Poison
Mimi Barks Lyrics
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It just happened
And after it was over I looked down at the mess on the floor
It was like a kaleidoscope had shattered
The door flies open it hits my face
Young and broken beggin for grace
See demons in your eyes filled with rage
These nights I felt nothing but goddamn hate
Blurry vision possessed by a beast
Now everything pretty got nothing on me
So lifeless wish I could cut my own sleeves
I had screamed my heart out for you
So hard that my veins should`ve blown up
Screamed against transparent walls oh
Should`ve known that you`re unable to touch
Pain so deep inside me
Love how it excites me
Callin me a freak
But you are in too deep
For you it`s just a bit
Iยดm burstin on you bitch
But you don`t give a shit
Iยดm so close to the cliff
You killed my natural emotions
You made me feel like dirt
Down on my knees when you touched me
It felt like a kaleidoscope had shattered
It was like a kaleidoscope had shattered
Booze breath red eyes cold nights
Bleed me out I`m still alive only on the outside
God must hate me he rolled the dice
Beat me up no one taught me wrong from right
Booze breath red eyes cold nights
Bleed me out I`m still alive only on the outside
God must hate me he rolled the dice
Beat me up no one taught me wrong from right
In Mimi Barks's song "Poison," the lyrics describe a destructive, tumultuous relationship filled with pain, hate, and brokenness. The singer initially tries to convince themselves that what they are experiencing is not real, that it just happened, and that everything is fine. However, as the relationship progresses, it is clear that it is far from okay. The singer describes feeling like a kaleidoscope has shattered, representing the chaos and confusion that comes with heartbreak. They are left feeling hopeless, like they are on the brink of a mental breakdown. The partner they once adored is now a demon in their eyes, and everything that used to be beautiful about life is gone. The lyrics also hint at physical abuse through the line "The door flies open it hits my face."
Throughout the song, the lyrics describe a lack of control, both emotionally and physically. The singer feels as though they are possessed by a beast, unable to escape their own pain and the abuse they are enduring. They scream to vent their emotions, but it only leaves them feeling more empty inside. The partner they loved has taken away their natural emotions and made them feel like dirt. The line "Down on my knees when you touched me" suggests that the singer is being forced to perform unwanted acts, which shatters their sense of self-worth.
Line by Line Meaning
Thatโs what I told myself
I lied to myself about what was happening
It just happened
I am trying to cover up my own responsibility for the situation
And after it was over I looked down at the mess on the floor
I realized the consequences of my actions and the destruction they caused
It was like a kaleidoscope had shattered
The situation was chaotic, confusing, and painful
The door flies open it hits my face
The entrance of someone aggressive caught me off guard
Young and broken beggin for grace
Iโm vulnerable and seeking forgiveness
See demons in your eyes filled with rage
I see that you are possessed by anger and darkness
These nights I felt nothing but goddamn hate
I am overwhelmed with feelings of anger towards myself and others
This can't be you this can't be me
I'm not recognizing my own behavior or the behavior of those around me
Blurry vision possessed by a beast
I feel out of control and like I am being controlled
Now everything pretty got nothing on me
I am feeling ugly and like nothing good can come out of me
So lifeless wish I could cut my own sleeves
I'm feeling numb and wishing I could harm myself
I had screamed my heart out for you
I gave everything to you and it wasn't enough
So hard that my veins shouldโve blown up
I put too much effort into trying to make things work with you and it was self-destructive
Screamed against transparent walls oh
I was shouting for help but no one could hear or understand me
Shouldโve known that youโre unable to touch
I shouldn't have expected anything from you, you were cold and distant
Pain so deep inside me
I'm experiencing a profound inner suffering
Love how it excites me
Despite the pain, I'm addicted to the intense emotions
Callin me a freak
Others label me as strange or abnormal
But you are in too deep
You are involved in this chaotic situation as much as I am
For you itโs just a bit
This is just a minor experience for you, whereas it's overwhelming for me
I'm burstin on you bitch
I'm exploding with anger and directing it towards you
But you don't give a shit
You are indifferent to my suffering and emotions
I'm so close to the cliff
I am on the verge of a breakdown
You killed my natural emotions
You destroyed my capacity to feel and trust others
You made me feel like dirt
You treated me poorly and without respect
Down on my knees when you touched me
I felt vulnerable and powerless when I was with you
It felt like a kaleidoscope had shattered
Every time we were together, it was like everything was broken and out of control
Booze breath red eyes cold nights
I'm drowning in alcohol, exhausted, and alone
Bleed me out I'm still alive only on the outside
I'm metaphorically bleeding out emotionally but I'm still physically alive
God must hate me he rolled the dice
I feel like I'm unlucky and that God is punishing me
Beat me up no one taught me wrong from right
I wasn't taught how to navigate challenging situations and I'm struggling
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Written by: Mimi Barks
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@mimibarksofficial
POISON is one of the most important songs Iยดve ever written to me. Therefore Iยดm bringing back the video for ya! And hope you needed is as much as I did.
see yaยดll at 6PM/GMT for the premiere flock and leave a comment below x luv
@insideskymusic5264
I hope the video will match this awesome track๐ฅ
@mimibarksofficial
@iNSiDE SKY MUSIC fo sho Berlin vibes in there x
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Love u b x always
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Ig ads coming in clutch, I love this!! You're going places <3
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