Vices
Memphis May Fire Lyrics


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Drowning myself every night
Me versus me has always been my biggest fight
I've been so confused for so long
And the answers always seem so far out of sight
So I fill it up, fill it up one more time
So when everything is wrong at least I still feel right
I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light
I just want to feel whole again
So I can let you in
I just want to feel whole again
I just want to feel whole
Oh where is my self control?
Where is my self control?

I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
I never thought this would be me

But now I'm on the verge of self destruction
How could this happen to me?
I've never been the type to run from anything, run from anything
So sick and tired of wondering where my morals have gone
My father didn't raise me to become this
Where did I go wrong?

There is not much left of me
I can't feel the ground beneath my feet
There is not much left of me
I let everyone around me down
And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle
Just to block out the sound
God I need you now!

I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
This is my vice, this is me weak

I need your love to erase this doubt
I need your hand to pull me out
Sometimes I feel like I will never learn
'Cause the bottle's always there when I have nowhere else to turn
Will I ever learn? Will I ever learn?

I take another sip
The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit
This can't be all there is

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
And the only one to blame is me

Who have I become?
This is my desperate shout
Pull me out!




Pull me out!
God I need you now!

Overall Meaning

Memphis May Fire's "Vices" is a reflection of the internal battle that the singer has with himself. The lyrics deal with the theme of addiction, as the singer drowns himself every night and fills himself up with vices to feel right. He has lost control of his life and is on the verge of self-destruction. The singer questions his identity while looking in the mirror and asks who he has become. He struggles to find self-control and helplessly turns to the bottle when he has nowhere else to turn.


The lyrics convey a sense of desperation and a cry for help. The singer admits that he needs God's love and hand to pull him out of this mess. He acknowledges that he has let everyone around him down and is filled with regret. He wants to feel whole again to be able to open himself up to love. Despite his inner battles, the singer maintains that he does not want to run away from anything. He instead wants to confront his addiction and learn from it.


Line by Line Meaning

Drowning myself every night
I drink heavily every night to cope with my problems


Me versus me has always been my biggest fight
I have an internal struggle within myself and it's hard to overcome


I've been so confused for so long
I've been struggling with confusion for a long time


And the answers always seem so far out of sight
I can't seem to find the solutions to my problems


So I fill it up, fill it up one more time
I drink more alcohol to numb the pain


So when everything is wrong at least I still feel right
Drinking makes me feel like everything is okay even though it's not


I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light
I feel lost and can't see a way out


I just want to feel whole again
I want to feel complete and happy again


So I can let you in
I want to be able to let someone into my life and share my struggles with them


Oh where is my self control?
I have lost my ability to control my actions


I've been thinking this could be the end of me
I fear that my self-destructive behavior will lead to my demise


Who is this person in the mirror I see?
I don't recognize myself anymore


And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
I thought I was stronger than my addiction but I was wrong


The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
I've been lying to myself for a long time about my ability to quit


But now I'm on the verge of self destruction
I am close to hitting rock bottom


How could this happen to me?
I can't believe I let myself get to this point


I've never been the type to run from anything, run from anything
I used to be a strong person who faced challenges head-on


So sick and tired of wondering where my morals have gone
I'm tired of feeling like I've lost my sense of right and wrong


My father didn't raise me to become this
I feel like I've disappointed my family and myself with my behavior


Where did I go wrong?
I don't know how I got to this point


There is not much left of me
I am broken and exhausted


I can't feel the ground beneath my feet
I feel lost and disconnected from reality


I let everyone around me down
I've hurt the people I care about with my actions


And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle
I'm drinking more and more to escape my problems


Just to block out the sound
I want to silence the negative thoughts in my head


God I need you now!
I need help to overcome my addiction


This is my vice, this is me weak
My addiction is my weakness


I need your love to erase this doubt
I need to feel loved to overcome my doubts


I need your hand to pull me out
I need someone to help me overcome my addiction


Sometimes I feel like I will never learn
I feel like I'll never be able to conquer my addiction


'Cause the bottle's always there when I have nowhere else to turn
When I feel like I have nowhere else to go, I turn to alcohol


Will I ever learn? Will I ever learn?
I wonder if I'll ever be able to quit my addiction


I take another sip
I continue to drink despite the consequences


The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit
Drinking makes me feel better in the moment but it won't solve my problems


This can't be all there is
I'm searching for something more than my addiction


And the only one to blame is me
I'm responsible for my own actions and addiction


Who have I become?
I don't recognize myself anymore


This is my desperate shout
I'm crying out for help


Pull me out!
I need someone to help me escape my addiction


God I need you now!
I need divine help to overcome my addiction




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Written by: KELLEN MCGREGOR, MATTHEW MULLINS

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Comments from YouTube:

@serpenthyne9223

"Me vs. Me has always been my biggest fight"
I felt that

@metalloki1314

But how do you defeat yourself.camt figure that part out

@brandenpoissot1064

@jean-marc wiser understanding what's important

@JacobG

@branden poissot great answer

@eduardGTR

@jean-marc wiser I felt this

@jerodofficer4863

Over ten years i was a alcoholic…… Used to listen to this when it was brand new as i got shitfaced. Now i listen as im 7 months sober. Thank you matty and all you guys in Memphis may fire, you’ve impacted my life in ways you couldn’t imagine

@TheDeadeyeDuck

Proud of you bro. Keep on the path to sobriety for the both of us. 😘😘
I say this sincerely. As I know I will never walk that path but admire those that do. I wish you strength in your journey brother. <3

@kennethporst4359

Try chasing your BIGGEST DreaM it help me

@moonrosegaming

As someone in active addiction this comment gives me hope. Thank you and congratulations.

@ofrhythm

gayyyyyyyyy!

Stay lit for you fuckers that are "lesser"! Cheers

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