Chasing_
NF Lyrics

I just wanna run away
I feel overwhelmed and trapped, and my mind is telling me that escape is the only solution.

Find somewhere that feels safe
I need a space that is free of judgment, criticism, and danger.

Find somewhere the bad days
I want to avoid dealing with difficult emotions that come with unstable mental health.

Don't come as often in this sad phase
I want to be in a state of calm and peace, where my sadness doesn't consume me.

Somewhere I can be loved
I need unconditional love, support, and acceptance from myself and others.

Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
I want to be able to acknowledge, accept, and work on my flaws without feeling ashamed or guilty.

And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
I want to freely express and process my thoughts without fear of judgment or repercussions.

This high, this high that I've been chasing
I have been seeking a feeling of excitement, euphoria, or escape through various means.

Doesn't have an exit
I feel trapped in this cycle and can't seem to find a way out.

I don't learn my lesson
Despite the negative consequences, I continue to repeat the same behaviors.

I don't see no endin' in sight
I feel hopeless and unsure if I will ever break free from this struggle.

I don't feel the best when I try
Even when I put in effort, I still feel unsatisfied and unfulfilled.

Holdin' my head up high but it's not workin'
I am trying to be strong and optimistic, but my problems continue to weigh me down.

Makin' you cry makes me feel like a bad person (bad person)
The pain I cause others due to my struggles adds guilt and shame on top of my existing burden.

And something's got a hold on me
There is an emotional or mental force that is keeping me stuck and unable to move forward.

They don't see the world I see
Others may not understand the depth of my struggles and how they impact my thoughts and actions.

Heartbeat in my chest feels weak
My mental and emotional turmoil is taking a physical toll on my body.

It's really startin' to weigh on me, yeah
The weight of my struggles is becoming too much for me to bear.

Always likes the sad trip
I have a tendency to be drawn to negative and self-destructive behaviors, even when they don't serve me well.

And ruin all my friendships
My struggles have strained my relationships with others and caused me to push people away.

Way too many questions in my mind
I am overwhelmed by my racing thoughts and the constant uncertainty and doubt they bring.

I don't have the answers but I try
Despite feeling lost and confused, I am actively seeking guidance and solutions for my struggles.

I said some awful things last week
I may have hurt others with my words and actions due to my struggles.

Messin' with my self-esteem
My negative experiences and behaviors are contributing to low self-esteem and self-worth.

Mixed up my priorities
My struggles have caused me to lose sight of what is truly important and valuable in my life.