Beautiful Disease
Maxeen Lyrics


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My lipstick cigarette's still burning
Small things
makes halos around your head
I know for you I am still yearning
The feelings are not dead

Cause I feel myself falling forward
With no knot there to rescue me
My favorite misery
Cause when I love, is killing me

You're a beautiful disease,
The sicker I get, the better I feel

There is no cure, no medication
I suffer with you on my own
I know I'm cursed with infatuation
As I wait by the telephone

Cause I feel myself falling forward
With no knot there to rescue me
My favorite misery
Cause when I love, is killing me

You're a beautiful disease,
The sicker I get, the better I feel
You're a beautiful disease,
The sicker I get, the better I feel
You're killing me

Cause I feel myself falling forward
With no knot there to rescue me
My favorite misery
Cause when I love, is killing me

You're a beautiful disease,
The sicker I get, the better I feel
You're a beautiful disease,




The sicker I get, the better I feel
You're killing me

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Maxeen's song "Beautiful Disease" are a poignant representation of the paradoxical nature of love, particularly toxic relationships. The opening lines of "My lipstick cigarette's still burning / small things make halos around your head" illustrate the singer's obsession with the object of their affection, despite the negative impact it has on their well-being. The phrase "small things make halos around your head" suggests a romanticized perception of their lover, almost as if they are an angelic being. However, this perception is likely distorted and amplified by the singer's intense emotional attachment.


The chorus, "You're a beautiful disease, The sicker I get, the better I feel" further emphasizes the singer's self-destructive tendencies in relationships. They liken their lover to a disease that they cannot resist, even though it is slowly killing them. The line "There is no cure, no medication / I suffer with you on my own" highlights the sense of isolation and desperation that often accompanies toxic relationships. Despite knowing the damage it causes, the singer cannot bring themselves to let go.


In conclusion, "Beautiful Disease" is a powerful exploration of the complexities of love, particularly the allure of unhealthy relationships. It conveys the idea that sometimes, the things we crave the most can also be the most harmful to us.


Line by Line Meaning

My lipstick cigarette's still burning
The singer is dwelling on small things to distract themselves from their infatuation with someone who is toxic for them.


Small things makes halos around your head
The person the singer is infatuated with appears to be perfect, but only because the singer is idealizing them.


I know for you I am still yearning
The singer is aware that their feelings for this person have not gone away, even though they are causing them harm.


The feelings are not dead
Despite the harm the artist's infatuation is causing them, they are still deeply in love with this person.


Cause I feel myself falling forward
The artist is unable to resist their attraction to this person, even though they know it is dangerous.


With no knot there to rescue me
There is no outside force that can save the singer from the harm they are inflicting on themselves by staying in this toxic situation.


My favorite misery
The singer is addicted to the pain caused by their infatuation with this person.


Cause when I love, is killing me
The artist acknowledges that their love for this person is slowly destroying them.


You're a beautiful disease, The sicker I get, the better I feel
The artist sees their infatuation with this person as a disease that is destroying them, but they can't help but enjoy the pain it causes them.


There is no cure, no medication
The artist knows that there is nothing that can make their infatuation go away.


I suffer with you on my own
The singer is dealing with the pain of their infatuation alone, because they know that others would tell them to leave the toxic situation.


I know I'm cursed with infatuation
The artist is aware that their feelings for this person are not healthy or normal.


As I wait by the telephone
The singer is waiting for a call from this person, hoping that they will continue the cycle of harm and pleasure.


You're killing me
The singer knows that their infatuation with this person is slowly destroying them.




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