His parents were divorced when he was only six years old. Later, his mother remarried and he moved to Canton, Ohio. Shortly after this, he met two of his best friends and future bandmates, Hoopes and Pittman. As a teenager Thiessen was well known for his very authentic goat impressions. The Beach Boys and The Beatles are two of his biggest musical influences. He likes wearing plaid, but doesn't like high-tops. He is loveable toward all animals (especially penguins). Thiessen is also known for being a prankster. Some of his favorite memories include getting massive sunburns and riding a yacht in Jacksonville, Florida. He now resides in Bolivar, Ohio. Some of his hardcore fans call him "Matty T" or "T-Sun."
In addition to being in Relient K, Thissen plays in his own solo piano project called Matthew Thiessen and the Earthquakes. The songs are typically emotional and very personal. He currently has 6 songs produced for many different CDs, including various compilation albums.
While primarily seen playing the guitar and the piano, it is said that Thiessen can play ten instruments. Other known instruments that he can play include bass, drums, bells, organ and trumpet.
Faking My Own Suicide
Matthew Thiessen Lyrics
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I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end you'll know I've lied
To get your attention
I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me
It's kinda sweet
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days
But it's too late
Too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
Oh, I'm faking my own suicide
Because a part of you will die along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you your love for me
Is more than six feet deep
You'll say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know
That all along
I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
And I'll walk in that room
And see your eyes open so wide
Open so wide
Because you know
Because you know
You will never leave my side
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed at our love that's so alive
Our love is so alive
The song "Faking My Own Suicide" by Matthew Thiessen explores the concept of wanting attention from a loved one. The singer pretends to take his own life, not out of a desire to actually end his life, but to prove to the person he loves that they love him back. He wants to see their reaction and how much they care for him. The lyrics propose the idea that faking one's own death can bring on feelings of love and attention that may not have been there before, and the mention of writing a letter to remind the loved one of their love for him demonstrates a somewhat manipulative nature.
Though the lyrics may seem dark, the overall message is not necessarily negative. Thiessen suggests that the idea of a "double funeral" - the death of the fake suicide and a part of the loved one who dies along with them - somehow brings a sweetness to the situation. The song even ends on a positive note, with the singer suggesting that the two will laugh and cry together, overcome with the joyful feeling of their love being so alive.
Overall, "Faking My Own Suicide" portrays the idea of seeking attention and love at any cost, and the emotional impact it can have on others. The song encourages listeners to examine their own desires for attention and consider the potential consequences of manipulating loved ones.
Line by Line Meaning
So I've made up my mind
I have decided on a course of action
I will pretend to leave this world behind
I will fake my own death
And in the end you'll know I've lied
You will eventually find out the truth
To get your attention
I am doing this to get your focus
I'm faking my own suicide
I am pretending to take my own life
Because I know you love me
I understand that you have feelings for me
You just haven't realized
You are not aware of how much you care
They'll hold a double funeral
They will arrange a funeral for both of us
Because a part of you will die along with me
You will be deeply affected by my supposed death
It's kinda sweet
It's a little bit charming
I wish you thought that I was dead
I want you to believe that I am gone forever
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
I would rather you feel sad than me not existing
And before arriving at my grave
Before you get to my burial site
You come to the conclusion
You realize
You'd loved me all your days
You had feelings for me your whole life
But it's too late
It's not possible to change anything now
Too late for you to say
You cannot express your feelings anymore
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
I will compose a message for you to cherish
Reminding you your love for me
Reinforcing that you cared for me
Is more than six feet deep
Your emotions for me are beyond what we can see
You'll say aloud that you would have been my wife
You will proclaim that you would have been my partner
Right about that time is when I come back to life
Just at that moment, I will reveal that I am not really dead
And let you know
And inform you
That all along
All the while
I was faking my own suicide
I was pretending to take my own life
And I'll walk in that room
I will enter that space
And see your eyes open so wide
And witness your astonishment
Because you know
Because you understand
You will never leave my side
You will always remain next to me
Until the day that I die for the first time
Until the day when I actually pass away
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh
And we will share mirth
And we will cry
And we will express grief
So overjoyed at our love that's so alive
So thrilled about the fact that our love continues to exist
Our love is so alive
Our feelings for each other are so real and intense
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