2002)
* Emblems (2004)
* Several Arrows Later (2005)
* Last Light (2007)
* The Dark Leaves (2010)
EPs & Singles
* I Thought You Were Sleeping EP (2001)
* This Is Not the Green Fury (2001)
* Four Songs EP (2004)
* Lily Two (Single) (2004)
* Winter Songs EP (2005)
* Snow Day (Single) (2005)
* Halloween (Single) (2006)
* Champagne Supernova EP (2006)
* Several Arrows Later (Single) (2006)
* If You Want Blood (2007)
* People Have A Way (Single) (2007)
* Sunlight (Single) (2007)
* The Freeep (2008)
* The Threeep - Part I - Starting (2009)
apology
Matt Pond PA Lyrics
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it sucks that something's evil in i'm sorry
i didn't steal your strength but i didn't ease your mind
i'm a junky for good guilt and my affection's hard to find
apology it's no apology
you know that something's evil in I'm sorry
you turn to me and then you turn to me
you're waiting for the word
that i can't say to you
i could learn to hate the truth
or i could learn to lie for you
you to me and then you turned on me
whenever i start speaking you stop smiling
you said to me what's that you said to me
i love you means so little when no one's listening
The song "Apology" by Matt Pond PA is a poignant and introspective reflection on the complexities of love, guilt, and regret. The opening lines of "apology, it's an apology, it sucks that something's evil in I'm sorry" immediately set a melancholy tone, as the singer seems to recognize that saying sorry isn't enough to make amends for whatever wrong has been committed. The line "I didn't steal your strength but I didn't ease your mind" hints at a deeper emotional betrayal, perhaps the neglect or indifference of a lover or friend.
The second stanza suggests a tension between the singer's desire to be honest and the recipient's need for comfort and reassurance. The line "currency is comfort this time with feeling" implies that the person being apologized to wants more than just words, but tangible proof of the singer's love and commitment. At the same time, the singer acknowledges their own limitations, admitting that "my affection's hard to find" and that they are "a junky for good guilt." The phrase "I could learn to hate the truth/or I could learn to lie for you" captures the difficult choice between facing the painful reality of a situation or trying to conceal it in order to spare someone else's feelings.
The final stanza delivers the emotional gut-punch of the song, as the singer laments the emptiness of the phrase "I love you" when no one is listening. This suggests that the singer may feel unheard or unrecognized in their attempts to communicate their emotions, and that the apology they offer may be similarly dismissed or ignored. Overall, "Apology" is a hauntingly beautiful meditation on the complexities of human relationships, and the difficulties of navigating the tender territory between love and hurt.
Line by Line Meaning
apology it's an apology
I'm sorry but my apology doesn't mean anything.
it sucks that something's evil in I'm sorry
It's unfortunate that my apology doesn't feel sincere.
i didn't steal your strength but i didn't ease your mind
I didn't directly hurt you, but I also didn't make things better for you.
i'm a junky for good guilt and my affection's hard to find
I enjoy feeling guilty and my love isn't easily given.
apology it's no apology
My apology isn't genuine.
you know that something's evil in I'm sorry
You can sense that my apology is insincere.
you turn to me and then you turn to me
You seek comfort in me but then you become angry with me.
currency is comfort this time with feeling
You want emotional comfort and reassurance.
you're waiting for the word that i can't say to you
There's something you want to hear from me, but I can't say it.
i could learn to hate the truth or i could learn to lie for you
I could choose to be honest and hurt you, or lie to keep you happy.
you to me and then you turned on me
You were once affectionate towards me, but now you're distant and angry.
whenever i start speaking you stop smiling
My words upset you and cause tension between us.
you said to me what's that you said to me
You ask me to clarify what I said to you.
i love you means so little when no one's listening
Saying 'I love you' doesn't mean anything if nobody is there to hear it.
Contributed by Sebastian C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.