Walls In Which I Hide
Matthew James Lyrics

Cornered here with my face all wet
Trapped here with tears streaming down my face

And my body shakes with a cold, cold sweat
Feeling so anxious that my whole body trembles with a clammy sweat

While I feel the weight of my world
Suffocating under the burden of all my problems

God, I need one more hit before my world
Desperately craving something to take the edge off and numb the pain

Comes crashing through the door, and
Before my problems overwhelm me once again

The pain returns
The anguish and heartache I thought I'd escaped come flooding back

Will this time be the last
Wondering if this cycle of addiction, pain, and escape will ever end

Can I forget my past
Longing to wipe the slate clean and start over

And I don't know why
Feeling lost and confused, unable to understand my own emotions

This feeling inside
The indescribable ache and emptiness I carry within me

And the walls in which I hide
The self-imposed isolation and barriers I've erected to protect myself

Are to blame
Realizing that my own actions and choices are responsible for my pain

Is there anyone who knows
Desperately seeking help and guidance, hoping to find a way out

A better way to kill my woes
Looking for a healthier, sustainable solution to my problems

Make it go away
Wishing someone could magically make all my problems disappear

Give me one good reason to come down
Needing a compelling reason to face reality and confront my issues head-on

Try and face this troubled town
Summoning the courage to confront the challenges of daily life

From which I came
Recognizing that my past has shaped who I am today

Will I feel my life
Wondering if my life will ever feel fulfilling and worthwhile

Is nothing less than strife
Feeling like every day is a battle, full of stress and struggle

And I don't know why
Still struggling to make sense of my own emotions and experiences

This tear that I cry
The overwhelming sadness and pain I can no longer contain

And the fear in which I hide
The constant anxiety and terror that lurks beneath the surface

Is____ to blame
Realizing I can no longer externalize the blame for my own problems

Hear a stranger at the door so I
Hearing a knock at the door, feeling apprehensive but curious

Crawl across this stone cold floor
Dragging myself across the floor, weighed down by despair

And let him in
Taking a chance on someone new, allowing them to enter my life

Sat with me and fed me bread
Offering me sustenance and warmth, both physically and emotionally

Healed my heart, touched my head
Providing me with comfort and solace, helping to ease my pain

And set me free within
Opening up new possibilities for growth and healing within myself

Now I am free from the walls that were killing me
Breaking down the barriers that I had erected around myself, finding freedom and liberation

And I don't know why
Feeling a sense of wonder and gratitude, unable to fully comprehend the positive changes in my life

This tear that I cry
Crying tears of joy and relief, overwhelmed by the kindness of others

And the fear in which I hide
Still struggling with fear and anxiety, but feeling hopeful about the future

Is____ to blame
Realizing that I alone am responsible for my own happiness and well-being