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NF is the stage name of rapper and composer Nate Feuerstein from Gladwin, M… Read Full Bio ↴NF is the stage name of rapper and composer Nate Feuerstein from Gladwin, Michigan. Feuerstein endured a hardship-filled childhood in which his parents divorced, his mother's boyfriend physically abused him, and his mother eventually killed herself. Music was his escape, and he began recording songs on a karaoke machine, with instrumentals on one microphone and his raps in the other. Placing second in a nationwide Fine Arts Festival rap competition in 2008, and first in Michigan the following year, he independently released a debut album, Moments, in 2010. The album attracted the attention of Xist Music, which signed him to a recording deal in 2012, by which time Feuerstein had taken on the stage name NF. The label announced the release of an EP that same year, but it never appeared, and NF and Xist parted ways. NF spent the next two years looking for a label and working with local producer Tommee Profitt in his studio; they came up with the song "Wake Up," which convinced Capitol Christian Music Group to sign him. CMG released a six-song (including a Manny Marroquin remix of "Wake Up") self-titled EP late in the summer of 2014. His debut album, Mansion, was released in early 2015 and reached number 62 on the Billboard 200 while topping the Christian Albums chart. The aptly titled Therapy Session followed in 2016 and also topped the Christian Albums chart with its raw emotions and honest lyrics. The following Summer saw the release of the singles "Outro" and "Green Lights", in anticipation of the arrival of his third studio long player, Perception, which dropped later that October. NF achieved mainstream popularity in 2017 with Perception; the album charted at number one in the United States and was certified platinum, while its third single, "Let You Down", reached number twelve on the U.S. Billboard Hot 100, and was a top-ten hit internationally. He achieved similar commercial success with his follow-up The Search (2019). Feuerstein's most recent album, Hope, released on April 7, 2023, had commercial success and peaked at number 2 on the US Billboard 200.

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NF Lyrics


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My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life was the worst
The most depressed I've ever been
Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead
I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now
Like I may never have a song this big again
My tour, I think every date sold out except one date
So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening (yeah)
And I felt, I didn't feel happy at all
And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad

'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me
'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work"

Overall Meaning

In this song titled "Interlude," rapper NF reflects on his journey to success and the emotional toll it took on him. He admits that his "most considered, like, 'successful' moment" was the worst time in his life, as he was suffering from severe depression and felt like he would be happier if he were dead. Despite achieving a number one hit on Billboard and selling out his tour, NF found himself feeling empty and unfulfilled. He describes spiraling out of control and feeling like there had to be more to life than just achieving success.


This song is a raw and honest reflection on the dark side of success, as NF grapples with the reality that achieving his dreams did not make him happy. He acknowledges that success is not a cure for depression or an antidote to feelings of emptiness, which is a powerful message in our culture that often equates material success with happiness and fulfillment.


Line by Line Meaning

My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life was the worst
The time of my life which I believed to be the epitome of success turned out to be the worst time of my life.


The most depressed I've ever been
I was in a state of overwhelming sadness, one that I have never experienced before.


Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead
I felt so low that I believed that ending my life might lead to greater happiness.


I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now
Despite my emotional turmoil, my song gained immense popularity and achieved a number one position on Billboard.


Like I may never have a song this big again
It seemed unlikely that I would ever experience such a level of success again.


My tour, I think every date sold out except one date
I had a successful tour, with almost all the dates being sold out.


So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening (yeah)
I had achieved everything I had ever dreamt of and worked hard for, and yet I was not happy.


And I felt, I didn't feel happy at all
Despite my successes, I was unable to derive any happiness from them.


And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad
My inability to find happiness in my achievements led to a downward spiral in my emotional state.


'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me
I was dissatisfied with where I was and believed that there had to be more to life than just success and achievements.


'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work"
If this is all there is to life, then it's not worth it.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: Nate Feurerstein, Thomas James Profitt

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@voiletgaming2473

Lyrics
Hey, Nate, how's life?"
I don't know, it's alright
I've been dealin' with some things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)
"I'm sorry", that's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah
Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud
Had to see a therapist, then I found out
Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house
Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out
You know, pack my cart, take a new route
Clean up my yard, get the noose out
Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)
I've been searchin'
"What does that mean, Nate?"
I've been learning
Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens
Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect
Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me
Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)
It's worth it, though
Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats
Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam
Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code
Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone
Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)
Been makin' a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that, you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah
That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying, and
Where'd the beat go?
Oh, ain't that somethin'?
Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'
Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face, clean up my vomit
OCD, tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it, now y'all done it
I can be critical, never typical
Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal
Intimate, but never political, pretty visual
Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though
You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful
Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)
Yeah, the sales can rise
Doesn't mean much though when your health declines
See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies
Try to hold it underwater but it always survives
Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am
The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?
Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)
I am developin', take a look at the benefits
Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence
Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)
It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big
On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me, "Tone that down, " but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist
The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh



@scythxr25

0% Naked girls
0% Swearing
0% flexing
20% balloons
10% ppl in a white outfits
5% Porch swing
65% cart
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BARS AND FLOW LIKE GODDAMN



@troubledpineapple5839

Hey Nate, how's life?
I don't know, it's alright
I been dealing with some things like every human being and really didn't sleep much last night
I'm sorry
That's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides
Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts telling me I'm lost getting too loud
Had to see a therapist and I found out
Something funny's going on up in my house
Yeah I started thinking maybe I should move out
You know, pack my cart take a new route
Clean up my yard get the noose out
Hang out my heart let it air out
I been searching
What does that mean, Nate?
I've been learning
Grabbing my keepsakes
Leaving my burdens
Well I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect
Looking at the view like "this concerns me"
Picking up the cues right, I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's probably gonna be a long journey but HEY!
It's worth it though
Cold world out there kids, grab your coats
Been a minute I know
Now I'm back to roam
Looking for the antidote
To crack the code
Pretty vivid I admit it
I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me but I can't condone
Talking down to me
Ima have to crack your nose
For crackin jokes
I'm looking for the map to hope
You see me?
Been making a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces
Yeah, that's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thought can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup
And drown in self hatred
Forget what I'm saying and -
Where'd the beat go?
Oh! Ain't that something
Drums came in
You don't see that coming
Hands on my head can't tell me nothing
Got a taste of the fame had to pump my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face clean of my vomit
OCD tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it
Now y'all done it
I can be critical never typical
Intricate with every syllable I'm a criminal
Intimate but never political
Pretty visual
Even if you hate it I make you feel like you're in it though
You call me what you wanna but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddy pool
Way that I been thinking is cinematic it's beautiful
Man I don't know if I'm making movies or music videos
The sales can rise
Doesn't much though when your health declines
See we've all got something that we've trapped inside
That we try to suffocate
You know, hoping it dies
Trying to hold it under water but it always survives
Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that, you must not be as crazy as I am
The point I'm making is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? Yeah but it's not always safe
Just hang with my this will only take a moment okay?
Just think about it for a second if you look at your face
Everyday when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great
Not because you're not but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith
I been developing
Take a look at the benefits
Nothing to meddle with
I could never be delicate
Am I even relevant?
That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement
Then bag it up and give me the evidence
Pretty evident
Dependable
Can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman
Depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant
But not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette
I keep it to myself when I celebrate
It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seatbelts back on, yeah strap em in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smiling big
On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me tone that down, but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist
The search begins
I'm back so enjoy the trip



@george4483

Lyrics
[Verse]
"Hey, Nate, how's life?"
I don’t know, it's alright
I've been dealin’ with some things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night (Last night)
"I'm sorry," that's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides, yeah (Bus rides)
Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud
Had to see a therapist, then I found out
Somethin' funny’s goin’ on up in my house
Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out
You know, pack my cart, take a new route
Clean up my yard, get the noose out
Hang up my heart, let it air out (Air out)
I’ve been searchin'
"What does that mean, Nate?" I've been learning
Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin’ my burdens
Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect
Lookin' at the view, like this concerns me
Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (But hey)
It's worth it, though
Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats
It's been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam
Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code
Pretty vivid; I admit it, I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone
Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)
Been makin' a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that, you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah
That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm sayin', and—
Where'd the beat go?
Oh, ain't that somethin'?
Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'
Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face, clean off my vomit
OCD, tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it, now y'all done it
I can be critical, never typical
Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal
Intimate, but never political, pretty visual
Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though
You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful
Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (Videos, videos, videos)
Yeah, the sales can rise
Doesn't mean much though when your health declines
See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies
Try to hold it underwater but it always survives
Then it comes up outta nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am
The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?
Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great—not because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith, woo
I've been developin', take a look at the benefits
Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence
Pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (Ah)
It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big
On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me "Tone that down," but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist
The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh



@lilodeth6993

ill pop a fucking ballon like a cheap as clown
he's starting to piss me off
his fast rapping is getting on my nerves
so much missing in his rhymes
but eh i only worked on myself
unless it was school tricking my existance
they almost got me drained without a life
no family of mine now im pumping my fist
in attempt to get back in



@aaronobrien2856

[Verse]
"Hey, Nate, how's life?"
I don’t know, it's alright
I've been dealin’ with some things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night
"I'm sorry," that's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides, yeah
Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud
Had to see a therapist, then I found out
Somethin' funny’s goin’ on up in my house
Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out
You know, pack my cart, take a new route
Clean up my yard, get the noose out
Hang up my heart, let it air out
I’ve been searchin'
"What does that mean, Nate?" I've been learning
Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin’ my burdens
Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect
Lookin' at the view, like this concerns me
Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey
It's worth it, though
Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats
It's been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam
Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code
Pretty vivid; I admit it, I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone
Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it?
Been makin' a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that, you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah
That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying, and—
Where'd the beat go?
Oh, ain't that somethin'?
Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'
Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face, clean off my vomit
OCD, tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it, now y'all done it
I can be critical, never typical
Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal
Intimate, but never political, pretty visual
Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though
You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful
Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (Videos, videos)
Yeah, the sales can rise
Doesn't mean much though when your health declines
See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies
Try to hold it underwater but it always survives
Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am
The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?
Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great—not because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (Woo)
I've been developin', take a look at the benefits
Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence
Pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah
It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big
On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me "Tone that down," but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist
The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh



@Cloverzein

"The Search" lyrics
NF Lyrics
Track "NF"
on Bandsintown
"The Search"

Hey Nate, how's life?
I don't know, it's alright
I've been dealin' with some things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night (Last night)

I'm sorry, that's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides, yeah (Bus rides)

Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost, gettin' too loud
Had to see a therapist and I found out
Somethin' funny's going on up in my house

Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out
You know, pack my cart, take a new route
Clean up my yard, get the noose out
Hang up my heart, let it air out (Air out)

I've been searchin'
What does that mean, Nate?
I've been learning
Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens
Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

Lookin' at the view like this concerns me
Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's probably gonna be a long journey, but hey! (But hey!)

It's worth it though
Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats
Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam
Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

Pretty vivid; I admit it, I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me but I can't condone
Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

Been makin' a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that, you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my make-up and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying, and
Where'd the beat go?

Oh, ain't that somethin'?
Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'
Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face, clean up my vomit
OCD, tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

I can be critical, never typical
Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal
Intimate, but never political, pretty visual
Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it though

You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinkin' this cinematic is beautiful
Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos)

Yeah, the sales can rise
Doesn't mean much though when your health declines
See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

Try to hold it underwater but it always survives
Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, OK?

Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great—not because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (Woo!)

I am developin', take a look at the benefits
Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant but not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah!

It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me "Tone that down", but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fists
The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh (Huh,



All comments from YouTube:

@GLeee14

Logic: I'm the only who has enough courage to rap about mental illness
Nathan: hold my bible

@poisonedread

He's too busy about telling everybody he's biracial

@Hannahrb03

Po1SoNouS truth!

@andywright5131

Hahaha

@evieg4457

lol

@talhahamdi9681

Nailed it.

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@KuiperMist

Everyone talks about him not cussing but I appreciate how he doesn't flex in front of us. Even his song Mansion doesn't talk about him being rich, it's about him being alone...

@adigamingyt8389

underrated

@flameify8285

Fr

@Murp_

Yes I agree. And when he does praise himself he doesn’t overdo it like most rappers do.

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