chiasma
Mavi Lyrics

I said my name made me say those thangs baby
My name influences the things I say and do, even when I don't want it to.

Live a life of pace lady I'm sure my place hades
I live my life at my own speed, but sometimes it feels like I'm in hell.

I'on need a thang baby just need to think
I don't need material possessions, I just need time to think about my life and myself.

Micah w me when the fight left me, and the light heavy
My friend Micah helped me when I was at my lowest and struggling.

So I hit the dark lighters burning out my spark levies breaking from the art baby
To cope, I turn to substances that make me feel alive, but they also drain me of my true creativity and passion.

And I'm katrina
I feel like I'm caught in the eye of a destructive storm, like Hurricane Katrina.

Ain't been thinking bout the bar lately
I haven't been spending time at bars, or focusing on partying and having a good time, lately.

Cause ion need her
I don't need the distraction and temptation of alcohol, or the social scene that comes with it right now.

I been dreaming bout a car lately
I've been thinking a lot about finally owning a car, which feels like a symbol of independence and freedom.

And it's careening
My mind is racing with thoughts and desires, and it's hard to keep them in check.

And I'm just screaming in the dark hazy, the car speeding
My mind is in a chaotic state, and I feel like I'm moving too fast without any direction or control.

In the middle of the street crawling
I feel vulnerable and exposed, like I'm crawling in the middle of a busy street and everyone can see me.

A lil baby
I feel helpless and small, like a child who doesn't know how to navigate the world.

And I wake up out that dream sprawling
When I finally wake up from this chaotic state, I feel scattered and disoriented.

A lil shaky
It takes me a while to regain my composure and feel steady again.

I been thinking bout how dreams end
I've been contemplating the fleeting nature of dreams, and how they often don't come to fruition.

And how my means end
I've also been reflecting on the different paths I could take to achieve my goals, and how they might lead to different outcomes.

And how I need friends
I realize that I need the support and advice of friends to navigate these decisions and hardships.

But hate niggas
However, I also have feelings of bitterness and animosity towards some people in my life, likely due to past experiences.

I been treading in the deep end
I feel like I'm in over my head, and that the challenges in my life are too difficult for me to handle.

And ion need fins
I don't need any shortcuts or methods to make things easier for me - I want to face my problems head-on and overcome them myself.

Cause when my feet hit the bottom I'll be cradled
I'm confident that even if things get worse before they get better, I'll be able to handle it and find comfort in the end.

I'm a lazy motherfucker
Despite my struggles, I still have a tendency to be lazy and procrastinate, which only makes things harder for me.

Either that or I'm a workhorse
However, I'm also capable of being very focused and hardworking when I'm motivated and have a goal to work towards.

Niggas want my waves but they need way bigger surfboards
Many people are interested in me and my success, but they underestimate the amount of work and talent required to achieve what I have.

Niggas want a tape and they just preying on my hurt for it
Some people are only interested in my music because they think it will make them money, or because they want to exploit my personal struggles for their own gain.

Drinking on the third floor to laying on the third floor
I often find myself going from socializing and having fun with friends to feeling completely overwhelmed and exhausted, like I'm just laying on the floor.

And laying in the dirt for this shit I swear I'm willing
Despite the hardships and sacrifices required for my music career, I'm willing to endure them and put everything I have into it.

Brave enough to search for the shit I know I'm missing
I'm willing to confront the parts of myself that I'm insecure or unsure about in order to become a better artist and person.

Craving for that hurt probably gon b my ending
I have a deep desire to feel pain and struggle, which might ultimately be what leads to my downfall or demise.

Tryna b the bridge between my father and my sister
I want to repair the fractured relationships in my family and serve as a mediator between my father and sister, who are estranged.

Tryna be the shit for a while 'fore I'm incinerated
I want to enjoy my success and make the most of my career before it ultimately comes to an end.

Tryna be the kid for my mama she can feel elated
I want to make my mother proud and give her a sense of happiness and joy through my music and accomplishments.

Owe her cause she liberate me
I feel like I owe my mother a debt of gratitude for raising me and instilling in me the drive and ambition that have led to my success.

Know she see me in her face
I know that my mother sees some of herself reflected in me, and that she takes pride in the parts of me that remind her of herself.

Know my brothers imitate me
I'm aware that my younger brothers look up to me and try to emulate my successes and behaviors.

Though we in a different place
However, despite our shared experiences and connection, we're all at different stages of our lives and facing distinct challenges.

Dough I'm out here for this money
While I have a passion for music, I'm also driven by the financial success and opportunities that come with it.

Can fail a million ways they still b dumb enough to love me
Despite all the possible ways I could fail or stumble, my fans are loyal and devoted to me and my music.

Or trusting enough to love me
They also have a sense of trust and faith in me, and believe that I won't let them down or betray their expectations.

Swear I'm so fucking lucky
I feel incredibly fortunate to have the success and support that I do, and don't take it for granted.

Still attribute it to talent cause I love the gluttony
While I appreciate the support and luck I've had, I also believe that my talent and hard work have played a significant role, and I enjoy indulging in that feeling of satisfaction.

I swear I love the fame
Despite the challenges and downside of fame, I still have a sense of enjoyment and fulfillment from the recognition and admiration it brings.

And I love the pride
I also take a deep sense of pride in my work and my accomplishments, which motivates me to keep pushing myself and striving for more.

Just like I love the pain
However, I'm also drawn to the pain and struggle of my journey, and embrace the emotional turmoil and hardships that come with it.

And I love the ride
Overall, despite the ups and downs, I'm passionate and exhilarated by the entire journey of my music career, and I wouldn't want it any other way.