1) Mayfield is the nam… Read Full Bio ↴There is more than one artist with this name:
1) Mayfield is the name of the band formed by Tears For Fears lead singer Curt Smith. The result is an album which showcases Smith's talent as a songwriter and producer as well as bringing a more personal touch than any other album he has been a part of during his career. This album really came out in an "underground" fashion. It was actually recorded back in 1996. Curt Smith formed his own label "Zerodisc" and the album was sold online in 1997. It wasn't until 1998 when the album hit stores. No big name record company or distribution.
The name Mayfield is a play on Curtis Mayfield's name (i.e. Curt[Smith] is Mayfield). Curt Smith had split from his partner Roland Orzabal back in 1990 and the two went their separate ways. Roland kept the Tears For Fears name and continued to record using that name. Curt put out a solo album called "Soul on Board" which he wasn't very happy with. Curt and Roland would eventually reunite back for 2004 release "Everybody Loves a Happy Ending". Curt's main partner in Mayfield is guitarist Charlton Pettus who is also the album's co-producer. When Curt and Roland would reunite, Curt would also bring Pettus along. Other band members include Russ Irwin - Keyboards/vocals, Doug Petty - Keyboards, Shawn Pelton - Drums, and of course Curt Smith on Bass.
2) Mayfield drummer Mike Hollins and singer/guitarist Brian Kelly got together in Chicago in 2000. Previous demos and their self-titled full-length, along with minor line-up changes, were merely preparation for a sound that would eventually evolve from that of suburban high school pop-punk, to a working band. Mayfield's commitment to writing and performing while simultaneously juggling high school and work resulted in a strong fan base within the Chicago area.
With the release of their debut full length album, 2004's "I Wont Make a Sound", Mayfield's sound reached a new level of maturity, symbolic of their readiness to dive head-first into the world of non-stop national touring. The success has gained Mayfield nationwide credibility and the opportunity to play shows all over the country. A combination of up-beat tempos along with edgy emotional breakdowns creates a perfect balance, as Mayfield taps into new influences outside of pop-punk.
Mayfield broke up in late 2005 after 5 years together.
3) Mayfield was an alternative rock band from Adelaide, South Australia formed in 2004. Members included Zigg West, Sam Knight and Jett. The trio toured Australia, USA, UK and Europe.
4) Mayfield, a folk-rock band from San Diego, CA, consisting of members Benjamin Bartel and Erin Lancaster.
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Mayfield Lyrics
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I can't tell myself enough
Don't look back
I just can't let this go
Let Go
Don't look back
I can't tell myself enough
I just can't let this go
Let Go
I don't know why I can't seem to balance it all
I guess it's just because I'm looking back
When I dive into these memories I come crawling back to rolling seas
And again I can't find ways to stay afloat
I can't stay afloat
Lay me down for good
Flashbacks take me back to the place that I want to be
I want to stay here
I come around every once in a while just to reassure myself this was real
I will stay permanently stained
I fought this demon before
He left me broken and torn apart
A piece of him still lives in me
Leeching my sanity
I just can't let it eat away, so I refuse this slow decay
Caught in between the dream
And the plan, not the man I used to wish I'd be
Leeching my fucking sanity
It's been so long since I can say I felt at home
Sometimes I dream about the days when I was young
And wonder why everything had to go so wrong
I never planned for this, but then again I guess that no one really can
This life I live is always pulling on the pin
I'll never balance out these days of emptiness
Mayfield's song "Back Home" is a reflection on the struggle to move on from a past that feels far away but continues to haunt the present. The repetition of the phrase "Don't look back" emphasizes the difficulty of letting go of the past, despite the desire to move forward. The singer seems to be grappling with the idea that memories are both comforting and dangerous. The line "Flashbacks take me back to the place that I want to be" highlights the way in which nostalgia can be a trap, causing the singer to long for something that can never be recaptured. The mention of being permanently stained suggests a fear of being defined by past mistakes or experiences.
The demon mentioned in the song is likely a metaphor for the emotional baggage that the singer carries with them. The line "Caught in between the dream and the plan, not the man I used to wish I'd be" encapsulates the sense of disappointment and frustration that can come from feeling like one's life hasn't turned out the way they wanted. The singer acknowledges that their struggle is ongoing and that they may never be able to fully escape the empty feeling that plagues them.
Overall, "Back Home" is a poignant exploration of the human tendency to hold on to the past, even when it's painful to do so. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone wrestling with their emotions and struggling to come to terms with the life they've been given.
Line by Line Meaning
Don't look back
I need to remind myself to move forward and not dwell on the past.
I can't tell myself enough
I often have to repeat this reminder to myself because it's easy to slip back into old habits.
I just can't let this go
It's difficult to move on from certain memories or situations, but I need to try.
Let Go
I need to release my grip on the past and focus on what's ahead.
I don't know why I can't seem to balance it all
I struggle to find a sense of stability or control over my life.
I guess it's just because I'm looking back
My tendency to dwell on the past is hindering my ability to progress.
When I dive into these memories I come crawling back to rolling seas
Certain memories have the power to transport me back in time and relive certain experiences.
And again I can't find ways to stay afloat
Reliving certain experiences can be overwhelming and cause me to feel like I'm drowning.
I can't stay afloat
The weight of certain memories is too heavy for me to bear.
Lay me down for good
I wish to let go of these memories once and for all.
Flashbacks take me back to the place that I want to be
Certain memories have a nostalgic quality that makes me yearn for the past.
I want to stay here
The safety and familiarity of the past seems more appealing than the unpredictability of the present.
I come around every once in a while just to reassure myself this was real
I revisit certain memories as a way of validating my experiences and grounding myself in reality.
I will stay permanently stained
These memories will always be a part of me, no matter how much I try to move past them.
I fought this demon before
I've been through this struggle before.
He left me broken and torn apart
The previous struggle left me feeling damaged and wounded.
A piece of him still lives in me
I still carry the scars of the previous struggle.
Leeching my sanity
These scars have a negative impact on my mental health and well-being.
I just can't let it eat away, so I refuse this slow decay
I need to actively work towards healing and moving past these scars.
Caught in between the dream
I have certain aspirations or ambitions I wish to achieve.
And the plan, not the man I used to wish I'd be
However, my current circumstances are different from what I envisioned for myself in the past.
Leeching my fucking sanity
The weight of these unfulfilled aspirations affects my mental health.
It's been so long since I can say I felt at home
I haven't felt truly comfortable or at ease in a long time.
Sometimes I dream about the days when I was young
I often reminisce on my childhood as a way of reliving happier times.
And wonder why everything had to go so wrong
I struggle to come to terms with how different my life turned out to be from what I imagined.
I never planned for this, but then again I guess that no one really can
Life is unpredictable and plans can often fall apart in unexpected ways.
This life I live is always pulling on the pin
My life feels like a ticking time bomb, constantly on the verge of falling apart.
I'll never balance out these days of emptiness
I struggle to find meaning or fulfillment in my everyday life.
Contributed by Joseph J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Marci Ha
Describes my life so good. When you're home is on the other side of the world and you're just not able to go back. I'm just stuck at a place where everything seems to go wrong.
Fher Jacob
Very Cool song and harmony!
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My best EP in 2016
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alex barry
Found this song and the lyrics hit right at heart. Thank you. Music like this reminds me I'm not the only one. Lifts the feeling of feeling alone.
Chris B
That tapping part at 1:38 is so fire. Sick video, I feel like it's actually on par with the music as opposed to the other one
Blake Davison
Love the vocals, wow.
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