In My Mind
Maty Noyes Lyrics

I know I messed it up with every other guy
I acknowledge that I have ruined past relationships with other partners

I swear you're different and this time I'm gonna try
I believe you are unique and I am committed to giving this relationship my best effort

We can start fresh if you'd just let go of the past, yeah
If you let go of past negative experiences, we can begin anew

I don't, I don't, I don't get it 'cause I don't judge you like that, yeah
I don't understand why you're so critical of me because I don't condemn you in the same way

Can't just love me in pieces, gotta love it all, yeah
You can't just love certain aspects of me, you have to accept and love me in my entirety

You try to make me feel like being human's wrong
You attempt to make me feel ashamed for being imperfect

You got a lot to say about me and my past
You frequently comment on my past actions and mistakes

Got me runnin' other places in my mind, in my mind
You make me feel so unhappy that I often escape in my thoughts

How could you even say I never try, never try
I'm surprised and hurt that you think I don't make an effort in our relationship

And you're acting like I've been around with every single guy
You're accusing me of infidelity with every man I interact with

I know that I could be with any other man, yeah
I am aware that I have other romantic options

But none of them can do it quite the way you can, yeah
However, no one compares to you in the way you make me feel

Thought we were stronger, why you doubting all the time
I believed we had a strong bond, so I don't understand why you doubt our relationship

Our love is effortless, stop acting like you're scared
Our love is natural and easy, so please stop behaving as if you're frightened of it

I get down on my knees but you're not playing fair
I am willing to humble myself for our relationship, but you are not reciprocating fairly

My heart breaks down when you question if you're mine
It hurts me deeply when you doubt if our relationship is real

Got me running to these places where nobody else has gone
Your behavior drives me to escape my thoughts and explore uncharted mental territory

And I tried to take you with me baby then it went all wrong
I attempted to share my retreat with you, but it didn't work out

And I said, "I'm here to stay but I need to get away"
I want to remain in this relationship, but sometimes I need to remove myself to recharge and escape negative thoughts