This Life
Monae Lyrics

I started out with No dough, no clothes, no shows, and no hoes And ended up with Mo hoes, mo shows, mo clothes, and mo dough
I began with nothing: no money, no clothes, no gigs, and no women. Now, I have plenty of women, gigs, clothes, and money.

I used to be the ideal nigga Preppy like Hilfiger Pretty vill nigga But wanted to make my dollar bill bigger Turned into a field nigga Not pickin' cotton But pickin' up mics and rockin' Recoppin' so I can feel richer So I started drinkin' real liquor
I used to be posh and dapper, appearing like a Hilfiger model, but I wanted more cash. So I kicked it up, becoming a star in the music industry. I started to drink real, hard liquor to feel more alive.

Send me a groupie And I will stick her real quick The dilsnick it will hit her ex pills I can feel nigga best deals You can get the steal If you ill I'm concealed with a Technina millameter by my side God used to guide me Lucifer beside me Evil was lively trippin' with wifey Never was treatin' her nicely What this music got me into This is the message I'mma send to God the evil shit I've been through Lettin' me really know what sin do Listen cuz the hurt cut me deep like a ginsu
If you get me a fan to have sex with, I'll do it quickly. I used ecstasy to enhance my performance. I have a gun with me for protection. I used to be a religious, God-fearing man until the music industry changed me. I was living with the devil and was not treating my girlfriend well. Music has thrown me into a lot of trouble, and I am now realizing what sin really does. I hurt so deeply that it's like a painful wound from a ginsu knife.

[Chorus: x2] This life Caught up in the fame In the end will I forever Burn in the flame This life I live in the rain I'm an angel but the devil's Possessing my brain
I'm trapped in the glitz of fame, wondering if I'll end up in hell forever. I'm living a life of turmoil, and though I'm an angel, I'm also being controlled by the devil.

This life Full of money bitches weed and riches Kansas City niggas grind it Cook it up in the kitchen Pay attention to the corner nigga Roguish and rugged Nigga fuck it it's a must I conceal it and tuck it This life Can make a nigga murder for nothin' This life For the money have you fakin' and frontin' This life Can make a nigga take a deal with the devil This life Got me rippin' up shit in my kennel
This life is full of money, sex, drugs, and materialism. Folks in Kansas City hustle hard - they cook drugs in the kitchen. Gritty and tough folks hang out on the corners - I hide and keep myself safe. This life makes people become murderers or fakes. You can even bargain with the devil. This life has me angrily destroying things in my space.

Ya see I live in the rain Laugh at the storm And mastered the pawn Bringin' war at the crack of the dawn Tottin' the bomb A nigga with a third eye vision Like a malachi blowin' smoke in the sky See the world through the eyes of a real nigga Look into my eyes You can tell I'm a rider More shows more clothes More hoes more dough And no foes yo
I live life through the hard times, but I laugh despite the difficulty. I'm in control of my destiny like a chess player. I'm ready for war at the break of dawn, carrying a weapon. I'm a person with a unique perspective - I see the world differently. Looking at me, you can tell that I am always up for a challenge. More success brings more earnings, women, and clothes. I don't have any enemies.

Some times I wonder How did I survive With all this drama in front of me Poppa went out like a bitch For runnin' from me Though momma never lied She cried Seen me sittin' in prison Servin' a sentence With bad intentions Still no repentance I'm heart broken while chokin' On a joint dipped in water And high hopin' the future's wide open For my daughter my eyes are open To all animosity constantly Falling quickly the devil calls it A blessing to cross Nitty Lessons are taught quickly Hell my pride will die with me Then to repeat back To the penitentiary visit me Hell bound coffin dwellin' Before a life in the cell yelllin' Now free me I'm in desperate need immediately Truthfully speakin' My life from night to day 24 hours I fight Despite this hell to pay Can't wait to see the day When my adventures begin With this here life of sin I'm all in
Sometimes I wonder how I even survived this frantic life. My dad left me for cowardly reasons, which was painful for my mother. Someone saw me in jail, but I remained unrepentant, even with awful objectives. I'm brokenhearted, smoking weed and hoping for a brighter future for my daughter. I'm living in a bitter world, where people are always at odds with me, and the devil has a special place for me. I've learned several lessons but always with hard experiences. I can never put aside my pride, even if it may kill me. I've gone back to jail before, and I don't want to go back. My life is a constant battle, but I'm always fighting. And I'm looking forward to embracing the life of sin, whatever it may bring.

[Chorus: x2] This life Caught up in the fame In the end will I forever Burn in the flame This life I live in the rain I'm an angel but the devil's Possessing my brain
I'm still trapped in the fame, wondering if my future is doomed to failure forever. I'm still living a life of chaos, plagued by demonic thoughts that I can't get rid of.

Is it heaven or hell I really can't tell It half cupid half relic My life is anghellic So I dance with the devils And I fly with the angel And I stand on a level Where mind is so tangled
I don't know if I'm going to heaven or hell due to my complicated, chaotic life. It's like a mix of love and tragedy. I live a life of both good and evil. Mutually entangled, it's hard for me to make decisions.