Secrets
N-Dubz Lyrics

Dappy turn my mike up
Beginning of the song, asking for the volume of the microphone to be increased.

Today is the day that I'm gonna tell
The singer is going to reveal a little bit about himself to his audience today.

Just a little 'bout myself
The singer is just going to share a few details about his life.

All of these haters they don't understand me
The singer is frustrated that his critics don't get him and his struggles.

They can't touch the pain I felt
The singer has been through a lot of painful experiences that his haters can't relate to.

I wish I could show them all of my secrets
He wants to share his secrets with his haters, so they might understand him better.

And they might see through me
The singer hopes that by sharing his secrets, his haters will understand him better and see him for who he truly is.

But if I tell my secrets or expose my weakness
Despite his desire to reveal all his secrets, he is fearful that it will make him weak and vulnerable.

I can let 'em tear through me
He knows that his haters will use any weakness that they learn of against him to harm him, hence he is hesitant.

Mummy had problems, daddy couldn't solve them
The singer's mother had some challenging issues that his father could not deal with or fix.

Won't stop they just add to her pain
The singer's mother continued to experience pain, irrespective of the father's attempt to get involved and help.

Daddy it's okay, I still love you
Despite the troubles and pain that his father couldn't help fix, the singer still loves and appreciates him.

Because you show me love in every way
The singer still loves his dad for the love he showed to him in every way possible.

Mummy I'm sorry for not always caring
The singer is apologizing for not always being caring and understanding to his mother due to their life challenges.

I got so lost when you weren't around
The singer becomes confused and disoriented when his mother is not near.

Since I was a young girl I kept us related
The singer has been ensuring that he maintains a good relationship with his mother since he was a young boy despite challenges.

I don't trust so I won't get let down
The singer is wary of trusting people due to the pain it has caused him in the past, so he prefers to stay distant.

So who could be behind my smile
The singer is struggling inside and wants to know who can understand and be supportive of his pain.

I'm crying out and I'm left without a hand
The singer is feeling alone and helpless as he doesn't have anyone to turn to in his agony.

T, no you ain't, you can tell us anything
The singer's friends tell him that he can tell them anything, including his secrets or pains if he needs to.

We'll advise you in every way
The singer's friends promise to offer him advice and support in every way they can.

One more thing, for those who don't know we is family
The singer's friends emphasize that they're family and have known each other for a long time, hence their bond is closer than other people.

We've known each other since we were babies
The singer and his friends have known each other since they were babies, which has strengthened their bond.

I got bills to pay, studez to rent
The singer has bills and rent to pay which keeps him occupied and stressed.

Girl problems plus an album due within nine days
The singer is also dealing with romantic issues that are causing him concern, compounded with the recorded album that is set to be released in nine days.

Stress to the brain, mumsie's going through so much pain
Life's issues are causing the singer to experience intense stress that is affecting his mental wellbeing as his mother is also going through a lot of pain.

Every time I get paid money to Elaine
The singer keeps giving away his money, most likely to help others, without taking care of himself first.

One more and you'll open you eyes to a blacked out range
The singer is warning himself or someone close that, without being wise and proactive, they might fall into deep trouble or poverty quickly.

Gunshots, knife attacks
The singer is surrounded by violence, experienced through gunshots and attacks with knives.

Seems like I'm living in a life of attacks
The singer feels like he is living always under attack, constantly bombarded by negative situations.

Government bills, doggy deals
The singer has obligations to pay government bills and expenses coupled with dodgy deals.

Leads to another life, crime on wheels
All these challenges are further directing the singer's life towards criminal or regrettable actions done in desperation.

I'm so broke that it's no joke
The singer is broke so much that it's no longer funny, but instead, a serious problem.

Surrounded by addicts who be on coke
The singer is surrounded by people addicted to cocaine.

If I really wanted to I make money off them
The singer is intelligent enough and could utilize the situation and profit from those who are addicted.

Block in the morning on the move by ten
The singer is usually out by 10 am, making moves and out in the block digging for people to feed his appetite for hustling.

I write them hits in my head
The singer composes his songs mentally without the need for pen and paper.

Don't need no time for paper and pen
He doesn't use a pen and paper to write because he composes his music in his mind first.

I sell my demos in boxes of ten
The singer sells his recorded music to his customers in boxes of ten.

Won't stop me unless you're a dirty bill
The singer won't stop doing his thing, selling his music, except if it is dirty or not profitable for him.

Fifteen hooded up thirteen years old in Westie
A flashback to the singer's past, when he was just 13 yrs old with his friends, dressed in hoodies in West London.

Were the bester days can you relate
The singer looks back and considers these times as happier moments of his life.

Young black boys from council estates
The singer and his friends grew up in council estates designated for low-income earning people.

Rolling around the ends twenty man strong
The singer and his friends used to roam around on the street together in a group of twenty people.

Pour some Hennessey for every man gone
A toast to each person who is no longer alive and has been lost to their past.

I know I ain't sent no letters but still
Despite not communicating often, the singer still holds his past and friends dear.

Free hash, free deal, I'm not for much longer
The singer is tired of living a dangerous or risky lifestyle, and he knows that he cannot keep it up for much longer.

Ever since I was a young and I found it hard to find my way
The singer has struggled with his purpose and direction ever since he was young.

That's why I don't trust, so I won't get let down
Due to his past experiences, the singer does not trust people so that he does not get hurt.

Oh, I went from not wanting to live life no more
After struggling with early setbacks, he had come to the brink of suicide.

To appreciating every breath I take
Now, he is grateful for every living moment he gets to live.

If it wasn't for the music I probably won't be here
Music has brought meaning and purpose to the singer's life, saving him from tragedies.

That's why I pray to God every day
The singer is acknowledging his dependence on God to guide him and help him pursue his passion.

Dreaming of days when I could just fly away
The singer has moments of wanting to escape from all of his struggles and pain.

I'm trying to stay strong but after today I'm feeling down
The singer is trying to remain positive, but recent events have been weighing him down.

So who could be behind my smile
A continuation from earlier in the song, wondering who can understand his pain.

T, no you ain't, you can tell us anything
Friends offer a reassurance that they will listen to the singer's problems and support him.

We'll advise you in every way
The singer's friends commit to being supportive and offering advice to help him navigate his struggles.

One more thing, for those who don't know we is family
The singer again emphasizes the bond of friendship that exists between him and his friends.

We've known each other since we were babies
Closing lines of the song, emphasizing the deep relationship and bond he and his friends share that has existed from a young age.