HAPPY
NF Lyrics

Dear God, please
Addressing a higher power for help and guidance.

Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years
Acknowledging the time that has passed since reaching out for help.

Since I've reached
Admitting the lack of effort to seek help.

Out and said hello, I bet you're wondering
Feeling like a stranger to the power being addressed.

Why I keep
Questioning one's own actions and behavior.

Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
Focusing on trivial matters instead of enjoying life.

When I should be
Realizing the proper course of action.

Living life and soaking up the memories
Enjoying life and making lasting memories.

I know I've been
Taking responsibility for past behavior.

Selfish, I have
Acknowledging a negative trait.

No excuse to give you it's true
Admitting fault without attempting to justify it.

Hanging by a
Acknowledging a precarious mental state.

Thread's how I live
Feeling like one is constantly on the edge of a mental breakdown.

I don't know why but
Feeling confused and uncertain about one's mental state.

I feel more comfortable
Feeling at ease in a state of mental turmoil.

Livin' in my agony
Preferring to remain in a state of mental pain.

Watching my self-esteem
Observing a negative impact on one's self-worth.

Go up in flames acting
Feeling like one's self-worth is being destroyed.

Like I don't
Giving the impression of not caring.

Care what anyone else thinks
Disregarding the opinions of others.

When I know truthfully
Realizing the truth about one's self and actions.

That that's the furthest thing
Recognizing the contrast between outward appearance and inner truth.

From how I
Acknowledging the discrepancy.

Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
Feeling hesitant to seek help due to pride.

To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
Wanting help to escape a negative mental state.

The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine
Admitting the need for help but not being able to see a way out.

Who I'd be if I was happy
Feeling uncertain about how happiness would change one's identity.

Yeah, been this way so long, it feels like something's off
Noticing the persistence of a negative mental state and the feeling that something is wrong.

When I'm not depressed
Realizing the absence of depression as a foreign feeling.

I got some issues that I won't address
Ignoring personal problems.

I got some baggage I ain't opened yet
Carrying unresolved past experiences and emotions.

I got some demons I should put to rest
Battling inner struggles and negative thoughts.

I got some traumas that I can't forget
Being unable to shake off past traumatic experiences.

I got some phone calls I been avoidin'
Avoiding communication with others.

Some family members I don't really connect with
Feeling disconnected from family members.

Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip
Regretting past actions and words.

Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips
Feeling guilt over past words that caused pain to others.

Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Being unwilling to repair damaged relationships.

Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
Neglecting to address personal insecurities.

I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
Recognizing loneliness as a pervasive feeling.

And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Feeling apprehensive about seeking help and support.

Losing hope
Feeling hopeless and defeated.

Headed down a dangerous road
Recognizing the negative trajectory of one's mental state.

Strange, I know
Acknowledging the unusual nature of one's feelings and situation.

But I feel most at home when I'm
Feeling most comfortable in a state of pain and struggle.

Don't know what's around the bend
Feeling uncertain about the future.

Don't know what my future is
Being unsure about what lies ahead.

But I can't keep on livin' in
Acknowledging the need for change and improvement.

If I was happy
Reflecting on the potential impact of happiness on one's life.