L.g. Fuad
Motion City Soundtrack Lyrics

Let's get fucked up and die
I am expressing my desire to escape reality and all its problems, but not in a literal sense.

I'm speaking figuratively, of course
I am not being serious with my statement, and it should not be taken literally.

Like the last time that I committed suicide social suicide
I have previously made a decision to withdraw from social interactions voluntarily as a way of coping with my problems.

Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside
I am emotionally damaged and unable to fully participate in life due to my struggles.

But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs
I use my memories and photographs as a way of escaping reality temporarily.

I've learned to love the lie
I have become comfortable with my escapism and am willing to continue living in my fantasy world.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent
I desire to experience the simplicity of life without any pressures, burdens or conflicts.

I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense yeah
I long to have a sense of direction and purpose in life, and to feel valued and appreciated.

Let me in, let me in to the club, 'cause I wanna belong
I feel excluded from the society and want to be part of a group or community where I can be accepted and appreciated.

And I need to get strong, and if memory serves
I want to build up my emotional strength using past experiences as a guide.

I'm addicted to words and they're useless
I often escape into a world of words, but it doesn't solve any problems and might just make me feel worse.

I'm riding hard on the last legs of every lie
I am struggling to maintain my façade and hiding my true emotions and experiences.

And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode
My life is getting out of control and I am on the verge of experiencing a meltdown or crisis.

I'm about to explode
I am emotionally about to break down and possibly take drastic measures.

I'm a mess, I'm a wreck
I am emotionally unstable, and my life is unmanageable at this point.

I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings
I am acknowledging my flaws, but still accepting myself without self-judgment.

Because I am so visceral, yet deeply inept
I am overwhelmed by my emotions, but unable to fully express them in a constructive way.

I want to thank you for being a part of my the forget-me-nots and marigolds
I am grateful for those who have been a part of my happy memories and have been supportive of me in the past.

And all the things that don't get old
The good memories are timeless, and they remain valuable and precious to me forever.

Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know
I do not know if what I am doing is right or legal, but it's the only way I know to express myself.

It's the only way I have learned to express myself around other peoples' descriptions of life
I have difficulty finding my own voice and expressing my true emotions accurately, and I rely on others' experiences and descriptions to do so.

I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless
I feel like I am alone, misunderstood and unimportant in the world.

For the last time I'm feeling
I am experiencing an intense emotional state, possibly for the last time.

We'll try not to smile
I acknowledge that this is a serious situation and I am not going to pretend that everything is okay.

As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
I am using alcohol excessively to cope with my problems and anxiety, instead of facing them directly.

That's no shocking and surprise
The fact that I am struggling with my problems and possibly contemplating suicide shouldn't come as a shock to anyone.

I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
I have faith in myself that I will eventually overcome my struggles and emerge victorious.

But I choose to abuse for the time being
In the meantime, I am choosing to cope with my problems in an unhealthy way and resorting to self-destructive behavior.

Maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die
Although I am hopeful that I will eventually win the fight against my problems, right now I am too tired and discouraged to continue living.

Sister soldier
I am addressing someone who has been supportive of me and has helped me cope with my problems.

You've been such a positive influence on my mental frame
You have had a positive impact on my emotional well-being and my ability to cope with my problems.

If I could ever repay you I would
I am grateful for your support and think that you deserve to be thanked in a more substantial way.

But I'm hard up for cash
Unfortunately, I am not in a position to compensate you financially for your help.

And my memory lacks initiative
Although I am grateful for your help, I have trouble remembering things and am forgetful.

God damn the liquor stores' closed
I am frustrated and disappointed that I can't buy alcohol from the store right now to cope with my anxiety.

We were so close to scoring
I was hoping to get some alcohol as a way of coping with my problems, but now I can't.

It hurts, it destroys til it kills
Alcohol doesn't help me in the long run, and it might actually worsen my situation and lead to my demise.

I am tired and hungry and totally useless
My emotional state is affecting my physical well-being and productivity, and I feel incapable of doing anything right now.