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The story that is My Epic has been in the works for several years. The whole process started in 1998 when Aaron, Jesse, and Matt first started playing together in what quickly became their first band, The Right Wing Conspiracy, later known as Shaddai. Through their experiences together, the five boys in Shaddai grew as musicians and as a band, and by the summer of 2004, after playing shows ranging from their home town of Fredericksburg, VA to Cornerstone Festival in Illinois and earning a reputation for their energy as well as their technical ability and songwriting prowess, Shaddai was on the brink of taking over the world. Jesse was about to join the rest of the band in the college world, and with the whole band living close together, good things looked to be just ahead. The momentum of the band was brought to a halt in the later part of the summer with the departure of Jono, and the remaining members of Shaddai were faced with the decision of whether to press on, reform, restart, or retire. They knew that it was time to put Shaddai in the past. They threw the ashes of Shaddai to the wind and looked back on the era with a grin. Within a short amount of time, after very little discussion, Aaron, Jesse, and Matt realized the obvious: they had to keep playing together, but something new was in the air. What began as a dilemma actually became a blessing as the three of them found themselves with a chance to refine their focus and take their music in a more adventurous direction. Jono stuck around as the band's closest friend and applied his savvy of all things business to the task of managing the band.
_____It was easy enough to realize the opportunity to begin something new, but the band still needed to complete their lineup with a bass player. Over the remainder of the summer, the as yet unnamed band were working hard to put their heads together, and there was very quick agreement that their school friend Jeremiah would be just the person for the job. As Aaron tells it, the band was thinking of the people they knew, and "the whole time, Jeremiah was just the only person we could think about." They returned to school to find that Jeremiah had moved into the dorm in the room next to Jesse's, and this turn of events was too big to be coincidence. The fit was too natural not to be perfect, and in September of 2004, there were four members of the band with a common vision and a passion waiting to be released. By February, the band was ready to play their first show, which ended up being a very successful and impressive debut in front of a few hundred receptive and enthusiastic audience members. My Epic spent a few days in March of 2005 recording a two-song teaser with their good friend and producer extraordinaire Andrew Prousalis. With the band out of the blocks and off at full speed, it's just a matter of time before their momentum carries them to the attention of anyone with their ear to the ground.
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My Epic Lyrics
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I've been weeping.
But it has been ages since I've cried while awake, 'cause centuries wear on
The heart, they erode it away.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth.
But the memory of Your voice leaves me empty, 'cause I've been banished and
Boiled alive and yet I remain and they still call me by name, but they
I watched all my brothers become martyrs and die one at a time, but I often
Wonder if waiting for You is the harder sacrifice.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth, but the memory of Your voice leave me empty.
I may be feeble and barely alive, but I've yet to forget a single word that
You said.
If my voice breaks down and all of my strength gives out and I'm just a
Shell left breathing my last days out.
Let it be known that time is a thief who surely steals everything, but in
My case it just cleared out the waste for me.
Nothing has dimmed; You have simply eclipsed all that stood in the way.
I'd give 20 more lifetimes; it would all be the same.
In the end, I know I'll find You will come once again.
You'll come call me by name.
The lyrics to My Epic's song "Beloved" speak of a person who is constantly dreaming and waking up in the darkness to find that they have been weeping. They reveal that it has been ages since they have cried while awake, as centuries wear on their heart and erode it away. Despite being banished and boiled alive, the person remains, and others still call them by name, although not in the same way. The singer watches their brothers become martyrs and die, but they often wonder if waiting for God is the harder sacrifice.
The person is still trying to record each word God spoke, hoping to fill up the earth with them. However, the memory of God's voice leaves them empty. They may be feeble and barely alive, but they have yet to forget a single word that God said. If their voice breaks down and their strength gives out, they will be just a shell left breathing their last days out. Nevertheless, they know that time is a thief that surely steals everything, but in their case, it cleared out the waste for them. Nothing has dimmed; God has simply eclipsed all that stood in their way. The person is willing to give 20 more lifetimes, but it would all be the same. In the end, they know that God will come once again and call them by name.
Overall, "Beloved" speaks of a person who is dedicated to recording God's words, but who is also struggling with the sacrifices they are making in their faith journey. They are battling with their emotions and feelings of emptiness, even as they hold on to their hope in God's return.
Line by Line Meaning
There are no nights now when I don't dream and wake in the darkness to find
I've been weeping.
Every single night, I dream and wake up crying.
But it has been ages since I've cried while awake, 'cause centuries wear on
The heart, they erode it away.
I haven't cried while conscious for a really long time, but it's not because everything's okay. Time just wears down the heart and emotions.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth.
I'm trying to remember every word You've said, and if I were to write them all down, it would fill the whole earth.
But the memory of Your voice leaves me empty, 'cause I've been banished and
Boiled alive and yet I remain and they still call me by name, but they
Don't say it the same.
Even though I've been through so much, hearing Your voice still leaves me feeling empty. People still call me by my name, but it's not the same as when You call me.
I watched all my brothers become martyrs and die one at a time, but I often
Wonder if waiting for You is the harder sacrifice.
I've seen all my brothers die for their faith, but sometimes I wonder if waiting for You to come back is even harder.
I may be feeble and barely alive, but I've yet to forget a single word that
You said.
Even though I'm weak and barely holding on, I haven't forgotten anything You've said.
If my voice breaks down and all of my strength gives out and I'm just a
Shell left breathing my last days out.
If I become so weak that I can't even talk and I'm on my deathbed, just breathing my last breaths.
Let it be known that time is a thief who surely steals everything, but in
My case it just cleared out the waste for me.
Time takes everything away, but for me, it's just gotten rid of all the insignificant things.
Nothing has dimmed; You have simply eclipsed all that stood in the way.
Nothing has lost its importance or meaning, but You've become even more significant and important than anything else.
I'd give 20 more lifetimes; it would all be the same.
I would give anything for 20 more lifetimes, but it wouldn't matter because all I want is to be with You.
In the end, I know I'll find You will come once again.
You'll come call me by name.
I know that in the end, You will come back for me and call me by my name.
Contributed by Jason W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
andreabanandrea
i want to cry and laugh and sing and rest all at the same time when i listen to this song.
ritlerhaha
I love acoustic songs, it makes me feel like i'm sitting next to a fire nice and warm (:
RichiesBetter
i love this band! thanks for uploading
Eli Marvin
incredible, its like john wrote it. Jesus come back soon!
Jonathan Burke
I'm so privileged to know them, as a pastor, friend, and mentors... Seriously the genuine article... All of them
Evan Buckley
great stuff! great guys, great band.
Ana-Maria Ananas
really awesome song..warms my heart
Drew Dreiling
What must that have been like? You knew the Creator of the Universe personally, in the flesh. You saw the most amazing things. And in the end, probably because they couldn't kill you, they banished you. And you lived out the rest of your days in exile, a relative unknown to the vast majority of the world. But you penned many books (including the last book) in the best selling book of all time. Wow
Joel Morgan
Not sure about where the organ drops out. Otherwise definitely one of the greatest songs that I've ever heard
WazzupProduction
the only word that I have in mind when I heard that: beautiful ...