Cry
N.D.T.M. Lyrics

I been sitting in the deep-end
I've been feeling lost and overwhelmed

I been searching all my feelings
I'm trying to figure out my emotions

Cause I seen some shit that cut me way back when but it feels much deeper now
I've experienced trauma that still affects me deeply

I pledge allegiance to fight all of my demons
I'm committed to overcoming my inner struggles

Because they drag me to the ground without reason and its treason
My demons bring me down for no good reason and it feels like a betrayal

It's like I ain't been the same since I left the warmth of my family
Leaving my family has had a lasting impact on me

Independence has damaged me
Being on my own has been difficult for me

Made me question my sanity
It's causing me to doubt my own mental wellbeing

Feel every depth of my gravity
I'm feeling the full weight and impact of my problems

Every breath that's attracting me
I'm feeling drawn to certain things to help me cope

Can't let the devil catch up with me
I can't allow myself to fall into negative patterns or thoughts

He's a pagan that's clashing me
My negative thoughts and feelings are conflicting with my desire to be better

So I look in the reflection
I'm trying to find answers within myself

I'm tryna see the message for myself
I'm trying to understand the advice and guidance that is meant for me

Cause everywhere that I look all the spaces are full and I just want my shelf
Everywhere I turn, there's already someone in place or succeeding and I just want my chance to shine

I shed some tears and now it's clear that I just need some help
I've come to realize that I can't do this alone and I need support

But for now I share my thoughts my fears and I just hope you care
In the meantime, I'm opening up to others and hoping they will listen and provide support

And if you drive for me then I'll be okay
If you support me and help me through this, I'll be alright

You make a vibe for me then I'll be okay
If you provide a positive atmosphere and energy, it will help me feel better

If you take time for me then I'll be okay
If you give me your time and attention, it will make a difference

But would you cry if I die today and fly away
I'm wondering if others care about me enough to be upset if I were to pass away

So I'm feeling reflective
I'm thinking deeply about my life and experiences

Tryna clear up all the tension
I'm trying to resolve any internal conflicts or issues

Cause every time in my life that I felt compromised is when I didn't have an answer for a Question
Times when I didn't know what to do or how to handle a situation have caused me the most stress and discomfort

So I flip the tables
I'm taking control of my life and changing things around

Perpetuate greatness
I'm striving to maintain a positive, successful attitude and lifestyle

Excuse my lateness but I'ma grind until I see my payments
I may be behind or late to the game, but I'm going to work hard until I get the results I want

You always played your part though
You've always been there for me and supported me

It was always you from the start though
You've been there for me from the very beginning

Always kept me safe out the gutter
You've helped me avoid negative situations and kept me on the right path

Brought me right back from the rubble
You've helped me recover from difficult or challenging situations

Now I always stay fly
I'm always looking and feeling my best

Cause I'm rolling with the Wright brothers
I'm surrounding myself with successful people and staying on the right track

And I always stay high
I maintain a positive attitude and outlook

Cause I'm cruising with the Skywalkers
I'm associated with great, successful people

And I hope I don't fall
I'm hoping to stay on the right path and avoid negative outcomes

Less I'm falling for you and in that case I would jump off
Unless I'm falling in love with you, and in that case, I would take a chance and follow my heart

I know that God here is my saviour
I believe that God is watching over me and is helping me through my struggles

And he sent you here to save me
I believe that you were sent into my life to help me and make a difference

I been cooped up in a cage
I've been feeling trapped and restricted

It's time for me to break free
I'm ready to move past my limitations and live fully

The way you love me and don't discriminate
I appreciate and value the love and support you give me without judgement

Are qualities I wanna demonstrate
I hope to show those same qualities to others in my life

And I figured out the message
I've finally understood the guidance and advice meant for me

Let your soul shine through
Be true to yourself and let your authentic self shine

And be you-tiful
Embrace your uniqueness and individuality

Without feeling any effort
Don't force yourself to be someone you're not, just let it flow naturally

I ain't smiled in a while
I haven't been truly happy or content in some time

But it's easy when you're around
You make me feel happy and content just by being there

I ain't kinged for a while
I haven't felt successful or confident in some time

So it's time I take my crown
It's time for me to step up and take charge of my life and success

And if you drive for me then I'll be okay
I trust in your support and guidance to help me through

You make a vibe for me then I'll be okay
Your positive energy and atmosphere helps me feel better

Take time for me then I'll be okay
I need your time and attention to help me get through this

But would you cry if I die today and fly away
Do you care enough about me to be upset if I were to pass away?

If you drive for me then I'll be okay
I trust in your support and guidance to help me through

You make a vibe for me then I'll be okay
Your positive energy and atmosphere helps me feel better

Take time for me then I'll be okay
I need your time and attention to help me get through this

But would you cry if I die today and fly away
Do you care enough about me to be upset if I were to pass away?