If Only
Maya Payne Lyrics


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I can see behind your eyes
As I pause to watch the sky
Should I take this leap,
Or will it bury me?
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
IF ONLY I could
I can't speak, I'm so emerged
Maybe I don't deserve
I'm the only one to blame
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
IF ONLY I could
Tell the world I'm trying
Spread my wings and fly
Oh, I continue to suffer
It could wreck my desire
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could




I would do it all again
IF ONLY I could

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Maya Payne's "If Only" seem to be about regret and the desire to change the past. The singer is contemplating taking a leap or making a decision but is unsure if it will lead to her downfall. She wishes she could change the past and do it all again. The phrase "If only I, only I could change" is repeated throughout the song, emphasizing the singer's desire for control over the situation and her regret for not being able to change the past.


The lyrics also express a sense of self-blame and possibly self-doubt. The singer seems to believe that they are the only one to blame for their current situation or their past mistakes. The lines "Maybe I don't deserve" and "I continue to suffer" emphasize this feeling of self-doubt and perhaps a lack of self-worth. However, despite these feelings, the singer expresses a desire to tell the world that she is trying and wants to spread her wings and fly.


Line by Line Meaning

I can see behind your eyes
I can sense your feelings without you having to say anything


As I pause to watch the sky
As I take a moment to reflect and ponder


Should I take this leap,
Should I take a chance,


Or will it bury me?
Or will it have negative consequences for me?


IF ONLY I, only I could change
If only I had the power to alter the outcome


I would do it all again
I would repeat the experience despite the challenges and risks


I can't speak, I'm so emerged
I'm so immersed in my thoughts and emotions that I'm speechless


Maybe I don't deserve
Perhaps I'm not worthy or capable of achieving what I desire


I'm the only one to blame
I take full responsibility for the situation, regardless of external factors


Tell the world I'm trying
Share with others that I'm making an effort to improve or succeed


Spread my wings and fly
Take on new challenges and embrace the unknown


Oh, I continue to suffer
I continue to experience pain or hardship


It could wreck my desire
It could undermine my motivation or enthusiasm




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@nesrinsmt

I can see behind your eyes
As I pause to watch the sky
Should I take this leap,
Or will it bury me?
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
IF ONLY I could
I can't speak, I'm so emerged
Maybe I don't deserve
I'm the only one to blame
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
IF ONLY I could
Tell the world I'm trying
Spread my wings and fly
Oh, I continue to suffer
It could wreck my desire
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY I, only I could change
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
IF ONLY, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
IF ONLY I could



@packdemon

I can see behind your eyes
As I pause to watch the sky
Should I take this leap
Or will it bury me

If only I, only I, could change
If only, only I, only I could
If only, only I, only I could
If only, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
If only I could

I can't speak
I'm submerged
Maybe I don't deserve
I'm the only one to blame
If only I, only I, could change

If only I, only I, could change
If only, only I, only I could
If only, only I, only I could
If only, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
If only I could

Tell the world I'm trying
Spread my wings I'm flying
Won't continue to suffer
It could wreck my desire

If only, only I, only I could
If only, only I, only I could
If only, only I, only I could
I would do it all again
If only I could



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