"A Pearl" is an exploration of the lingering effects of heartache, trauma a… Read Full Bio ↴"A Pearl" is an exploration of the lingering effects of heartache, trauma and grief. The narrator is dealing with the aftermath of an experience that has left them with a 'pearl in their head'. This pearl symbolizes the emotional scars they are left to grapple with, and the idea of rolling it around evokes the image of them trying to find a way to come to terms with the past they can't forget. The refrain of "sorry, I don’t want your touch" implies that while they aren’t dead to emotion, they aren't able to bring themselves to move on yet and accept love back into their life. The bridge expresses a sense of loneliness, as the narrator has a deep-seated need that they cannot fill by themselves. Ultimately, this song is a meditation on how pain can linger, and how it can shape a person’s inner life.

A Pearl
Mitski Lyrics

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It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill

But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow

Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

Overall Meaning

In “A Pearl,” Mitski explores the complexities of relationships and how past experiences can affect the ability to connect with a current partner. The lyrics suggest that the singer’s partner is growing tired of her, but she can’t sleep despite their love for her. She apologizes for not wanting their touch, but it’s not because she doesn’t want them; it’s because she has a pearl in her head left from a past war that she fell in love with. This metaphor represents a traumatic past experience that still holds great significance for her and gets in the way of intimacy with her partner.

The pearl is a powerful symbol in this song. It is a physical manifestation of the emotional trauma the singer has experienced. The pearl is something that glows every night, providing a numbing but alluring comfort.

The line “Sorry, I don’t want your touch / It’s not that I don’t want you / Sorry, I can’t take your touch” is repeated throughout the song. It reflects the idea of someone who wants to connect with their partner but cannot because of emotional baggage. The line “There’s a hole that you fill / You fill, you fill” also reiterates this concept of needing someone to fill a void or empty space that was left after a traumatic experience.

Overall, “A Pearl” is a powerful song that delves into the struggles of navigating intimacy and relationships after experiencing past traumas. The pearl is a symbol that represents the emotional scars we carry with us, and how those scars can manifest themselves physically.

Line by Line Meaning

You're growing tired of me
The singer's partner is becoming exhausted with their relationship

You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
The intensity of the partner's love is causing the singer to feel restless and unable to sleep

And all the things I don't talk about
There are certain topics that the singer feels uncomfortable bringing up with their partner

Sorry, I don't want your touch
The artist apologizes for not wanting physical contact with their partner

It's not that I don't want you
The artist cares for their partner, but cannot handle physical intimacy at the moment

Sorry, I can't take your touch
The singer is unable to handle the physical touch of their partner due to emotional distress caused by their past

It's just that I fell in love with a war
The singer has a deep attachment to a conflict or personal struggle, possibly rooted in the past

Nobody told me it ended
The artist feels that they were not properly informed of the resolution of the war or struggle they are attached to

And it left a pearl in my head
The war or struggle has left a lasting impression on the artist's psyche

And I roll it around
The artist frequently ruminates on their past struggles and the impact it has had on their present mental state

Every night, just to watch it glow
The singer finds comfort in revisiting these past issues, as if they are a source of light and guidance

Every night, baby, that's where I go
The act of revisiting past struggles has become a nightly ritual for the artist

There's a hole that you fill
The partner provides a sense of comfort or companionship to the singer

You fill, you fill
The partner plays a vital role in the singer's life, filling a void that may have been present without them

Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Mitsuki Laycock

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@yun-pg8cr

6y↑2.3K

[Verse 1]
You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about

[Refrain]
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch

[Chorus]
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go

[Refrain]
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch

[Bridge]
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill

[Chorus]
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

@atlanticoverthebeyond608

3y↑822

You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill

But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Laycock Mitsuki / Mitski

@blendhaval6396

3y↑2.6K

You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about

[Refrain]
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch

[Chorus]
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go

[Refrain]
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch

[Bridge]
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill

[Chorus]
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

@davidquijadafernandez5468

5y↑1.1K

You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill

It's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

@isabellaalbini3002

4y↑74

Lyrics:
You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my hand
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my hand
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

All comments from YouTube:

@mitskileaks

1y↑965

Mitski's new album 'The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We', featuring the song "My Love Mine All Mine" is out now. Watch the music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vx4kLgnFexo

Listen to the album: https://mitski.lnk.to/TLIIASAW

@liquid_smo0th

1y↑17

ilysm<3

@THAT_THERIAN_ECLIPXE

1y↑22

Girlllll, my washing machine was your signature and now my pearl necklace is💀💀💀

@THAT_THERIAN_ECLIPXE

1y↑7

Btw can you come to USA for concert some time in ur life?

@angelcake222

1y↑16

Te amo mistki tu siempre me entendiste a la perfección 😢

@vinnymonteiro002

1y↑3

Te admiro muito ❤️

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@Coolkid-00

4y↑14K

I’d die for this woman

@Coolkid-00

4y↑67

@ohekay k marry me then lol

@an_gel_707

4y↑64

ayyy when's the marriage

@ankabanka2044

4y↑65

i would die for u too cool kid

@an_gel_707

4y↑87

lets be honest everyone would die for cool kid

@hexhair3213

4y↑9

@ohekay oml good for u ig

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@shannons3419

4y↑5.1K

Therapy: expensive
A Pearl by Mitski on repeat: free

@gabsny

3y↑18

internet inst free

@raisin2404

3y↑12

Good point, good point

@Atlas_here5580

3y↑28

@@gabsny 😘 therapy is expensive and i am too introverted to talk to someone irl

@priscillaayusrirezeki6901

3y↑7

@@gabsny just download it, it ain't that hard

@michawalkowiak6418

Rel

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@mansa_p

6y↑8.5K

Her voice has a strange kind of anguish that's strangely comforting

@vojtechd.6728

6y↑51

thank you <3 thats precise

@localestfruitbat

4y↑11

fr tho also is that a bjork pfp?

@isabellamartinez7910

4y↑5

IKR

@lains2710

4y↑5

RIGHT

@citruslatafolia877

4y↑42

i actually died at 1:56 with her switching into her head voice, i can't

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@Mees_MBpas

2y↑3.6K

Fun fact: When a clam has an irritation in it’s beak, it covers the irritating substance with layers, creating a pearl. Humans adore pearls for their beauty on the outside when it had a problem on the inside. Therefore they basically adore an issue that is covered in polishing layers. Just proof humans have always fallen for wars. They just aren’t aware because of how sugarcoated it is

@xenduvall

1y↑59

wow wow

@Cheijnugget

1y↑132

You’re like the smart ass kids in my honors class (this is a compliment you’re hella perspective for this) love it ❤

@adrenjones9301

1y↑65

You could also say that Humans appreciate pretty Lies more than the ugly truth behind them. And they will start Wars for those Lies.

@yangzixin5635

1y↑20

Ohhhh I was wondering why pearls at first lol, thank you so much!!! It makes more sense now!!

@jazdoesnot3dit

52w↑5

Underrated comment

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@julialovesgfriend

5y↑9.3K

I love how this song ended up becoming the perfect soundtrack to everyone’s own personal story even though each story has no relation to the others??? somehow this fit everyone’s memories even if there’s no connection or similarity???

@potato.pancake

4y↑192

that’s what’s so wonderful about music :)

@alanaaquistapace9780

4y↑126

thats what art does

@lilaciiaa

4y↑19

i see you with that gfriend crossroads pfp

@julialovesgfriend

4y↑7

@@lilaciiaa yes !!!! lol i ult gfriend <3

@lilaciiaa

4y↑5

@@julialovesgfriend same girll !

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@mariabrady4900

4y↑43.4K

Everyones always like "omg they listen to mitski are they okay?" And never "shit man MITSKI ARE YOU OKAY?"

@bleachdrinker69

4y↑898

Exactly

@briannareyes101

4y↑2.7K

Fr like is she ok like her songs go so hard and relate to them so much but what has she gone through is the real question

@irene-wr6xy

4y↑410

nah but fr.

@demolisher8795

4y↑136

666 like feeling special 😍

@torresolivos1

4y↑462

AS AN AVID MITSKI ENJOYER, I ALWAYS WONDER HOW SHE'S DOING BAHAHAHAHAA

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@SPLAT__RAT

6y↑3.8K

EVERYBODY SAY THANK YOU MITSKI

@MsSmoshlover12

6y↑66

THANK YOU MITSKI

@outofjanedoe5677

6y↑46

THANK YOU MITSKI

@q_q6162

6y↑42

THANK YOU MITSKI

@frederickconstable-payne6153

6y↑31

THANK YOU MITSKI

@onullo

6y↑29

THANK YOU MITSKI

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@julondon9132

2y↑1.1K

i hate that people always assume that if you listen to mitski that your depressed or your sad cuz of the music but like HER MUSIC IS FRICKING AMAZING THE WAY ITS WRITTEN THE WAY SHE SINGS IT AND PORTRAYS HER LYRICS ARE AWESOME AND HER VOICE ASWELL all of it is just so beautiful you can't help but want to cry not even when im sad i love her music

@sta_er

2y↑51

@deagleninja i hate miserable people who need to criticise everything

@Bluzthedrpepperprincess

@deagleninjacan you stfu y’all get mad about anything

@aronvasquez3411

2y↑23

si estoy deprimido pero no por eso escucho mitski

@liloneandonly

1y↑31

FR (I'm depressed)

@EbonySerpent999

1y↑10

FINALLY! Someone who gets it

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@carterdavis3556

4y↑11.7K

The idea that trauma is a pearl that rolls around in your head in the night is a perfect analogy for how I would describe my own trauma. I love the imagery of all the grit and sand that I've accumulated in my head rubbing together and mixing with time becoming a pearl. Something solid and heavy that I carry.
Each molecule of sand is a different event, small and insignificant, but as it builds up, it grows into something that can't be separated from the rest of the sand and grit I have collected. It's all one pearl, and in the night I sit on my bed and look at it over and over until I am lost in its sheen.
I fucking love this song so much.

Edit:
I wrote this comment during a time when I didn't know how I was supposed to carry this pearl of trauma, and although I'm still on the journey to recovery, I have learned to live without it constantly in the forefront of my mind.
For me, acceptance is the hardest part of recovery, but I wanted you to know that you will recover, even if you can't see the way out.
I wrote this comment when I was too afraid to loosen my grip on the past, and would often feel too overwhelmed to do anything but stare straight into that heavy, white pearl, but I want you to understand that feeling will not last forever, and what may seem like a blinding light will fade with time and perseverance.

@jonathanjoestar478

4y↑222

You worded this very gracefully

@carterdavis3556

4y↑32

@@jonathanjoestar478 thank you :)

@paloma3095

4y↑32

i’m pretty sure the lyrics r actually “and it left a pearl in my hand” and not head fhgjbnbnn

@carterdavis3556

4y↑84

@@paloma3095 well I guess it stilll works

@uhmmmmm123

4y↑22

You explained it perfectly

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@user-bm4bo6mg4m

4y↑7.5K

I was abused as a kid so I wanted to write about what this means to me.
Most of the meaning I feel is in the line "I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended" to me it's as if I was treated like this my whole life and that became so normal. Nobody thought to tell me it wasn't. Hating being touched, hating showing emotions, hating everyone around me, hating affection, hating existing wasn't normal. Nobody told me.
It wasn't as if I wanted to be like that, but my entire life it was my fault. Now it's as if I've 'fallen in love' with that life and it's taking so long to unlearn it. It left me with PTSD and a number of undiagnosed disorders and mental illnesses. Now it's like there's always a place in my head where I go to find out what I did wrong, but it's also an endless cycle because I'm still trying to remember that it isn't my fault so there is nothing to find out to begin with.
I'm still trying to learn that life isn't war.

@juliacaponegro7579

4y↑209

You are so strong for getting through that! The fact that you can recognize that you are in a cycle is one of the most important steps to ending it. I promise you you’re going to get better. Lots of love to you <3

@jasperwinchell6569

4y↑91

I’m so proud of you

@itwasme8573

4y↑69

thank you this rlly speaks to me

@anonymouse7773

4y↑93

I have the same experience. My family never rlly believed stuff about mental health so when I acted out a lot growing up, they thought I was just inherently a bad kid and wanted to make everyone miserable. Someone I rlly trusted who was older than me misused me when I was very little for quite a few years (I must have been somewhere btw 5-7, but I can't be sure). They were not an adult, but they did this from when they were a pre-teen to young teen, so I assume they should have known better by then. They were very close to the family and still are so I cannot tell anyone bc I feel like it will literally tear things apart. At the time, I trusted them so much that they were able to manipulate me into it, so I didn't consider it rape. But I had all these feelings I shouldn't have had at a very young age and didn't know how to deal with them, and I think that caused me lot of frustration. I blocked it out for so many years, but for some reason, during a rough semester in college, I suddenly remembered all at once and I felt as though the world around me was crashing when I realized what rlly happened and why I had been so angry and depressed for so much of my life (along with other things like bullying from a young age and very harsh physical discipline). Since then, my mind has felt like a whirlwind. It's so sad bc that person is a good person now, but they never admitted what they did and I am afraid to bring it up. All I know is it's very hard for me to trust, and the thought of getting intimate, although desirable, also brings up great fear and anxiety. I don't see them very often anymore but it makes me sad that I feel my heart drop anytime I'm around this person I care about. The relationship will never be the same.

@adina7947

4y↑44

@@anonymouse7773 i feel very sorry.. that's horrible. you're really brave to share this. i hope everything will be alright. just know, it was never your fault and never will. you worth so much love and i hope that one day it will be easier for you.. take care :(💓

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@andrewbaj1842

4y↑2.9K

A way I interpret "I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended" is that when someone experiences trauma for such a long period of time and finally gets out of whatever situation they were in, it is so hard knowing that you're safe and out of it, you just need that one person to tell you it's over, it ended, but no one is there to tell you that you're finally okay.

@cinnamoony3996

4y↑32

i agree!! this was written perfectly

@ro_ro22

3y↑32

I agree, i had been sexu4l assaulted, and the fact that my predators are living in peace in their houses, with their families, while I'm struggling with flashbacks, anger and sadness everytime i can remember, I can't have normal relationships cause I'm so afraid to someone could touch me and hurt me, but again, that was years ago, and I'm the only one who is stucked in the past, living my own war i have created in my mind and it feels so endless i could cry for hours.
So.. yeah. Agreed with your teory

@v3nuss129

3y↑14

@@ro_ro22 I’m so sorry that happened to you, I hope you are doing well now.

@ro_ro22

3y↑10

@@v3nuss129 thanks for the kind comment v3nuss, best wishes for you too

@chl3rine143

3y↑3

YES THIS

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@dark2023-1lovesoni

2y↑5K

As a male victim of domestic violence and extreme abuse for nearly 10 years in my first romantic relationship this song resonates a lot with me. Men are expected to be stoic so my difficulty with vulnerability/trust usually goes unnoticed but most of the partners I've been with since then have a hard time understanding why I get very panicky and avoidant any time there's conflict or stress at home. I've tried to explain but usually just get told "you talk about ~~that ex~~ too much" or "well I'm not like her so...". When you've spent half your life always walking on eggshells and just waiting for all hell to break loose that anxiety sticks with you, I can't just let it go. The coping mechanisms and behaviors that helped me survive that are deeply rooted in my psyche. Healing takes time, and I was in that relationship for longer than I've been out, so far. I just wish I could get my current GF to understand that my trauma isn't her fault but my hypervigilance and anxiety aren't things I can just turn off.

@legrandbj4225

2y↑191

I really hope that you can get over it and for everybody that thinks it’s an easy task I can tel you from a personal point of view that’s it’s not.
Good luck to anybody, male or female.(sorry for my language I don’t speak very well)

@lick4569

2y↑116

I really hope you can unlearn all of this in some way. It's such a bummer how some people screw up for other who don't deserve it.
I just hope it doesn't happen like that for you.
You didn't deserve for someone to screw you over, and you don't deserve to suffer from it either.

@user-sf4fy8bq1h

2y↑117

I knew my bf was a keeper when he accepted I have PTSD and changed his behavior to avoid triggering me (he's smol so he walks very quietly, which would result in him inadvertently sneaking up behind me, saying something, and me immediately freaking out. Now he makes sure to walk in a way that I hear him if he's coming up behind me). He changed because he thinks I'm worth it. If your gf doesn't think you're worth changing for, that's on her—don't waste your time and emotions trying to force someone to understand something they don't care enough to understand. There are so many people out there; maybe one is waiting for you right now?

@briarwood42

2y↑59

Thank you for sharing. A lifetime of abuse from my parents led to poor relationships that I couldn't communicate in. I feel for you. Sending lots of love and growth

@USBmi

2y↑35

You deserve someone who will be patient with you. I’m so sorry you’ve been through that.

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@wishingwwell

5y↑10.3K

why cope with the damage from your toxic relationships and your messed up relationship with physical and emotional intimacy when you can listen to a pearl by mitski and get the exact same catharsis

@warrenkeystone5195

5y↑66

This but amplified by 100

@flowersandglass5780

4y↑21

yes ❤

@kisalovesjb

4y↑7

I feel seen

@zoel5223

4y↑19

erase this comment. it attacked me. ✋😐

@haobinversed

4y↑17

mitski=therapy

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@mothmansboyfriend8021

5y↑5.3K

It took me 18 years to realize I was suffering from PTSD. That me hating being touched wasn't natural. That having anxiety attacks when someone touches me the wrong way wasn't part of the normal human experience. I don't know what happened, my mind keeps me from remembering. But this song perfectly explains what I feel. With people my age it's easier, but I'm still not comfortable with most physical intimacy beyond a hug, even though I want more. I can't stop thinking about my trauma either, finally putting the pieces together of all my weird unexplainable tendencies about being around people. This song is able to explain what I can't

@maz33que

5y↑103

I hope you pull through. ❤

@stonzkyfrontez567

4y↑117

My dad is an army vet and it's been over 15 years and he still struggles with PTSD and it is no joke we people know have committed suicide because of it I feel for you bro I hope and pray you'll heal from the mental wounds of war

@Evevangelion

4y↑34

I hope you can heal with time, youre not alone 💖

@dulciewellman832

4y↑16

Wait.....this is me......

@mxngaka

4y↑59

I feel you there! I also have ptsd and I even though I crave physical affection, I legit can't handle being touched, especially after being exposed to something relating to that thing. It sucks complete ass, but I hope you remember one day and find yourself being able to recover.

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@24FramesOfNick

6y↑5.9K

Incredible

@worrywirt

6y↑146

I have been binging your channel for hours today lmao this is so weird

@garrettrose8038

6y↑126

I'm honestly so surprised to see you here

@monidock8002

6y↑19

Hey.. Ik u

@charlottesimss9853

6y↑93

Woah didn't think you'd be a Mitski fan

@watashiwanoodle4103

6y↑11

hey look its you

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@graziazuccaro7489

3y↑679

isn't it crazy how kinda everyone here can relate to this song, despite not being connected or anything? hearing the "sorry I can't take your touch" makes me remember my inability to handle affection, and "I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended" is just the love I had for romance concepts and for the idea of dating and having a partner before I realised I don't experience romantic attraction. the fact that I am left behind, not able to conventionally date or anything because I just can't. the fact that i still adore the idea of being loved, but not the same as everyone else around me, and the idea of someone in love.

@graziazuccaro7489

2y↑49

@deagleninja I don't think it's narcissism, I think it's more consuming a piece of media that is so versatile and so deep in a lot of ways that it speaks to a lot of people on a personal level

@lu-__-

2y↑36

@deagleninja sorry but the concept of being a narcissist has been so watered down by stuff like this, and it's a bit exhausting. enjoying a piece of media and relating to it isn't narcissism, it's the ability your brain has to link things together, specially if you find it hard to articulate such feelings or struggle finding them represented elsewhere. i feel like this person was talking about being aromantic (or at least that's how it is in my case, and how it sounded, please excuse me for assuming if it isn't).
art is half what the artist intended to express and put into it, and half what people who witness it make out of it. interpretation is a huge part of it, and it's not narcissism to interpret a subjective media in your own subjective way. feeling and attaching experiences to it is what makes us humans, what makes the most out of art.
i'm not saying you can't enjoy stuff simply because you find them cool, i do that as well as basically everyone, and i think i get what you're saying, but i don't know if it's the wording or your actual intention, but leaving a comment like that under someone saying they found their own, deeper meaning that makes them feel seen, plus appreciating the versatility of this kind of writing, just seems a bit iffy.
omg sorry for writing so much.

@mara1420

1y↑17

me but as asexual

@elijahmelendez9864

of course its narcissism ,how do you think all art is created stupid @deagleninja

@Sythernesss

1y↑4

@deagleninjaIt's not narcissism, Mitski makes all her songs metaphors so people can use them for most situations they are going through. It's truly art!!!

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@Zelgaro

6y↑848

Shoutout to Mitski for packing so much into less than 3 minutes of music. She doesn't waste your time, she just gets to it.

@_gerb0t

6y↑49

this!!! critics might complain about length but it doesn't really matter because the songs are way more memorable this way

@homosapien7316

3y↑3.9K

I love how everyone has a different (though similar) interpretation of this song. For me, it's someone apologizing for their unhealthy coping mechanisms left over by their trauma yet being unable to let go of them. I probably am just projecting way too much, but this song still makes me tear up

@riahdoesyoutube22

3y↑32

Same Im crying to this song rn 😭

@null6157

2y↑26

For me, its her relationship that she get traumatised thats why she said i roll it around every night" for me that meant him and the memories and so whatev :D

@null6157

2y↑1

Bro same

@-katbug.

2y↑24

For me it reminded me of how I can't do normal things that a couple would do like touch and I can't really show affection towards my partners because of trauma. And then the "I fell in love with a war" and "it left a pearl in my head" is me not being able to recover from said trauma and blaming myself, when it was not my fault. It's just what this song has always reminded me of but I still love it.

@sophia.222

2y↑8

For me it’s a toxic friendship “sorry I don’t want your touch, it’s not that don’t want you” wanting to cut them off but not being able too because you’re too attached “I fell in love with a war” is I fell in love because u guys r friends but with a war because it’s toxic “it left a pearl in my head and I roll it around every night” represents all the memories, good or bad is based on how I feel while listening

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@keiradickson2354

6y↑12K

mitski, i have decided to take your advice and be the cowboy.
however, i cannot stop saying yee haw. it's been 6 weeks and my friends are slowly leaving one by one.
help.

@goonsdirge3464

6y↑987

there is no help. only cowboy.

@whenyouwhen4052

5y↑365

U r what I eat. Whichever friends u have left u must consume. Become ur very own friend : )

[Edit]
Actually don't do that AHDGAHFG I'M sorry I was jk ooWeEe

@jasmingantenbein6803

4y↑13

😆

@BowieSatva

4y↑14

The feelz...

@breadcrumbs5308

4y↑200

You've yee'd your last haw at this point

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@ayse8407

2y↑125

1:39 this part of the song literally takes me to a different dimension

"there's a hole that you fill,
you fill, you fill.."

@isabellabradshaw312

4y↑2.4K

The worst part about this song is that it ends

@kimniema5507

3y↑101

And nobody told me it ended~

@isabelle9812

3y↑17

I LOVE MITSKI AHHHH😭

@riahdoesyoutube22

3y↑5

@@isabelle9812 SAME

@isabelle9812

3y↑3

@@riahdoesyoutube22
OMG THATS SO COOL

@isabelle9812

3y↑14

@@riahdoesyoutube22 People who listen to mitski>>>

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@ShalitaBaby

6y↑4.5K

These are the visuals that this song deserved. Dare I say: iconique

@xadisembodiedvoice

somehow i don't feel this is the song the visuals deserved though

@ShalitaBaby

6y↑101

@@xadisembodiedvoice You leave that auditory masterpiece alone

@ShalitaBaby

6y↑32

penalcrack don’t threaten me with a good time

@ShalitaBaby

6y↑16

penalcrack ditto

@ShalitaBaby

6y↑16

@penalcrack can't wait

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@anotherone8941

4y↑8.6K

in another episode of "i feel related to this song but i think my trauma is not that bad so i start invalidating myself which makes me feel more anguish"

@tootimetootimetootimetooti4674

4y↑238

exaaaactly thanks for expressing it in words

@evs06

3y↑98

why is this me

@drae4526

3y↑73

Yes these are the words I'm looking for

@lav_endermoon8819

3y↑45

you got me 💀✋️

@lacielily

3y↑26

Ayyyy *fingerguns*

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@avaleon246

3y↑6K

The "I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended" perfectly portays the sort of anger and rage you get from past trauma that's already been done and over with for years(if that makes sense). I absolutely love that about this song, personally for me that's my mother's death and her childhood with it, something that's been over with for years but still keeps a little flame burning inside of me. For me the "I fell on love with a war" means sort of learning to cope with the anger, but it soon turning into pleasure. Like when you start to enjoy the rage, the anger, the adrenaline, etc. It's unhealthy, really, but you don't really care in the moment. You need to find a reason to be angry at everyone all the time for your own satisfaction. The kind of rage you always see in horror movies when the victim finally starts to beat up the murderer, the yearn for revenge. The anger building up to where you can just let it all out without mercy, and feel absolutely amazing about it. The sort of trauma that makes you obsessed with the idea of going to war, fighting, arguing, etc. Sorry this was so poorly written, I just needed to talk about this with someone lol

@peachycon6642

3y↑121

It's okay. I feel the exact same rhing too, I always thought it was scary and painful but it's normal to feel that way escpacially when you weren't allowed to get mad for a long time. You're not alone <33

@ash39877

3y↑68

omg u couldnt have said it better

@doodleanimatics

3y↑54

You beautifully worded that. I'm so sorry for your loss.

@hg1401

3y↑35

I think I like to argue now because I can finally speak up for myself now that I'm older. I was always dismissed and yelled at as a kid. So now it's feels great to finally get it all out.

@geniewishes4823

3y↑20

I feel the exact same way. My trauma is from multiple abusers but mitski always manages to bring out that deep yearning sense of revenge and anger and sadness buried deeply inside of me.

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@rockzwrld

4y↑8K

i can’t believe mitski invented the human race

@yurifariadamata2112

3y↑335

nah she would've did better

@dark_lynx5132

3y↑181

I can't believe that mitski invented existence

@plzno8754

3y↑178

Remember when she caused the big bang that was crazy

@limefroggzoned5112

3y↑17

Fr ‼️

@Moocow2003

3y↑31

she invented organisms <3

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@moth5560

6y↑1.7K

This song is actually..really telling of what it's like to live with PTSD from interpersonal relationship related trauma, and maybe other traumas but I can only speak for mine. There are so many things you can't talk about or you go vacant and lost in the bad place, but a lot of those things and boundaries are important to go over in a relationship and you want to, have to, but you don't want to get lost treading those deep grooves in your mind, paths already over tread.. You do want closeness, to be loved but you can't always be touched, living with a war in your head that you tell over and over to stop but it never stops, and you turn the pearl over and over, it glints in your mind so brightly that you can't see outside of it.. And you want to be normal, lovable, touchable and more than anything you want to be present.

@lennoxdraws

6y↑36

i absolutely feel this as well. intimacy is such a complicated feeling and this is especially true of trauma survivors, particularly trauma around intimacy.

@janie9768

5y↑9

I came here to see if anyone had a similar experience with this song :') thanks for reaffirming that.

@kamilo4989

5y↑4

Well said. Things do get easier.

@gwashnado5726

5y↑7

I've been wondering why I've been listening to this over and over and this is why things are finally coming together. It can be so hard to open up again after harm

@amandakraft261

5y↑2

I agree with this and it makes me feel the most understood.

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@snailoo53

3y↑151

“It’s just that I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended” makes me think of caring deeply for someone who is emotionally unavailable and only sees you as a second option, while still hanging onto them feels like a fight and you never seemed to process how horrible they were to you, and how disgusting the things they may have said were. “It left a pearl in my hand and I rolled it around” kind of feels like all the horrible things they said leaving one big mess of self hatred and being left to work through that on your own.

@DaBabyGraal

brodie nobody cares go outside🤣🤣‼️

@justsomegirlwithamoustache

2y↑16

I knowww I maaay be 8 months late but don't mind the idiot above me because I care <3

@Usuallyunusual596

32w↑1

I think i can relate somewhat

@sweetcherry3165

5y↑3.3K

the first chord of this song feels like im opening a bag of generational trauma

@sage7296

5y↑72

It hits even more on vinyl

@blwlmnswg

39w↑3

Ouch yes

@crystal_methamphetamine

30w↑1

best snack fr

@landendow8111

4y↑308

WHY ARENT WE TALKING ABOUT THE ART IN THIS VIDEO ITS SO MF GOOD

@Certified.dumbass-2

@qannicc

2y↑2

It's making me feel things

@cassandracastell4800

4y↑2.7K

this song reminds me so much of my relationship with my mom I hate her so much for the emotional abuse but at the same time I wanna be wrapped hugging her her with all my love.

@mybiggestfan

4y↑47

SAMEEEE 😩 THATS HOW

@angel-wd9rj

4y↑13

Same

@tcb7119

4y↑125

Same, I wish i could tell my mom how much her fucking verbal and emotional abuse hurt, like a fucking mack truck, like fuck why are you so evil? But at the same time I just want to hug her so so tight and tell her I love her.

@_soggypancakes_

4y↑58

I can relate to that, after she and my dad got divorced she started to manipulate and verbally abuse me. Thankfully it kinda dyed down when we moved but it still sticks to me and stopped opening my feelings to her, since she either sees it as a laughing matter or tells me to cut the crap since her life was "horrible" than mine when she was my age(which I understand) but that's no excuse to invalidate about my feelings and how I mentally feel. At the end of the day, I still give two shits about my mom because I lived with her for almost my whole life

@cassandracastell4800

4y↑22

@@tcb7119 I’m glad we can relate so well the verbal and emotional abuse is real :(

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@4skin-gaming

2y↑502

I think of this song as falling deeply in love with someone who is not stable. Someone who needs to get themself together before dating another person, yet they can't see it. It reminds me of my Momma and how she stayed married to an alcoholic for over a decade because she did not want to let go. She fell in love with him, but he wasn't in the place to properly love her back. My Papa has his own issues. There is a war inside his head and my mom was the woman who was the victim of it.

@christelle8572

2y↑13

Well a similar situation to mine but with a twist, which is that I wasn't completely OK myself...in recovery mode right now and working on getting better and over my last relationship which was very important to me...unfortunately in a way...

@4skin-gaming

2y↑7

@@christelle8572 I wish you well on your recovery journey. It's a hard road but you can do it. I'm glad you are getting help <3

@fatimacamilaugalde900

48w↑2

En términos de eso, yo soy la persona inestable 🤡

@ytpanda398

27w

Qué difícil, es como no se puede sentir mal, siendo el que era la problema. @@fatimacamilaugalde900

Lo siento para mi español

@blytheist

12w

Yeah, honestly this is me. In my last relationship I began developing BPD, and I was going through a really bad part of my life. I never wanted to hurt them, but I was constantly in survival mode and I couldn't properly love them back.

@eithyica3191

4y↑3.2K

ya'll ever just blast Mitski whenever you're on the verge of a breakdown or is it just me

@thefuckwhat7851

4y↑52

You caught me red handed

@keannasandoval468

4y↑8

shhhhh...

@Glutenfreebreadloaf

4y↑16

Me littersly Rn I've been listening for 40mins and I have online classes now 💀

@jaydehy

4y↑2

This song especially

@Monamiinx

3y↑3

Really gets all the bottled up emotions out

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@atlasabsentee3426

6y↑3.3K

gonna go listen to this in a public bathroom and cry

@freckspeck

6y↑23

Bless

@oof-rr5nf

6y↑3

@@swelldays7970 truly

@sapitou5549

6y↑18

HONESTLY,yeah. This encapsulates her music perfectly. It just hurts SO GOOD.

@ipone6696

4y↑4

took the words right out of my ass

@1uplayla

Same

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@yun-pg8cr

6y↑2.3K

@seazaid

6y↑47

Al-Lat i always thought it said “it’s just that I fell in love with a wolf” but yes this makes much more sense

@imhereandistay2034

6y↑76

Today I learned that she is not exactly saying "I fell in love with a woman"

@onlytlotlang

6y↑7

Thank you, so so much.

@ParaALLIWANTEDmore

5y↑23

And I thought it was “I fell in love with a worm”

@GhostyGu

5y↑5

Beautifully written and rewritten, thank-you.

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@atlanticoverthebeyond608

3y↑822

@nurimaan5214

2y↑8

thank you

@Ithought8

Lay cock

@Anime_edits17122

1y↑1

Thx

@justsubliminal2496

43w↑1

That's lyrics made me cry, not kidding

@Panther888

6y↑3.9K

I work in art animation and this animation must've taken so longgggg... woah

@alexkieslingart

6y↑449

My friend animated the underlying cgi portion while an artist rotoscoped over the top. They been working on this forever

@swelldays7970

6y↑174

@@alexkieslingart really?? let them know we think it's a beautiful mv <3

@madelynwintrick7577

6y↑17

Ikr jesus

@freckspeck

6y↑53

Bless your friend 😭💖

@alexkieslingart

6y↑43

@@swelldays7970 Will do!!

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@rareusername12345

6y↑577

HOLY MOLY that was??????? I'm speechless??????? Incredible,,,, the animation was so smooth and there were barely any cuts,,,, plus the use of color.., i???? M crying?????

@netizenrealness

6y↑21

literally INVENTED animation

@shelsealynne6627

6y↑14

the end really got me when she was falling.....mmm incrediblely smooth i cried a little bit

@fadesblue

4y↑6

THE WAY IT PLAYED WITH DIFFERENT AMOUNTS OF REALISM AND ABSTRACTION

@bubbybubby1925

6y↑459

I'm not sure this is right, but I think that the part about the "pearl in my head" part. Is about how there was a memory that was left inside her head. that constantly irritated her, for a pearl is formed when a spec of sand or any object gets lodged into an oyster or an animal of that sort. and the tissue around it gets irritated and the problem slowly gets bigger and bigger, because the tissue oozes out the chemical that rounds it out. So I think this song is about a memory that happened and it slowly irritates her until it becomes bearable.
Edit: the memory could be about a war with herself, or an actual war between two parties, from the lyrics.

@averymccartney8382

4y↑5

theres not right or wrong with interpreting art <33 it can mean whatever you want

@qoq5417

4y↑10

I love it when people analyze songs 🙇 thank you <3

@samthebaddie

4y↑1

I think it’s hand not head

@brianjacobs2748

4y↑1

@@samthebaddie Go read the lyrics off the internet. It’s head

@guidinghandreadings

42w

That too, and her clit 😂

@jasminebulcroft22

2y↑82

For me this song portrays the feeling of being deeply in love with someone who "saved" you from past trauma but despite how much they complete you it still is hard to open up, and having to watch as your lover distances themselves and falls out of love.

@logane5343

6y↑423

I totally love how it goes in a cycle. She ends right back at the beginning. I think that's a perfect way to describe this song, with wanting to move on but you've been unstable for so long you don't know how to exist in normalcy. So you just keep going back to what you know, even though you know it's bad. God I love Mitski!!💕

@criskp6861

4y↑7

I never noticed that. Great observation

@SheraSugar

6y↑396

Pearl is a masterpiece just like the whole Be The Cowboy album. I love you

@hatersafespace

4y↑22.9K

fun fact: mitski ACTUALLY created pearls

@malachaibarreto

4y↑2.3K

she created universe bc she was bored 💪🏻

@ggmmdh

4y↑757

@@malachaibarreto all hail mitski

@ONYXCORE

3y↑161

The Moriarty Patriot pfp yes and I agree

@kiennghi470

3y↑226

no she created the ocean

@ВзрослыйАкк

3y↑286

She created everything

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@Ohmydreargod

2y↑188

I believe that the most powerful part of the song is the bridge ( (1:11) to (2:19) ) the horns, the loudness of the song increasing, Mitsuki’s voice echoing in the background, and even the fucking MV itself which makes “A Pearl” by Mitsuki so good and listenable in the first place. Mitsuki taking W’s as usual.

@BORN753

2y↑2

It is not a part, it is half of the song😅

@BlueTeaArt

6y↑467

My god this music reaches to my heart rips it out gives it a kiss and gently puts it back

@gwendolynclark4545

6y↑30

My god that was a poetic comment and an eternal mood

@ehno4913

6y↑3

I felt this

@synaptotagmin69

6y↑4.5K

i know it’s kind of a running gag that the gays love mitski but honestly this song really encapsulates what being gay feels like for me. having fought with myself for feeling the way i feel, listening to offhand homophobic comments from my parents, constantly hiding and suppressing my feelings...
and then one day i move out, i start a new life, i can reinvent myself, i am finally free....but it’s all not as easy as i thought. all these experiences have left a mark on me, have fundamentally changed who i am and i find myself struggling to love.
i love this song so much and it has helped me a lot to reflect on all that.

@pixbuggs

6y↑142

bananaphobe you worded that so beautifully. i feel the same with being in the closet from people who have been in my life forever. it should be freeing to finally be rid of that burden but its still hard because it changed who you were and what your experiences have been. this song is so important to so many people.

@oof-rr5nf

6y↑36

I hope you find happiness, dude.
🌻💙🌻💙🌻💙🌻💙🌻💙🌻

@rawanx_x

6y↑40

bananaphobe I’m not even gay and I felt this

@synaptotagmin69

6y↑15

Luanda Rego hope you get better and be safe friend

@templebennett-robinson5901

6y↑12

um got damn u got me there -a college freshman gay w strict parents

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@prettylilprincessclaire

4y↑365

does anyone else hear a small snippet of the vocalizing part in her song pearl diver at around 1:40 - 1:43? if that's intentional it's quite a piece of musical genius to incorporate it into this song...I wonder if they are somehow connected

@seth7929

3y↑22

you are great! how did you notice this detail?

@buns4days

3y↑12

I'm surprised you noticed that! very smart if intentional

@prettylilprincessclaire

3y↑3

@@seth7929 heh must be some strange superpower /j

@prettylilprincessclaire

3y↑6

@@buns4days wow being praised by strangers on the internet makes me feel very good about myself heh thanks!

@bag.of.bones.

3y↑1

THATS SO COOL

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@BtsArmy-wb8um

33w↑69

I don't know for sure but I like to think that when she said " and it left a pearl in my head " she was referring to how oysters make Pearls as defence mechanism to parasites entering their shells or a way to neutralize a threat just like how her body made a pearl as way to protect her against the war she's fallen in love with

@mirar119

4y↑256

this feels like a super shallow approach to the song but this really strikes a chord with me in how my anxiety and depression affect my ability to accept affection and love from other people. i’m so used to telling myself that i’m not worthy of it and i don’t deserve it and so i end up lonely but i know deep down that i’m the one who put me here. i found this song after getting out of a really toxic friendship that put me in that mindset and this song really made me feel understood and heard when nobody believed me.

@anonymouse7773

4y↑26

I don't think that is a shallow interpretation at all! This song seems to appeal to a lot of people's different traumas and negative experiences, and it seem Mitski herself might have been singing about this. I'm glad you got out of that toxic friendship, I know it hurts in the moment but I promise it is good in the long term and you will grow a lot from this experience. Sending you good vibes❤❤

@mirar119

4y↑4

@@anonymouse7773 ❤️❤️❤️

@maryam4259

4y↑489

mitski on this song -
I think what's more surprising to me is when you're OK - but you're not used to being OK, and when you've been unhappy for so long that being unhappy is your norm and what you're uncomfortable with - so when you're not unhappy, when you're finally fine, you don't know what to do with yourself. You repeat self-destructive behaviours because it's what you know, it's what you feel you deserve and what you're comfortable with. If it's just your life then you can be as self-destructive as you want, but what makes it complicated is if you have someone else in your life who cares about you, if you're in a relationship, and you're supposed to be fine and you have someone asking about you and caring about you, but you just can't stop being unhappy, because being unhappy is what you want. That feeling of someone else being involved in your wellbeing, and not being able to be well for them.

@ruthlyninaldo8453

yessss

@eyyalbaa

omg this

@jackiezinho7082

3y↑2

this fits me so.... well?

@teamoaleteamoteamo9717

3y↑1

this is how i felt when my crush told me he was inlove with me too

@마시멜로냥-x8g

Relatable

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@Shinygemblue

6y↑611

Wow, I could never grow tired of mitski

@AlexandriaCovarrubia

28w↑13

"UR GROWING TIRED OF ME, U LOVE ME SO HARD AND I STILL CANT SLEEP, UR GROWING TIRED OF ME
AND THE THINGS I DONT TALK ABOUT. SORRY I DONT WANT UR TOUCH, ITS NOT THAT I DONT WANT YOU" SO REAL

@EM-mc8pd

4y↑799

Sometimes artists write lyrics that are so much bigger than they even know. I don’t think she intended this song to be an anthem for abuse survivors, just from the way she talks about what the song means to her. But wow these lyric capture exactly what it’s like to be juggling PTSD from domestic abuse and a new healthy relationship.

It’s also so cool how people can relate these lyrics to their own unique life. Like I said i think she wrote something so much bigger than herself. That’s great writing.

@ray-lj8fc

4y↑82

my dad telling me mitski is making me sad when she's the only thing helping me cope with the years and continuing years of mental abuse im going through, mitski is the best mother figure i have right now.

@falco4838

4y↑101

the line "sorry, i can't take your touch. It's not that i don't want you" holds so much meaning for me, i cannot handle any touch from any adults including my parents. They mostly stopped doing so, but they take not wanting to be touched as not needing any support or help from them whatsoever. I feel like they've given up on me and that hurts me a lot, it hurts to have more honest and long conversations with your teachers instead of your parents. It hurts that i can't ask my parents about anthing growing up. I have truly no idea what i'm supposed to do here, my parents think letting me live so freely is good for me but it's not, i'm so lonely and i have no idea what's "normal" in social situations.

@strawberriesfawn

2y↑50

I genuinely love that Mitski and her music make people so comfortable like all the people venting. Mitski’s songs are so calming and I love that people feel open to vent when it comes to her. <3

@lovebug4998

3y↑1.4K

this is definitely my favorite mitski song <3

I was sa as a kid and have trauma due to that, also fear of intimacy.
my partner doesn’t understand why I get panic attacks when he touches me the wrong way. when mitski says “you’re growing tired of me, you love me so hard and I still can’t sleep” I imagine my partner getting sick of me even though he always reassures me that he loves me :(
the “sorry I can’t take your touch” resonates a lot.

@anoushka1604

3y↑36

Sending love <3

@DaBabyGraal

3y↑6

nobody cares bru

@alphauu2586

@@DaBabyGraal I care, stfu and leave.

@DaBabyGraal

@@polarsprout calm down fatty

@rlmegatron

3y↑12

YEAH EXACTLY!!!!!!!

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@dreadontdie

3y↑5.8K

Fun fact: Mitski invented depression then cured it

@AngelsSacrifice.0

3y↑20

Frfr

@L0V3_V

3y↑41

bcs mitski god

@StarTheNightmare

2y↑72

She invented the Universe and created emotions like Empathy, Pity, Depression, and Sorrow, then with her beautiful voice and beautiful sight, she cured those emotions

@Perlasdespair

2y↑3

@@L0V3_V /srs mitski 4ever

@leoo3263

2y↑1

@@L0V3_V pm moio moo

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@blendhaval6396

3y↑2.6K

@julieta8860

3y↑10

@mintygab

i hope your pillows are cold on both sides<3

@holandda

3y↑7

Thank you!

@gwenpool1917

3y↑8

This hits hard

@ariprice3016

3y↑8

1:40

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@buhblue

1y↑16

“There is a hole that you fill” As in, we cope in a negative way in order to fill that void that’s created because of trauma. i think this song makes it seem like we end up “liking” our trauma responses because we find comfort in nothing else or are too scared to go through the process of getting better.

@pengwen134

6y↑216

anyone else falls in love with every single mitski song a little bit more every time they listen to it?

@fanygonzalez8500

YES

@user-qo4nu9ze8d

6y↑202

Mitski sings like her heart is crying,the emotion is so raw it really puts you in the feels. I love you Mitski ❤️ xoxo

@christinekouria616

6y↑720

sad gang is here and READY

@henatatorplays

6y↑6

🤟😢🤟

@keepmelucid333

6y↑3

reppin gang gang

@madladsunny7508

And already crying

@viki_itoriya

Ready to flood the whole planet with tears🤟😭

@진민소JINMINSO

23w↑27

Mitski inventing pearls for this song go CRAZY ‼️‼️‼️‼️

@hvziel

6y↑1.4K

IT'S JUST THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH A WORM

@justmart4455

5y↑191

wormsexual

@justmart4455

5y↑212

Imagine fucking a worm

@franfran5155

5y↑54

Arctic Ice I- JAUSYSYGEVEHD U JUST MADE MY FRICKING DAY

@microninkpen5877

4y↑43

@@justmart4455 hey, my relationship with my worm, bill is very real >:(

@softwnbs2833

4y↑22

@@justmart4455...😀 i’d rather not.

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@chloet8625

4y↑25

to me the line "nobody told me it ended" is reminiscent of ptsd, the "war", her struggle is over but it plays in her head over and over again like it's still happening, it left a pearl in her head, a memory on repeat.

@chyanneccampbell

6y↑342

The power that this has, the intelligence that this has, the clearance that this has, the access that this has, the influence that this has, the profile that this has, the international implications that this has, the-

@Amarimwah

2y↑39

What I love about mitski is that I don’t have to fall in love with her personality or her looks in order to fall in love with her. All I need to do is listen to a song. I didn’t even know what she looked like or acted like until after I pretty much listened to her religiously. When someone genuinely falls in love with your art like that, then consider yourself talented.

@ray-lj8fc

4y↑40

1:10 is the sound version of feeling the ways i feel all the time .

@--lihu2920

3y↑788

la manera en la que esta mujer transmite un sentimiento de vacío enorme es increíble

@lupusamurupuss

3y↑4

Sii

@alexandramarti6448

2y↑6

Real

@sonsolesv.c5525

3y↑88

0:25 "Sorry I don't want your touch, it's not that I don't want you." This is what I have to explain to my parents everyday. I'm autistic and I hate physical touch. My parents think I hate them or don't love them anymore. But I love them so much. I just can't stand physical touch:/

@ashlynx114

2y↑1

🤧💖

@Blondesixties

37w↑12

This music video is ethereal.. yet the artistic details of it make it feel so grounded and real, the pearl shaped ceiling decor, the color palette shifts, the bright blue ambiance and the way her skin casts reflected light on the white ground when it splits apart at the edges, ooohh..I love this somuch.

@Samlerpill

3y↑75

As someone with intimacy issues…and relationship issues…this hits hard. And no matter how hard I try to step out of my comfort zone I’m stuck. And he has the same issues. So we enjoy each other’s company. Awaiting behavioral issues. Or money issues. Or family issues. And stay stuck together

@christelle8572

2y↑1

Well be careful then... My last relationship ended partly because of lack of intimacy. No matter how much I loved my ex, she was stuck in her ways and I didn't try to make much efforts for her towards the last few months , partly because I knew I wouldn't get what I wanted from her. Am I gutted ? Yes. But I couldn't fight against that...

@celestialbinch

6y↑66

I never really paid attention to the lyrics but now I’ve felt them on a whole new level and it’s almost agonizing to be seen so blatantly clear — but also, not, bc she obviously doesn’t know me but it feels like she wrote this for me. Yknow? Idk I’ve been crying for over an hr maybe the dehydration is getting to me

@raveandsweets

4y↑2

i get you pal same here

@rando4924

3y↑44

the way she sampled pearl diver at around 1:40 is so genius. she literally invented music

@Lone-d2x

20w↑11

“Sorry i don’t want your touch”
“Its not that i don’t want you”
Damn.

@SariahadelaOlveraSanchez

20w↑1

My favorite part

@reaipsychologist

4y↑94

argh. the comments were right, this song hits hard because there's almost endless scenarios possibilities to imagine. I hate the fact that the pearl rolling in my head just to watch it glow hits hard. It feels like being unhappy is the constant emotion i can feel, i'm scared of being happy. Everytime i am, it ends up with me being even more frustrated. It just feels wrong to suddenly change moods when you've been used to feel the same numb one for years and years, plus doesn't help at a young age... That's what abandonment issues did to me anyways.

@XxOMGitzbrianxX

6y↑197

talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show-stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before, unafraid to reference or not reference, put it in a blender, shit on it, vomit on it, eat it, give birth to it

@IgnacioVogel

6y↑41

You know, there could be a 100 people in the room, and 99 don't believe in you, and you just need one to believe and that was Mitski

@pictureparlour000mitski

4y↑69

The most advanced American songwriter.
Stunning voice.
Hauntingly beautiful.

@Lara-vo6rp

4y↑8

Oh hey didn't I see you earlier at the "mitski everything you need to know about her" i found your comment 🌼

@pearls_forever

2y↑129

I need a one hour version of this -,-

@cloudscovermyflaws

2y↑5

I need an 8 hour version of this so I can just play it on repeat for the entire school day

@Robb3636

You can loop it by right clicking in the middle and selecting loop, then it can last infinite hours, in theory

@davidquijadafernandez5468

5y↑1.1K

You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go

Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch

There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill

It's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow

@chocobere

6y↑78

Mitski writes stuff that resonates with what a lot of ppl are going through individually and or collectively. This song carries meaning for everyone in its otherworldly tune. Don't get me started on the animations they're beyond wow. Thank you Mitski, thank you visual production team! cries, hits repeat

@Mezzy..

3y↑241

As an animator Im blown by this and crying at the music at the same time lol

@kernalfleak

2y↑7

you know what software they used?

@esterbun9356

1y↑6

@@kernalfleak Software doesn't really matter but from Saad Moosajee's page it was a mix of 3d, with 2d painterly effects using a rendering program.

@Mafuyu_Asahina_Plushie

2y↑66

Fun fact:Mitski got me thru some dark times, her songs are the best !

@W41K.3R

2y↑3

proud of u! keep at it

@emilyray2166

6y↑676

the one dislike is the clam the pearl was stolen from

@summeronion

BOIIIII

@Jayk-kz7sh

6y↑16

It's from the war mitski fell in love with

@VainHarmony

Guilty

@isabellaalbini3002

4y↑74

@hairynigga269

Thank you so much love

@jettnunya1663

4y↑37

I’m always amazed by Miski’s ability to write songs that are so detailed and visceral and emotional and yet so relatable to so many

@JoeMama-1diot

2y↑37

How do you feel that THOUSANDS of people could be crying to your music right now..? Amazing right.. you’re so powerful, mitski mitski

@iibunnybabyii9915

3y↑388

i was in love with my friend, and nobody liked him because they thought he was mentally unstable. one day i stopped seeing him and he stopped answering my texts. for almost a month nobody told me he had committed suicide. so the way i interpret "its just that i fell in love with a war, and no one told me it ended" i fell in love with someone with problems, and no one told me he killed himself. the lines "sorry i can't take your touch" and "it's not that i don't want you" it was so hard to get into relationships because it felt like i was betraying him.

@masterslave5076

3y↑20

Wow I'm sorry

@geniewishes4823

3y↑33

I'm so sorry for your loss, hopefully one day you can understand that your friend probably didn't tell you because he didn't want to hurt you, and his family didn't tell you cause they were hurting. I know that won't ease the pain but it might help a bit. I hope you can heal, I'm sure he would've wanted you to be happy. :)

@alru3alien

3y↑6

Im so sorry...

@wassupshawty23

2y↑1

I'm sorry so sorry for your loss...

@Aroundhyun

what..im so sorry for your loss.thats terrible

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@miav.3373

4y↑132

I was in a relationship. He used to constantly reassure me and tell me that he loved me, but I never believed it, mainly because I was stubborn and had trust issues. When I finally began realising that I was truly in love with him, and stopped doubting his love for me, he got tired of me. His patience had ran out. He stopped being affectionate, and began getting very passive aggressive. He'd ignore me, laugh at me when I'm suffering from my anxiety, shame me for my ED. Slowly, I began losing feelings. I began losing hope. Even though I knew that we had fallen out of love, I refused to let go. There was a hole that he filled, and without him I felt like that hole would stuck me up alive. As things progressively got worse, he began getting more aggressive, saying that he would cheat on me if I did anything wrong.

In fact, I'm still in this relationship. I don't know how to get out. I'm trying to convince myself that things will get better, but deep inside, I know they won't.

I wanted to share this because it relates back to the song.
"You love me so hard & I still can't see"
"You're growing tired of me"
"I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it had ended"

@miav.3373

4y↑26

@nexialist Thank you so much, you're so sweet. I wrote that comment a month ago. I'm out of the relationship. I cannot say that I've healed, but I'm trying my best.

@vanillasilken

4y↑2

@@miav.3373 I am so glad you got out! Wishing you the best for your future!!

@reanluimstra6960

4y↑1

Im so proud of you <3

@franfran5155

I can’t let go he’s my friend he needs me

@franfran5155

hurts seeing this, he let go.

@alexp7016

6y↑328

Thank you to mitski for singlehandedly curing my depression and getting me a gay gf

@oof-rr5nf

6y↑9

she's around the corner 💛

@gwenpool1917

3y↑317

This is not music..... It is art

@izzygibbons1247

2y↑43

Music is art my love. That is why it’s called music artist.

@lorelainino5722

2y↑3

REAL

@barbaraangelicafloreshuert3372

1y↑1

true

@EbonySerpent999

1y↑1

@@tallesdelreyx So much more.

@rainekosaka

4y↑11

Ahh, the song that made fall in love with Mitski's music, best find ever.

@P1RATEE1LISH

3y↑223

Mitski is so incredibly talented she’s been my idol growing up during hard times and I wouldn’t be as happy as I am now. Mitski music is such I vibe and always will be

@P1RATEE1LISH

3y↑7

Also this music video is such a vibe

@xalious225

2y↑1

You can be my idol 😼😘

@lizucavictoria

6y↑135

a video for my favourite song on the album? thank you so much

@Bruno-jj2oi

1y↑26

This is probably not the most accurate meaning of the song, but to me it really sounds like being a neurodivergent person in a relationship with someone who just don't seem to understand it. The "i fell in love with a war" practically summons it for me, like you're fighting against your inner demons so much it feels like you're getting addicted to it

@cierra7246

5y↑26

i listened to this song obsessively after my breakup. i had been with someone for 4 years, and as we were out-growing each other our relationship became more and more toxic. but i couldn't leave because i had grown so comfortable with him and even though our relationship was chaos and was damaging both of us it still came as a shock when we broke up and i had learned that he had been falling out of love with me for the last year we were together. the line, "i fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended" encapsulates the way i felt coming out of that relationship perfectly. mitski really did help me heal. ♥

@SUD8800

6y↑2.7K

another damaged people anthem, thank you

@kllian6822

4y↑2

@swordsanddaggers

3y↑2

Who needs therapy when you can listen to a pearl by mitski on loop 🤡

@dani-nc6px

4y↑245

this song hits different when you're in a dead relationship, where you both know there's no love anymore but you both stay because it's comfortable, and maybe you just don't care enough to leave. maybe there's something familiar about coming home to empty conversations that leave you feeling more hollow than before. something familiar about feeling a quiet sadness, yet not knowing why, and letting it get worse because it's just dull enough to not matter, but painful enough to be noticed. something familiar in not knowing if you'll ever feel okay or normal again, but it's alright, because on paper, you should be happy. so why are you sad? why do you feel so damn empty? why doesn't their "i love you" do anything for you anymore, why don't you feel anything when you take them for dates, or look into their eyes, where's the stutter in your heartbeat? when you leave for work, you don't say goodbye anymore, and most days are silent. there's nothing to talk about anymore, and if there was, you probably wouldn't want to talk about it. is this what love is? you're growing tired of them, you think. but things are comfortable, and these days, you're tired of everything. and when you lie awake in bed beside their sleeping body, you want to get rid of your hollowing sadness, the one that's haunted you for as long as you can remember, and you try to cry but can't. you can't manage a single tear, and you want to scream because of it. your emotions are too deeply repressed now. is this what life is? and sometimes, in the early hours of morning, where the moonlight is still filtering through the blinds - where it shines onto your shared bed, where neither of you dare touch the other - you wonder if things would be better if you were dead. it feels like you already are anyway.

@user-wp5nw6kl6m

4y↑12

HIT HOME

@user-mk8zq2ni1w

4y↑9

That kinda hurt

@emxdzz

4y↑7

thank you for this, you made my night.

@yanahmei

gosh

@hellookaren9765

3y↑5

Hope you got therapy lmfaooo

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@edaumaysol

10w↑5

Dealing with mental illness(es), hurting people around you, seeking isolation, reclusion, pushing people away from you, all while battling a war in your head that no one else can see, eventually ending in the destruction of your interpersonal relationships.

Regardless of the original artistic intention Mitski had, that's my personal interpretation of this song. I struggle with having a Fearful-Avoidant relationship style due to a myriad of traumas and neglect from childhood. It has ultimately caused my brain to not understand that "the war" has ended. No one told me it ended, so I've still been on guard for as long as I could remember. I don't understand love, I hadn't ever seen it before. When it was right in front of me, it looked foreign and wrong, so I had to escape.

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