Streetlight
Melissa Ferrick Lyrics

What did you say?
Asks the person to repeat what they said, an opener in a nonchalant conversation.

What ever I want
Shows the person's non-committal attitude.

This is so easy
Referring to how easy it is to maintain a relationship when pretending to like everything, and not being oneself.

This love in my life
Referring to the love that she gets from pretending to be what the partner wants her to be, not what she is in real life.

But this isn't real
Acknowledging that the relationship isn't real and is only successful on a surface level.

We're just making it up
The relationship is just a façade created by pretending to be someone else that the partner wants one to be.

Over and over guilty
Feeling guilty for pretending to be what the partner wants, and not being true to oneself.

Is what I hear in my head
The internal dialogue that the person has, which is the realization of the untruthful situation they are in.

You are in fear
The partner is in fear that their true personality will result in them losing the person.

And I'm in a bubble
The person is pretending to be what the partner wants them to be, and is not being themselves.

We stay together
The relationship is maintained by pretending, and is not based on true feelings.

Cause we're always apart
The person is pretending to be someone they're not, which results in them being alone and not having an authentic relationship.

But I'm getting good
Getting good at pretending and lying to maintain the relationship.

At balancing trouble
The person is trying to balance their real self with the façade they created for the relationship.

And you're getting good
The partner is getting good at pretending to care and still being attracted to the person who is pretending.

At looking like you want to take me back
The partner is giving off the impression that they want to be with the person, but it's only a façade in a relationship that isn't true.

So dress me up
The person would rather not be themselves, but instead a different person that the partner wants them to be.

Take me out to dinner
The person is willing to pretend to like going out to dinner and doing things their partner likes, even if it's not what they want in their life.

And I will stare at my plate all night
Not really interested in anything, and are pretending to be someone else for the sake of the relationship.

Lay me down
Referring to sex, and how it's not done for enjoyment, but as a part of the façade of the relationship.

Tie me to your bedpost
Expressing a level of discomfort, and the unwillingness to express oneself to the partner.

And I will pretend
Continuing the façade of pretending for the relationship.

This is what I like
The person is lying about what they like for the sake of maintaining the relationship.

But don't you dare
The person doesn't want the partner to seek fulfillment in someone else, as the person is afraid of losing the façade relationship they've built.

Start seeing someone else
Asking the partner to refrain from finding someone who they could have a real relationship with because it would destroy the façade they have built.

Or I will come
The person will not allow the partner to find someone else, as the person fears being alone once the façade relationship ends.

Stand outside your house
The person will do whatever it takes to get attention from the partner, as the person is afraid of the relationship ending.

See me there
The person wants to be seen, and craves attention from the partner, as the person is afraid of being alone.

I'm underneath the streetlight
The person is staying under the streetlight to catch a glimpse of the partner, which represents the attention and validation they crave.

Satisfied no
Refers to the person never being truly happy or satisfied with the façade relationship they have built.

With love when I'm in it
Expressing the conditional factor of the person only feeling love when pretending to be someone else for the relationship.

The smaller the hill
The easier the challenge, the person is more inclined to push the limits, much like how the person wants to maintain a façade and not be themselves.

The more I want to push it
The person wants to keep pushing the limits and maintain the façade relationship.

The closer to the truth you get
The more authentic the relationship becomes, the more the person is true self comes out and the façade relationship falls apart.

The more I want to disprove you
As the person's true self comes out, the person is afraid of being exposed, and wants to disprove the partner for getting close to the truth.

Maybe that's the problem
Realizing that the façade of pretending is the problem, and not just seeking validation from the partner.