They have released several of their records via their own imprint, Rovena Recordings and have also been signed to Snapper, Spitfire, Century Media, Undergroove Records, Rovena Recordings and Tiefdruck Musik.
Releases:
Speak & Destroy (1999, UK release; 2000, US release) (Spitfire/Snapper)
A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000) (Spitfire/Snapper)
To Britain With Love... and Bruises (2001; only released in the UK) (Live) (Snapper)
The Shape Of Things To Come (2003) (Century Media)
The Horror Of Beauty (2003) (Century Media)
The Brutal Language (2005) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Throat Full Of Heart (2008) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Alive On The Other Side (2008) (Rovena/Cargo)
Ghosts and Good Stories (2010) (Tiefdruck)
A Southern Revelation (2011)
The Sacred Mood (2013)
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Former Members:
Chris Lisee - Bass (2005-2009)
JD - Drums (2008-2009)
Marcelo Palomino - Drums (2008)
Matt Lechevalier - Drums (2005-2007)
Yael - Drums (2000-2005)
Jason Brunk - Bass (2005)
Jonny Chow - Bass (2004-2005)
Meghan Mattox - Bass (1999-2004)
Melanie Makaiwi - Guitar & Bass (on Speak & Destroy)
They have a dedicated fanbase, most notably in the UK. Their sound consists of passionate and angry vocals set against heavy metal riffs and beats. Vocalist Tairrie B and Mick Murphy began a side project known as The Lvrs. Mick Murphy has another side project known as Neanderthal.
Horrible Pain
My Ruin Lyrics
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Dressed in black
He speaks in a language only I can understand
His hands are warm, His breath is hot
He is the horrible pain, within my heart
My religion, My sanctuary, My church, My sacrifice, My Confession
My exorcism, My worship, in progress
I have no other lover... now, until forever
Like an elixir
Far from innocent
He is pure evil
A sinners prayer, a saints desire
For Him, I would walk through fire
For Him... I have walked through fire
To draw Him, I want so bad
One gift, I'll never have
He drives a stake into my soul
Makes me bleed, makes me whole
Drinks me, devours me, intoxicates me
With His love, Hate, Devotion, Faith
As beautiful as Jesus Christ
He is as brutal, as the depths of Hell
In my dreams, I press my mouth against His
And I feel Heaven... Horror... Terror
He looks at me with that look
I call it His serial killer look
Like He wants to fuck me, and kill me all at the same time
It scares me
It turns me on
His eyes are brown
His stare is intense... Meaningful, Powerful
Maybe that's why He's so fuckin' scary
Because He means it
Sometimes He tells me He loves me, as He looks at me
With that look
Sometimes He doesn't have to
I've never felt a man look at me like this
It's almost creepy....
Uncomfortable....
Sexy
I guess I know He could never really chop off my hands
........
Or could He?
The song Horrible Pain by My Ruin offers a chilling insight into a disturbing relationship between the singer and a dark entity. The lyrics describe the singer's encounters with this being, who is referred to as the "horrible pain," a force that resides within the singer's heart and offers both pleasure and terror. The singer describes the being's physical presence, including warm hands and hot breath, and the fact that it speaks in a language only the singer can understand. The relationship between the singer and this entity is paradoxical, with the singer describing it as both worship and exorcism, and saying that they have "no other lover... now, until forever."
The entity is depicted as a figure of pure evil, although the singer also seems to have a certain admiration for it: they describe it as "beautiful as Jesus Christ" but also "as brutal as the depths of Hell." The relationship is presented as one of extremes and contrasts, with the singer both scared and turned on by the entity's serial killer look, and feeling both horror and heaven when they press their mouth against it. There is a sense of danger and risk present throughout the song, with the singer wondering whether the entity is capable of chopping off their hands, and the final lines of the song indicating that this question remains unanswered.
Line by Line Meaning
I invoke Him, and He comes to me, in my dreams
The singer summons a figure through her dreams
Dressed in black
The figure appears as a symbol of darkness
He speaks in a language only I can understand
The singer shares a unique, intimate bond with this figure
His hands are warm, His breath is hot
The artist views the figure as physically comforting
He is the horrible pain, within my heart
The figure represents the artist's pain, suffering, and passion
My religion, My sanctuary, My church, My sacrifice, My Confession
The singer sees the figure as a source of spiritual meaning and guidance in her life, as well as a means of release from guilt and sin
My exorcism, My worship, in progress
The singer utilizes the figure to rid herself of negative emotions and to devote herself fully to him
I have no other lover... now, until forever
The artist declares her ultimate loyalty and devotion to the figure
He is magic, and when He kisses me, I can taste Him on my lips
The artist perceives the figure as bewitching or transcendent, and cherishes the physical sensations that come with his presence
Like an elixir
The figure represents a potent, life-changing substance that the artist desires and craves
Far from innocent
The figure exists outside of traditional moral or societal boundaries
He is pure evil
The artist glorifies and acknowledges the figure's capacity for darkness, violence, and destruction
A sinners prayer, a saints desire
The singer embodies both the corrupt and the noble aspects of humanity in her relationship to the figure
For Him, I would walk through fire
The singer is willing to endure extreme hardships or pain for the figure's sake
For Him... I have walked through fire
The singer has already proven herself by withstanding immense hardships
To draw Him, I want so bad
The artist desires to capture the figure's attention, and is willing to take risks or make sacrifices to do so
One gift, I'll never have
The artist acknowledges that her desire will never be fully fulfilled, and remains in a state of longing and frustration
He drives a stake into my soul
The figure has a profound, transformative impact on the singer's life and identity
Makes me bleed, makes me whole
The singer experiences pain and healing as a result of her connection to the figure
Drinks me, devours me, intoxicates me
The artist perceives herself as consumed or possessed by the figure, and struggles to resist his power
With His love, Hate, Devotion, Faith
The artist attributes complex, contradictory emotions and motivations to the figure
As beautiful as Jesus Christ
The artist raises the figure to the level of a religious or spiritual icon
He is as brutal, as the depths of Hell
The singer highlights the figure's capacity for destruction and torment
In my dreams, I press my mouth against His
The artist desires deep physical intimacy with the figure, even if it only exists in her dreams
And I feel Heaven... Horror... Terror
The singer's emotional experiences are complex and contradictory
He looks at me with that look
The singer notes a particular expression or gaze that the figure gives her
I call it His serial killer look
The singer associates this look with danger or violence
Like He wants to fuck me, and kill me all at the same time
The artist notes a combination of desire and violence in the figure's gaze
It scares me
The artist experiences fear or uncertainty around the figure
It turns me on
The singer finds the figure's gaze or expression arousing or exciting
His eyes are brown
The singer identifies a physical feature of the figure
His stare is intense... Meaningful, Powerful
The artist notes the intensity and significance of the figure's gaze
Maybe that's why He's so fuckin' scary
The artist speculates about the source of her fear
Because He means it
The artist believes that the figure is genuine and sincere in his actions and feelings
Sometimes He tells me He loves me, as He looks at me
The singer experiences declarations of love from the figure
With that look
The artist notes the significance and power of the figure's gaze
Sometimes He doesn't have to
The singer perceives love and emotion from the figure without him having to vocalize it
I've never felt a man look at me like this
The singer notes the uniqueness and intensity of her connection to the figure
It's almost creepy....
Uncomfortable....
Sexy
The singer experiences a complex blend of emotions in response to the figure
I guess I know He could never really chop off my hands
The artist speculates about the limits of the figure's power, and confronts the darker elements of their relationship
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: MELANIE MAKAIWI, TAIRRIE BETH
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