If U Love Me Now
Muna Lyrics
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I know what you're thinking
This is not what you signed up for
I could pray to God
But I'm not invested
And you get what you pay for
I've been trying to find out if anyone
Cause I always seem to want more
Provided that I can get some
There's me in the corner throwing a fit
Making a mess of it
Don't you love me now?
There's me under the table, hiding from my
Lovers and my allies
Don't you love me now?
It's just a hypothesis or test, that I should not exist
Don't you love me now?
There's me in the doorway telling you please
You should just let me leave
If you love me now
I could bite my tongue
Trying not to say that my love
For you looks different
I could bide my time
Hoping I could fix it
But it goes against my instincts
And I've been trying to find out if anyone
Feels super sure that they are deserving of someone
Cause I always seem to give it up
Provided that I can get some
There's me in the corner throwing a fit
Making a mess of it
Don't you love me now?
There's me under the table hiding from my
Lovers and my allies
Don't you love me now?
It's just a hypothesis or test, that I should not exist
Don't you love me now?
There's me in the doorway telling you please
You should just let me leave
If you love me now
It's just a hypothesis or test, that I should not exist
Don't you love me now
There's me in the doorway telling you please
You should just let me leave
If you love me now
In "If U Love Me Now," Muna seems to be questioning the authenticity of the love she is receiving. The first verse suggests that while she may understand her partner's thoughts, she is not willing to invest her own feelings in the relationship. She also seems to be questioning the notion of prayer, implying that she believes her partner's love for her is something she has purchased rather than something she has earned.
The chorus of the song is the most haunting part of the song as it features Muna describing herself in a vulnerable state, hiding under tables and throwing fits. She seems to be feeling disconnected from those who surround her, even those who should be her allies, making her question if they truly love her. Muna suggests that her troubles are simply tests or hypotheses to prove that she does not need to exist. In the final line of the chorus, she tells the object of her affection to let her go if they truly love her.
In the second verse, Muna's doubts about herself and her relationships continue. She mentions that she cannot keep her feelings to herself, which may come in the form of her love looking “different” to others. She also admits to giving up easily, which suggests that she struggles with feelings of inadequacy, and wonders if anyone deserves love.
Overall, the lyrics of "If U Love Me Now" convey Muna's insecurity and doubts about her place in the world and in her relationships. It is a painfully honest and introspective song that addresses themes of self-worth, insecurity, and the search for true love.
Line by Line Meaning
I could read your mind
I understand what you’re thinking without saying it out loud
I know what you're thinking
I know what's going on in your mind right now
This is not what you signed up for
You didn’t expect things to turn out this way, it's not what you bargained for
I could pray to God
I could ask for divine intervention
But I'm not invested
But I'm not committed enough to do so
And you get what you pay for
You get what you deserve, or what you have earned
I've been trying to find out if anyone
I’ve been searching for people who feel content with what they’ve accomplished
Feels truly happy because of all that they have done
Feels a true sense of satisfaction from what they've achieved
Cause I always seem to want more
Because I'm always seeking more, never feeling satisfied
Provided that I can get some
As long as I can obtain it
There's me in the corner throwing a fit
I’m throwing a tantrum in the corner
Making a mess of it
I'm ruining everything
Don't you love me now?
Don't you still love me despite my flaws and outbursts?
There's me under the table, hiding from my
I'm cowering under the table to avoid
Lovers and my allies
My loved ones and supporters
It's just a hypothesis or test, that I should not exist
It's just a thought or experiment, suggesting that I shouldn't even be alive
There's me in the doorway telling you please
I'm begging you from the doorway
You should just let me leave
You should let me go
If you love me now
If you truly love me, you'll let me go
I could bite my tongue
I could hold back my true feelings
Trying not to say that my love
Not wanting to admit that my love
For you looks different
My love for you appears to be unconventional
I could bide my time
I could wait and see if things change
Hoping I could fix it
Hoping to repair the situation
But it goes against my instincts
But my gut is telling me otherwise
Feels super sure that they are deserving of someone
Feels excessively confident that they deserve someone
Cause I always seem to give it up
Because I always seem to let go
It's just a hypothesis or test, that I should not exist
It's an idea or experiment that makes me question my existence
There's me in the doorway telling you please
I'm still at the door, begging you
You should just let me leave
You should allow me to go
If you love me now
If you truly love me, you should let me go
Contributed by Penelope J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.