Bottom Feeder
Motion City Soundtrack Lyrics

I knew right from the start
From the beginning, I was aware that there would be a day when my world would collapse.

One day panic and everything falls apart
There would be a moment when my anxiety would overcome me and lead to the destruction of everything around me.

And absolute dark
It would be a time of complete hopelessness and despair.

Then came in for the kill
At that moment, my fear and anxiety took over and began to dominate my thoughts.

Like some language
It was as if my fears spoke a language that only I could understand.

Emotions are not refilled
Once I had given in to my anxieties, it was impossible to restore my sense of calm and rationality.

So hauntingly still
The aftermath was a heavy, oppressive silence that resonated within me.

If I had to tell the truth
In all honesty,

I would rather be a liar
I'd rather deceive myself than face the painful reality of my situation.

Feeding off of the abuse
The pain of the situation gave me something to focus on, something to sustain me.

Because I need something more than you
I craved something deeper and more meaningful than what my current situation had to offer.

I crave spasms and spark
I longed for the intensity and excitement of unbridled emotion.

Tight rope victim embracing my battle scars
I felt like a tight rope walker, trying to balance my emotions while simultaneously dealing with the scars of my past.

A laboring heart
My emotional state put a tremendous burden on my heart, making it feel strained and overworked.

One less message to send
I needed to cut ties with someone or something that was holding me back or contributing to my anxiety.

My debt branches
My obligations and responsibilities felt like they were overwhelming me, like the branches of a tree that were smothering me.

They break, they refuse to bend
I was unable to reconcile my obligations with my desire for personal freedom and fulfillment.

All static again
My efforts to move past my anxieties were met with failure, returning me to a state of disconnection and emptiness.

The severing of ties
Breaking away from someone or something significant in my life.

The parting of our lives
Moving away from the person or situation forever.

The bitter blue
The intense sadness that accompanied this difficult choice.

And there's not room enough for you
This choice had to be made, and there was no way for the other person or situation to coexist with my need for change.

Humiliating cold
The cold reality of my situation made me feel small and insignificant.

The pieces that I sold
I made choices that went against my values in order to move on from my difficult situation.

The deepest black
The inner darkness that I was exploring and grappling with as I struggled to find a way out.

The love I lost and can't get back
The sense of loss and pain that accompanied my decision to move away from someone or something that once filled my heart with love.

I need something more than you
I needed more than what this person or situation was capable of providing me with.

If I had to tell the truth
Honestly,

I would rather be a liar
I would prefer to deceive myself than face the painful truth.

Feeding off of the abuse
Focusing on the pain and hurt in order to sustain myself and find purpose in my difficult situation.

Because I need something more than you
I was seeking something deeper and more meaningful in my life than what this person or situation was capable of providing me with.