“The irony of that song is the subject of it is my drug counselor who got me sober. When he said that I would walk alone, it was after counseling me for a period of time, and he said: "“You know I’m gonna have to cut you loose some day.”" The finality of it was two puncture wounds in his arm and an overdose on heroin. My drug counselor died. No one’s safe from that disease - those who have that disease.”
Addicted to Chaos
Megadeth Lyrics
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All these normal people, will I find another one?
Monkey on my back, aching in my bones
I forgot you said one day you'll walk alone
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?
My heart was blackened, it's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head!
Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?
In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted, addicted to chaos
Light shined on my path
Turn bad days into good
Turn breakdowns into blocks,
I smashed 'em 'cause I could
My brain was labored, my head would spin
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
The plans we made are back up on the road
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Remember that you said
One day you'll walk alone
Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?
In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted to chaos
Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?
In a dream I cannot see (in a dream I cannot see)
Tangled abstract fallacy (tangled abstract fallacy)
Random turmoil builds in me (random turmoil builds in me)
Bills bills bills
In a dream I cannot see (in a dream I cannot see)
Tangled abstract fallacy (tangled abstract fallacy)
Random turmoil builds in me (random turmoil builds in me)
I'm addicted, addicted to the chaos
Addicted, addicted, to chaos, chaos
Addicted to chaos, chaos
The lyrics to Megadeth's "Addicted to Chaos" explore the idea of feeling completely lost and chaotic without someone you were once close to. The song opens with the singer learning that someone he cared about has passed away, and he wonders if he'll ever find someone else. He then talks about how he feels addicted to the chaos and turmoil that surround him, and how he's struggling to find his footing in the world without this person by his side.
Throughout the song, the lyrics oscillate between moments of despair and moments of resilience. The singer talks about turning bad days into good and smashing through breakdowns, but also expresses a deep sense of emptiness and loneliness. In the end, he admits that he's addicted to the chaos and that he needs help to find his way forward.
The song's title sums up the theme of the lyrics: the idea that chaos can be addicting and difficult to escape. The lyrics suggest that the singer is caught in a cycle of chaotic emotions and actions, and that he's struggling to find peace and stability. The repetition of the lines "Who will help me up?" and "Is this my final stand?" underscores the sense of desperation and fear that runs throughout the song.
Some potential interpretations of the lyrics include a commentary on addiction, mental illness, or the difficulty of coping with loss. The imagery of chaos and turmoil could be a metaphor for any number of challenges that people face in life, and the song as a whole has a universal quality that makes it easy for listeners to relate to.
Line by Line Meaning
Only yesterday they told me you were gone
I was just informed that you left and now I'm alone
All these normal people, will I find another one?
After losing you, will I ever find someone who understands me like you did?
Monkey on my back, aching in my bones
I feel burdened and weighed down by my own struggles
I forgot you said one day you'll walk alone
I disregarded your warning that someday you would leave me
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
I expressed that I rely on you, but I'm unsure if that's a bad thing
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?
I'm questioning if my vulnerability makes me weak and you powerful
My heart was blackened, it's bloody red
My heart was dark and empty, but now it's filled with pain and sorrow
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head!
I'm emotionally and mentally damaged by your departure
Who will help me up?
I'm in need of assistance and support
Where's the helping hand?
I feel like no one is willing to assist me in my time of need
Will you turn on me?
I'm afraid of being betrayed or abandoned
Is this my final stand?
I'm uncertain if I have the strength to continue fighting
In a dream I cannot see
I'm lost and confused, unable to even envision a path forward
Tangled abstract fallacy
My thoughts are jumbled and unclear
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm consumed by unpredictable emotions and inner conflict
I'm addicted, addicted to chaos
Despite the pain and confusion, I find myself inexplicably drawn to disorder and unpredictability
Light shined on my path
Things were going well for me for some time
Turn bad days into good
I was able to find positivity during difficult times
Turn breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em 'cause I could
I used to be able to transform obstacles into opportunities, but I'm struggling to do so now
My brain was labored, my head would spin
My thoughts were clouded and I couldn't think clearly
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
I'm pleading for someone to support me and not abandon me
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
I'm experiencing a metaphorical storm in my life
The plans we made are back up on the road
Our previous joint goals and plans are no longer valid
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Although I'm scared, I'm ready to face new challenges
Bills bills bills
This line is a non-sequitur and doesn't have any particular meaning in relation to the rest of the lyrics. It could be interpreted as a humorous reference to financial struggles or just a random phrase included for artistic effect.
I'm addicted, addicted to chaos
This line repeats the idea that despite the difficulties and pain, chaos is becoming a strange addiction for the singer.
Addicted, addicted, to chaos, chaos
This line is a continuation of the idea that the singer is irresistibly drawn to chaos.
Addicted to chaos, chaos
This final line repeats the chorus, emphasizing the central theme of the song.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: DAVE ELLEFSON, DAVE MUSTAINE, DAVID ELLEFSON, MARTIN FRIEDMAN, MARTY FRIEDMAN, NICK MENZA
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