The Search
Misar feat. T.J. Lyrics

I feel like fucking shit all the fucking time
I am constantly feeling terrible

I just don't fucking understand
I am confused and don't know why

I don't know why everything I do isn't good enough and why I'm not enough
I am struggling with feelings of inadequacy and failure

On my search
I am on a journey to find something or someone

Looking for somebody I can die for
I am searching for a person to love deeply and be devoted to

Tell me is you her
Asking if the person in question is the one I am seeking

Don't make plans on being no side hoe
Warning that I am not interested in a casual or uncommitted relationship

If we make this work
Hoping that a potential relationship can succeed

You can't leave me you gone die hoe
Expecting commitment and loyalty from a partner

And we on a perk
Possibly referencing drug use or a feeling of euphoria

My backwood got 4 grams of hydro
Referring to a specific type of cannabis product

She get on top and she ride it with so much ass and so much arch in her back
Describing a sexual encounter

Sorry if I get too excited you know that I'm nasty I love when it start from the back
Apologizing for being explicit and graphic

Sorry if I can't trust you and I give you my ass take a look deep in my past
Admitting trust issues and past trauma

Sorry if I love you the way you ask and you don't wanna be with my ass
Apologizing for having strong feelings for someone who may not reciprocate them

She want a nigga that thug and keep his fye close
Describing a preference for a tough and vigilant partner

She say she don't want no bitch ass nigga that she can't ride for
Asserting that the woman in question wants a capable and reliable partner

She know its war in the streets like we Chicago
Referencing the dangers of living in an urban environment

I put so much cheese on beef like they tacos (Yeah)
Metaphorically describing adding money to a contentious situation

Fuck me like no other under these covers I got too much dick
Referencing sexual prowess

Sorry if I can't trust ya blame the struggle been thru too much shit
Explaining trust issues due to past hardships

You won't be the 1st if you leave
Implying that people have left before

I'll be somewhere lurking doing me
Suggesting that I will move on and continue with my life after a potential breakup

Tell me why the fuck
Asking for an explanation or reason

I always feel so gawd damn insignificant
Expressing feelings of worthlessness

Feel like I'm out here claiming everybody who don't fucking claim me
Feeling like I am overlooked or undervalued in relationships

I don't fucking sleep
Having trouble with insomnia

Ever
Emphasizing the fact that I do not sleep

I get no rest
Continuing to express difficulties with rest and relaxation

I'm tired of all the fucking time
Feeling exhausted and worn out

I give so much love to so many fucking people
Expressing generosity and affection for others

I do what's best every fucking time
Believing that I always make the most beneficial choices

And I still feel like shit
Despite efforts to do good, still feeling terrible