It's On
Matthew Lyrics

I been contemplating, thinking, debate if I'm taking the right steps
I have been deep in thought, considering and deliberating if the actions I am taking are the correct ones.

I can feel the bass shaking, the trunk rattles to the music of my death
The intense vibrations of the music make me aware of my own mortality and the potential danger of my situation.

I am ready, but my palms sweaty
Although I am prepared to face what's ahead, I am still nervous and anxious.

I'll stand steady when they come get me
I will remain composed and resolute when they come to apprehend me.

My brains hit the wall in the alley like confetti
The impact of my head against the wall in the alley resulted in a scattering of my thoughts and consciousness, much like the way confetti falls to the ground.

My body just smacked the pavement hard a deadman's heavy
The force of my body hitting the pavement was so intense that I felt as if I were already dead.

I'm blacking out hear the ringing in my ears
I am losing consciousness and can only hear a ringing in my ears.

The Devil is taxing now pay the toll with your tears
It feels like the Devil is taking his due, and I must pay with my own tears and pain.

My fear living long enough to be like daddy
My biggest fear is becoming like my father, who caused my mother great pain.

He hurt my mama badly and she gladly
My father caused significant harm to my mother, and yet she still chose to have me.

Paid the cost to have me, sadly
My mother endured great difficulty and pain in order to have me.

Didn't measure up to much but
Although I may not have accomplished much in life, or met certain expectations, I still matter.

Opinions suck and honestly never really gave a fuck
I have come to realize that other people's opinions do not matter, and I have never truly cared about them.

Past tense thoughts hidden in the flash of a muzzle
Memories of past actions and regrets come rushing back in a split second.

And twitching muscles reflexing from tensing up in the struggle
My muscles tense and twitch involuntarily, reflecting the intensity of the struggle and fear I have experienced.

Every night that passes by I been dead as a doornail can't feel nothing inside Now It's over
I have felt dead inside for a long time and now it's all over.

All the ways I made you cry This the worst I promise that it will be the last time
I am aware of the pain I have caused you and I promise that this will be the last time.

The Devil brought a contract Pointed at the dotted line saw a signature like mine Now It's Over
It feels as if the Devil himself has made a deal with me, and now it's all over.

I'll wait for you by Hell's gates I can't wait to see your face
I will be waiting for you in the afterlife, and I am excited to see you again.

Kind of finicky feeling negative energy, my enemies into me And I'm thinking about them ending me
I am becoming increasingly nervous and paranoid about my enemies, and I can't help but think that they want to kill me.

Like women pretend to be intimately trying to get with me Don't mean to be so fidgety paranoia defensively
I am suspicious of women who pretend to be interested in me, and my paranoia has caused me to act defensively and nervously.

Gets involved, it's my fault let y'all get to me Blow it off, when she calls subsequently
I have allowed others to get too involved in my life, and now I regret it. However, I try to ignore the negative feelings when people call me.

I'm off the rails, no it's off the walls Cocaine in the stalls, grabbing my balls she wanna chill with me
I am doing things that are crazy and reckless, including using cocaine and engaging in reckless sexual behavior.

I'm calculating she scheming to set me up I'm having weird dreams it seems they wanna wet me up
I suspect that someone is plotting against me and I am having terrifying nightmares about being killed.

Pistol tucked the law don't want me to carry at all Emotions raw cut me deep like firewood and a saw
I am carrying a gun, despite it being against the law, and my emotions are raw and painful, much like the way a saw cuts through firewood.

Broken jaw bloody nose clothes scattered on the floor No direction to go my head is spinning like a globe
I have been brutally beaten up and left with nowhere to go. My head is spinning and I feel lost and disoriented.

I've been told death going door to door collecting souls This the way it goes, born by yourself then die alone
I have been warned that death is always present and collecting souls. This is just the way life is - we are born alone and die alone.