Phoenix
Mr. Irish Bastard Lyrics

I see the smoke rising from the ground
I see the aftermath of destruction and chaos in my life

I see ashes all fading out
I see the end of my pain and suffering

I can see it clearer now
I have gained clarity and perspective on my struggles

Oooo I think I made it out
I feel like I have finally overcome my hardships

And all those jolted memories
All of my traumatic experiences from the past

And all the things that's haunting me
All of the negative thoughts and emotions that still consume me

No, I'm not backing down
I refuse to let my past define me or control my future

I see the Phoenix rising from the ground
I see the rebirth of a new and stronger version of myself

Abandonment issues
The unresolved emotional trauma from being abandoned

Adoption issues
The complicated emotions and identity struggles that come with being adopted

I cried so many times
I have cried countless tears over my pain and struggles

I don't need your tissues
I don't need pity or sympathy from others

I wanted support
I needed help and support during my darkest moments

I needed support
I relied on others for emotional support and guidance

Resorted to the drugs
I turned to drugs and other unhealthy coping mechanisms to numb the pain

Had me all in the court
My struggles with addiction led to legal trouble

I like to think that I'm a sacrifice
I feel like my struggles have been a sacrifice for a greater purpose

I see the smoke rising from the nights (from the nights)
I see the aftermath of my dark and troubled nights

Transform into reality (reality)
My struggles have become my reality

Sense of false hope with my trajectory
I once had false hope for my future, but my trajectory seemed bleak

But I stay down I was walking somehow and I had my head down
Despite feeling defeated, I kept moving forward with my head down

So many foster kids are traumatized (traumatized)
There are many foster children who suffer from trauma and emotional pain

So many of them commit suicide (suicide)
Tragically, many foster children take their own lives because of their pain and suffering

I know I'm talking like it's you and I
I'm speaking as if our experiences are similar

But maybe you and I we could falsify
Maybe we could challenge the expectations and stereotypes of our experiences

And show how some parents try to monetize
We can expose how some parents exploit their foster children for profit

And using kids for capital gains (capital gains)
They use foster children to make money

I know its a cycle it will never change (never change)
Unfortunately, this cycle of abuse and exploitation seems never-ending

I'm just being hopeful please let me dream
Despite the bleak reality, I still hold onto a glimmer of hope and dream for a better future

We here now
We are here in the present moment

We gon stand up on it we got let this shit out
We will stand up and fight against these injustices and let our voices be heard

Mom always said keep your head up, look up to the clouds (uhh)
My mother always encouraged me to keep my head up and look towards the future

Think the vision clearer now
I have gained a clearer perspective on my life and my future