The End
Matthew James Lyrics
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I been thinking bout a lot of things
Doin it constant
Listen I don't wanna bother you
But I think bout what we used to do
Fucking up options
Nothing was cautious
Now we living from deposit to posit
Nothing is obvious
Somebody pause it
Used to get wasted every night
Thought we would make it out alive
You used to blaze it more than i
You got complacent and you died
I went off the deep end and I died
Got scrambled up somehow survived
Cuz in the deep end there's no light
Just fall asleep and close your eyes
I went in the water and started to wander away
Wonder away who I am
Wondering wait who am i
Worry I'm wasting my time
Worried I'm wasting my days
Meanwhile I'm wasting away
Was it a waste of a fade
Wanted to do something crazy
Now I'm just stuck in the rain
Then I split
In 52
New directions unrequested wasn't expecting this so soon
Yeah I really shoulda respected all this substance I abuse
Yeah I really shoulda respected all these substances I use
Now I'm reeling in a reflection
I know
That I should probably use more caution when I'm sinking
I know
That I could probably lose all thoughts of everything that
I know
That there's a lot more to reality than just what
I'm shown
And i know
I might be fried
Was a betrayal from my mind
And now I'm on the other side
Not sure I'll make it back alive
I went off the deep end and i died
Got scrambled up somehow survived
Cuz in the deep end there's no light
Just fall asleep and close your eyes
The lyrics to the song "The End" by Matthew James describe the consequences of irresponsible drinking and substance abuse. The singer acknowledges that he has been "thinking about a lot of things" while constantly engaging in these behaviors. He reflects on the past when he and his friends used to party and get "wasted" every night, thinking they would "make it out alive." However, his friend eventually died due to complacency while the singer went "off the deep end" and got lost in his thoughts, feeling uncertain about his identity and wasting his time away. He knows he should have been more cautious, respecting the substances he abused, and that there is much more to reality than what he has experienced.
The overall message of the song is about the dangers of excessive drinking and substance abuse, as well as the importance of being responsible and respectful towards oneself and others. The lyrics convey a sense of regret and melancholy, but also a willingness to learn and change for the better. The singer seems to be at a crossroads, contemplating his past mistakes, and wondering if he will ever "make it back alive" from the experience.
Overall the song is quite introspective and thought-provoking. It highlights the issues faced by many young people who are struggling to find their place in the world while dealing with the pressures and temptations of life.
Line by Line Meaning
I been drinking irresponsibly
I have been consuming alcohol excessively without any regard for the consequences.
I been thinking bout a lot of things
I have been contemplating various thoughts and ideas.
Doin it constant
I have been doing it persistently and continuously.
Listen I don't wanna bother you
I don't want to disturb you with my thoughts and problems.
But I think bout what we used to do
I often reminisce about the memories and experiences we shared in the past.
Fucking up options
I have been making poor choices that affect my future opportunities.
Nothing was cautious
I didn't exercise any caution or prudence in my actions and decisions.
Now we living from deposit to posit
Currently, we are surviving and living paycheck to paycheck, struggling to make ends meet.
Looking for money to log-in
I am constantly searching and struggling to obtain enough money to afford to continue living or working.
Nothing is obvious
Things are not clear or evident, and I am uncertain about the future outcomes of my actions.
Somebody pause it
I wish for things to come to a halt, and for someone to stop everything momentarily.
Used to get wasted every night
I used to drink excessively every night and get intoxicated.
Thought we would make it out alive
I had the impression that we would survive and succeed despite our reckless behavior and choices.
You used to blaze it more than i
You used to smoke marijuana more frequently and excessively than I did.
You got complacent and you died
You became too comfortable and satisfied with your life, which ultimately led to your demise.
I went off the deep end and I died
I reached a breaking point and succumbed to my mistakes and poor choices.
Got scrambled up somehow survived
Despite feeling lost and confused, I managed to survive somehow.
Cuz in the deep end there's no light
When deep in trouble, there seems to be no way out or hope of finding a solution.
Just fall asleep and close your eyes
Metaphorically, I am giving up on fighting and choosing to ignore the problems at hand.
I went in the water and started to wander away
I went into deep trouble and wandered away from my usual self.
Wonder away who I am
I question my identity and purpose in life.
Wondering wait who am i
I am uncertain and doubtful about my true identity.
Worry I'm wasting my time
I am anxious and concerned that I am wasting my time.
Worried I'm wasting my days
I am apprehensive and troubled that I am wasting my life away.
Meanwhile I'm wasting away
At the same time, I am physically and emotionally deteriorating.
Was it a waste of a fade
I regret the time and money I spent on a haircut or hairstyle that ultimately amounted to nothing or was unfulfilling.
Wanted to do something crazy
I desired to experience or do something adventurous or daring.
Now I'm just stuck in the rain
Now, I am merely stuck in a difficult situation and unable to escape or find a solution.
Then I split
I left or departed from a particular situation or group of people.
In 52
52 is a metaphorical representation of a period of time, either 52 weeks in a year or 52 cards in a deck.
New directions unrequested wasn't expecting this so soon
I am currently heading towards a new path or direction that I did not request or anticipate arriving so soon.
Yeah I really shoulda respected all these substances I use
I should have exercised more responsibility and precaution when using drugs or alcohol.
Now I'm reeling in a reflection
I am now feeling distressed and confused after taking a long look at my past actions and behaviors.
I know that I should probably use more caution when I'm sinking
I am aware that I should be more careful and precautious when I am diving deep into trouble or problems.
I know that I could probably lose all thoughts of everything that
I recognize that I need to rid myself of all unnecessary thoughts and distractions that cloud my mind.
I know that there's a lot more to reality than just what
I am aware that there is much more to the world and life than what is immediately apparent or visible.
I'm shown
What is presented or revealed to me from my limited perspective.
And I know
Despite all the confusion and uncertainty, I am still conscious and aware of my surroundings and situation.
I might be fried
I could potentially be suffering from the symptoms of drug or alcohol consumption.
Was a betrayal from my mind
My mind and thoughts were deceiving me and caused me to make poor decisions and choices.
And now I'm on the other side
I have finally crossed over to the other side and gained clarity and understanding about my situation.
Not sure I'll make it back alive
Despite this newfound clarity, I am unsure if I will be able to resolve my problems and make it out alive.
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Written by: MATTHEW HEMMER
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