Self Love
Mavi Lyrics

Just because I (love you), yeah, yeah
I love you unconditionally, regardless of any other reasons

Peel in my second whip
Driving fast in my second car

Stealing, putting second hand kills in my residence
Engaging in illegal activities and hiding the evidence in my home

Healed all my brethren with a seal, we can't let you in
I have protected my friends and family and closed off access to outsiders

Medicine
Providing comfort and healing to those close to me

I put the effort in to still burn at effigy
I continue to struggle and face criticism despite my efforts

Odorous, I'm sober, just as lil as they letting me
I remain sober and unaffected by the negative influences around me

Mama, wipe your tears, I'm fighting titans, can't invite you here
Mother, don't worry about me, I'm battling significant challenges and can't have you involved

Poetic license veering from the mic, my chest too tight to steer
I express myself through my music, but I carry emotional burdens that make it difficult to control

Chess lessons, bloodletting, flood when the night is clear
Learning strategic moves in life, causing emotional pain, and experiencing overwhelming emotions when the night is calm

I ain't give a fuck 'til my lungs had to fight for air
I didn't care about anything until I faced a life-threatening situation

Glaring, staring numb, therapist had a life to spare
Feeling empty and detached while my therapist had other commitments

Snatched me by the eye said I'ma fight whether I like or not
Grabbing my attention and telling me that I have to fight, whether I want to or not

And she told me reasons why, but that's the private part
She explained the reasons behind it, but that's personal and private

Burnt the midnight lighter
Staying up late, contemplating and reflecting

Killed the drive in me to tie the knot
Lost the motivation to commit to something or someone

My game slop but if I name-dropped you, you still got my heart
I may not be successful, but if I mention you in my music, it's a sign of my love and loyalty

Driving off
Leaving or moving forward

Squeezing off the E-brake these days
Releasing the brake and moving forward without hesitation

I can't talk to god just for my knees sake
I can't turn to religion for the sake of my own pride

Long conversations to be had
There are important discussions that need to take place

Wrong places wrong times and
Finding myself in unfavorable situations

Strong patience I must add
I possess a great deal of patience

Soul weighted don't mistake expatiations for some sadness
My soul feels heavy, but it's not sadness, just a realistic view of things

A strong face, a long race I'm unafraid to come in last
I present a strong image and am willing to endure a long journey, even if I don't succeed

Quarter tank and ounce of gas and I'm driving
Having limited resources, but still moving forward

Look, I'm back at it glad bags and flat backs a pack rat
I'm back to my old habits of hoarding and collecting unnecessary items

A crass habit crash flashing scratch that im past rapping
Engaging in offensive behavior, crashing, and realizing that I'm done with superficial rap

I'ma show off
I'm going to display my skills and talents

In a scar competition
Engaging in a competition of who has the most emotional scars

Flaunting close calls when you cook you can't regress back to the store bought
Showing off close brushes with danger, emphasizing that once you experience real life, you can't go back to a sheltered existence

I hope you keepin' me in mind I hope you shakin'
I hope you remember and think about me, and I hope I have an impact on you

I hope you still analyzin' hard as I made you
I hope you're still critically thinking and analyzing things the way I taught you

As hard as I make it love that I'm armed with broad and it's brazen
I consistently make things difficult, but I'm determined and bold in my approach

Arguing with mom cause I'm always gone when i stay here
Engaging in disagreements with my mother because I'm always away from home

She said it's just because I love you
She claims her actions are driven by love for me

That I see you out here poisoning yourself and want it for you
She believes I'm harming myself and wants better for me

And I love you better than i love myself my fruit is spoiled
She loves me more than she loves herself because she feels I have become corrupted

And it's not a game I put it in your name I kinda told you
It's not a joke; I have made sacrifices for you and made my intentions clear

And I nodded and I took it to the bank and I deposit
I understood and accepted what she said and internalized it

And I dropped it and I looked into the mirror said "oh Mavi"
I let it sink in, and when I saw myself in the mirror, I had a moment of self-reflection

You coarser and you closer the rhythm that's inside
You're getting rougher and more in tune with the inner rhythm within you

And I warped you in the interest of design
I shaped you in a way that serves my artistic vision

It's just because i love you
All my actions are driven by love for you

Clasp the windows to my soul
Protecting and closing off my true emotions

Smoke thicken grab my mental by the throat
Feeling overwhelmed and suffocated by my thoughts

Mind sifting tides shift it's still cement around my toes
My mind is constantly changing, but I still feel stuck and weighed down

Saran wrap around my pack i can't trust get hand to hand served w a hand behind my back
Using excessive precautions to protect my belongings and not trusting anyone who approaches me

They prayed for us, ain't heard the answer but my glance is in the stash
Others have prayed for our well-being, but I haven't received a clear answer, so I focus on material possessions

It's growing handsome by the stack i self aggrandized in the past but now the sun talking
My wealth is increasing, and I used to inflate my own importance, but now I listen to the wisdom of the sun

Not sure of where i'm going but i'm blunt walking
I don't know my destination, but I continue to move forward with confidence

In life or in this hood so keep a look for 911 callers
Whether in life or in a dangerous neighborhood, always be aware of potential emergencies

I fund loss 'cause i'm from loss
I embrace and contribute to loss because it's a part of my upbringing

You gut me then it's no love lost
If you betray or hurt me, our love will no longer exist

You spun me into crumbles fingers numbing from the bloodloss
You caused me to break apart, and I feel numb from the pain

I've endured
I have suffered and persevered

The moral of my story is I'm impure
The main message from my experiences is that I'm flawed and tainted

The horror in my story is
The frightening aspect of my story is

I've been through it and i still do it
Despite my past experiences, I continue to face challenges

And my pencil is in earnest the difference tween u hearing the new records from my service
I genuinely express myself through my music, and it's the only way you can truly understand my experiences

The medicine I'm burning turned my breath into a furnace
The substances I'm consuming intensify my emotions and make me feel like a burning furnace

Whole face hot
Feeling intense emotions and discomfort

Shoulders hold weight till i break pace and can't stop
Bearing the burden until I reach a breaking point and can no longer continue

So baby i could change your life, if you let me
I have the potential to greatly impact and improve your life, if you allow me to

Tryna eat ain't really crave a bite since gained insight from desi
I don't have a strong desire for material pleasures since gaining knowledge and wisdom

So i stay inside away from light
I choose to isolate myself and avoid external distractions

Hoping that your prayers reach
Having faith that your prayers will be heard

Loathing that i can't breathe
Feeling intense frustration and suffocation

Croaking when i can't speak
Struggling to express myself and feeling choked

Was open with my grandscheme
I was transparent about my grand plan

You was either with me or in my way plow through standees
You were either supportive of me or an obstacle that I had to overcome

We sprouting now we plant seeds
We are growing and flourishing, laying the foundation for future growth

You plant love love will grow
If you sow love, love will flourish

You plant fear fear a grow
If you sow fear, fear will grow

If you planted me then me would grow
If you nurtured and supported me, I would thrive and develop

But i was branded negro
But I am stigmatized and marginalized as a Black person

I got slanted before relegated to preshow
I have been unfairly judged and pushed aside, considered insignificant

I started with wine then to the clear then to the nino
I began with drinking wine, then moved to clear spirits, and eventually to cocaine

Then to everclear and never steering without prerolls
Then I moved to high-proof alcohol and never drove without pre-rolled cigarettes

And I just had the presets to preceptor me bro
And I only had my previous experiences and influences to guide me

I bleed presence
I exude a strong aura and make my presence felt

And preach lessons
I convey important messages and teachings

All for free too
I do it all without expecting anything in return

And I offer free smoke to any nigga behind a #MeToo
I challenge and confront anyone who has been accused of sexual misconduct

'Cause tell my niggas: we ain't free until she free too
I tell my male friends that we can't truly be free until women are also liberated

And tell my sisters: we ain't free until they free too
I tell women that they can't be truly free until all women are liberated

Today free too, to... we... too
Today, we are all free to be ourselves