They have released several of their records via their own imprint, Rovena Recordings and have also been signed to Snapper, Spitfire, Century Media, Undergroove Records, Rovena Recordings and Tiefdruck Musik.
Releases:
Speak & Destroy (1999, UK release; 2000, US release) (Spitfire/Snapper)
A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000) (Spitfire/Snapper)
To Britain With Love... and Bruises (2001; only released in the UK) (Live) (Snapper)
The Shape Of Things To Come (2003) (Century Media)
The Horror Of Beauty (2003) (Century Media)
The Brutal Language (2005) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Throat Full Of Heart (2008) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Alive On The Other Side (2008) (Rovena/Cargo)
Ghosts and Good Stories (2010) (Tiefdruck)
A Southern Revelation (2011)
The Sacred Mood (2013)
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Former Members:
Chris Lisee - Bass (2005-2009)
JD - Drums (2008-2009)
Marcelo Palomino - Drums (2008)
Matt Lechevalier - Drums (2005-2007)
Yael - Drums (2000-2005)
Jason Brunk - Bass (2005)
Jonny Chow - Bass (2004-2005)
Meghan Mattox - Bass (1999-2004)
Melanie Makaiwi - Guitar & Bass (on Speak & Destroy)
They have a dedicated fanbase, most notably in the UK. Their sound consists of passionate and angry vocals set against heavy metal riffs and beats. Vocalist Tairrie B and Mick Murphy began a side project known as The Lvrs. Mick Murphy has another side project known as Neanderthal.
Heartsick
My Ruin Lyrics
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A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast
I can't remember how I got my last scar
The bible tells us Jesus...
Was a rockstar
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish
Of violent anguish...
Early mourning exorcisms keep me awake
Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint
I can't remember why my knees are so sore
The bible tells us mary...
Was a whore
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish
A prayer under pressure
Of violent anguish...
There once was a girl and she suffered from sickness
Mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses
Tried to pretend it was all in her mind
But I know her voice...when I hear mine
God are you listening? I hear you in my room
As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June
There's no sleeping for me, I'm loosing my faith
Love is not safe in a world filled with hate
Heart sick
I'm sick
Still sick
My heart is sick
The lyrics to My Ruin's song Heartsick are raw and emotional, speaking to the inner turmoil and pain of the singer. The first stanza seems to allude to a sense of spiritual confusion or loss, with the reference to late-night catechism and a lethal dose of narcissism. The line "I can't remember how I got my last scar" suggests a sense of disconnectedness and disassociation from one's own pain or traumatic experiences. The reference to Jesus being a rockstar speaks to a sense of rebellion or questioning of traditional religious beliefs.
The second stanza is equally powerful, with references to a prayer under pressure of violent anguish and early morning exorcisms keeping the singer awake. The mention of Mary being a whore, like the reference to Jesus as a rockstar, seems to challenge traditional religious notions and highlight the hypocrisy or sexism inherent in certain religious traditions. The final lines of the stanza speak to the pain and confusion of suffering from an unknown physical ailment or trauma.
The final stanza introduces an unnamed girl who seems to be suffering from a similar affliction or pain, with references to distorted mouth from razor sharp kisses and trying to pretend it was all in her mind. The line "I know her voice...when I hear mine" suggests a sense of empathy or solidarity with this girl. The plea to God in the following lines, "God are you listening? I hear you in my room", highlights the singer's desperation and sense of isolation. The final line "Love is not safe in a world filled with hate" speaks to the overarching theme of pain and heartbreak present throughout the song.
Overall, the lyrics to Heartsick convey a sense of intense emotional pain, confusion, and isolation, as well as a questioning of traditional religious beliefs and societal norms.
Line by Line Meaning
Late night catechism speaks me to sleep
I find comfort in the repetition of prayer before falling asleep
A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast
My ego has overcome and subdued my inner demons
I can't remember how I got my last scar
I have experienced so much pain that I have lost track of the sources of my wounds
The bible tells us Jesus... Was a rockstar
I see the iconic figure of Jesus as a symbol of rockstar-like fame and charisma
A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish
I turn to prayer as a coping mechanism during extreme emotional turmoil
Early mourning exorcisms keep me awake
I perform self-care rituals in the morning to relieve my emotional burden, but the process only serves to heighten my sensitivity
Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint
I feel consumed by my own intensity, like a martyr on fire
I can't remember why my knees are so sore
I have been brought to my knees so often that the exact cause of the pain has become irrelevant
The bible tells us mary... Was a whore
I reject the traditional view of Mary as a chaste figure of purity and instead embrace her as a complex, flawed human being
There once was a girl and she suffered from sickness
I am telling a tragic story of a girl who was plagued by illness
Mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses
Her relationship was marked by violence and harmful words
Tried to pretend it was all in her mind
She attempted to rationalize and minimize the abuse she suffered
But I know her voice...when I hear mine
I identify with her pain and recognize the similarity between her story and my own
God are you listening? I hear you in my room
I am questioning the presence and intentions of a higher power, while also acknowledging a sense of divine presence in my life
As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June
The intensity of my emotional state is compared to the heat of the summer on a particular date
There's no sleeping for me, I'm loosing my faith
I am struggling with a crisis of faith and intense insomnia
Love is not safe in a world filled with hate
I have come to realize that love is vulnerable and precarious in a hostile world
Heart sick
I am emotionally overwhelmed and suffering
I'm sick
I am gravely ill, both physically and emotionally
Still sick
Despite any attempts to heal or recover, I remain deeply affected
My heart is sick
The root of my suffering is my emotional state, particularly the state of my heart
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: MICK MURPHY, TAIRRIE BETH
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