Far Away
N-TraxX Lyrics

Man, I can't even picture myself, not breathin, but its certain.
I find it hard to imagine how it would feel to die, but I know it's inevitable.

I love too much I love to many to count em'
I have so many people in my life that I love, too many to count.

So extras and pets is easy to go on without em
It's easier to lose non-human companions (like pets) than the people I truly love.

'cause everything goes away
Nothing lasts forever, everything fades away eventually.

Love eventually gets stowed away
Even love can vanish, and its memory gets buried over time.

Why does it have to be when your breathin when even in then your heated then wonderin why its cold today
Sometimes, even when we are alive and breathing, life feels cold and unfair, and we wonder why.

Immortal is friggin impossible but everytime I look up I'm seein an obstacle
Immortality is impossible, but every time I face a challenge (an obstacle), it reminds me of my mortality.

What's gonna happen when time is up an I gots to go
What will happen when my time is up, and I have to die?

Beautiful lanes took a whiff of my obstacle
Even the good things in life can be hindered by obstacles.

Its not that I'm afraid of death but afraid of the thought of my people laid to rest
I'm not scared of dying, but I am scared of losing the people I love and seeing them buried.

They saying there is 6 million ways of death but not even one way to fade the stress
There are many ways to die, but none of them ease the stress that comes from knowing death is inevitable.

Its certain that a person someone workin to close the curtain
Death is certain, and there will be someone (like a doctor, perhaps) who will help bring it about.

Or maybe something out of some dream with a devilish show for hurtin
Death might feel like a nightmare or a devilish thing that hurts us.

Sometime I be wishin I didn't love
Sometimes I wish I didn't love anyone, so I wouldn't have to feel the pain of losing them.

'cause when its away I be missin love
But when love is no longer there, I miss it terribly.

Your mother your father your children are livin to die from the crypt and the ditches dug
Everyone, including our loved ones, is living their lives headed towards death, symbolized by the crypts and ditches dug for burials.

From the process I get nausous 'cause I can't see my death and its causes
The idea of not knowing when or how I'm going to die makes me nauseous.

Pawkey saw it around the corner but me not breathin is a pound of blogna
Someone named Pawkey may have seen death coming for me, but the idea of me not breathing (i.e. dying) seems unreal to me.

I keep fightin and I'm tryin to get right in my mind brian
Despite my fears, I keep fighting to stay strong and level-headed.

'cause one day I'm gonna see you even tho I can't picture the N9ne dyin
One day, I will be able to see my loved ones again, even though it's tough to imagine my own death.

I'm flyin
I'm soaring, or maybe running away from these thoughts of death and dying.

see I tried to call for you father, but nobody answered
I tried to reach out to my father, but he didn't respond.

And I tried to scream out loud, but nobody pampered
I tried to get someone's attention, but nobody seems to care or help me.

But you leaving tomorrow and I'm just a youngsta deep in the sorrow
I know you're going to leave someday, and it hurts me deeply because I'm still young.

Nobody wants to die
Nobody wants to die, but it's an inevitability we all face.

And I'm trying to get away from the pain I'm never escapin the
I'm trying to avoid the pain of loss, but I know I can never fully escape it.

Maybe I did to much to you you you by forsakin ya
Maybe I hurt you too much (by neglecting you, perhaps) that you felt forsaken by me.

and now I see a reflection of you of my sun
Now I see a reflection of my father in my son.

'cause he the same complexion you the color of the sun
My son has the same skin tone as my father, who reminds me of the warmth and light of the sun.

And now I'm done baby makin hatin it to even see my baby sleep
Now that I have a child of my own, I hate thinking about death because it makes me fear for my child's future.

'cause he gotta die one day your very dead indeed
It's a sad fact of life that my child, like everyone else, will one day die.

And I'm stay too far away from him
I feel distant from my child because I'm scared of getting close to someone who I know I'll eventually lose.

Spent too many days from him
I've spent too much time away from him, partly because of my fear of death.

Tears steadily fallin I'm creatin em'
I can't help but cry when thinking about the mortality of my loved ones and myself.

And its gettin colder your gettin older year by year
As time passes, my loved ones (including my child) are growing older, and the reality of death is getting closer.

Never know when you gotta go far away from here
We never know when we'll have to leave this life and move on to wherever comes next.

guitar solo
Musical interlude

far far away from here
The idea of being far away from life and loved ones.

Everything I love go away from here
Everything I love could be taken away from me in death.

Wishin I could do without it
I wish I could imagine life without the pain of loss and death.

I think you gonna go
I think you're going to die someday, and the thought scares me.