Mansion
NF Lyrics


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Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place
There's songs in the mirrors, written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact, I think I'ma burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion

Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint
Cover 'em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change, are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller, it seems
The moment I walk into it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing, like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going, they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?

Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion

So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this door's not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside so stop watching
I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position, it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore

Lonely (lonely) it's lonely




Oh yeah, it's lonely
Inside this mansion

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of NF's song Mansion are about the artist's inner struggles and the emotional pain he has experienced throughout his life. The first verse speaks about the confusion and uncertainty that he feels, questioning what is real and what is not. The blank expression of the walls refers to his inability to express his thoughts and feelings. He describes his mind as a home, a mansion, in which he is trapped, alone and struggling to find himself.


The second verse delves deeper into NF's mental state, with him describing how his mind is filled with painful memories and regretful moments. The room where he sleeps is where he feels the most vulnerable, and the lyrics refer to his mother's death, trust issues, and struggles with identity. He regrets not picking up the phone and calling his mother, and feeling like he is losing himself. He admits he is emotionally scared to allow anyone inside his mind, partially barricading himself off to everyone, including God.


The song reveals the struggles with anxiety, depression, and mental health issues that NF has faced throughout his life. The song title, Mansion, is a metaphor for the mental state that he is in, where the rooms of the house represent the different parts of his mind, some of which he tries to lock away. The chorus repeats the line “it's lonely inside this mansion,” reflective of the isolation and loneliness that NF feels in his mind.


Line by Line Meaning

Insidious is blind inception
The deceptive nature of my thoughts and emotions is like a hidden trap


What's reality with all these questions?
I struggle to differentiate between what is real and what is in my mind


Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
It's as if I've lost track of time and missed out on important moments in life


Broken legs but I chase perfection
Although I am emotionally wounded, I constantly strive for flawlessness


These walls are my blank expression
The walls of my mind reflect a lack of emotion or understanding


My mind is a home I'm trapped in
I am confined within the confines of my own thoughts and mental state


And it's lonely inside this mansion
The isolation I feel within my mind is overwhelming and isolating


Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place
My mind is like a house filled with my thoughts and emotions, scattered and chaotic


There's songs in the mirrors, written all over the floors, all over the chairs
Every reflection, every surface, is a reminder of the emotions and experiences expressed in my music


And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
When I delve into the depths of my emotions, I reveal the raw and uncensored reality of my life


That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
I turn to writing as an outlet when I am struggling emotionally and need to let go


And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
Through my music, I reveal a side of myself that others may find uncomfortable or unsettling


I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
In moments of anger and frustration, I physically vent my emotions, often causing harm to myself


You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Observing the damage I inflict upon myself may provide insight into how I manage my internal anger


Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
I experienced physical abuse, and that specific room holds painful memories I wish to avoid


That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
The memory is vivid and clear, but I intentionally choose to avoid confronting it


And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
The walls hold my emotional scars, but I convince myself they are empty and void of significance


But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
Since I am trapped within my own mind, it would be beneficial to confront and understand my emotional wounds


I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
I begrudgingly acknowledge that the source of my anger is partly attributed to my past experiences


Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
I fantasize about destroying the room holding my painful memories and starting fresh


Matter of fact, I think I'ma burn this room right now
I am contemplating taking drastic measures to rid myself of the emotional burden


So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
The memory persists stubbornly, refusing to fade away despite my attempts to erase it


You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
You subjected me to isolation and mistreatment, relishing in the power it gave you to witness my fear


Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
You further inflicted pain upon me by physically abusing me, causing me to express my agony through screams and tears


Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
Despite my attempts to move past the trauma, the memories will forever occupy a space in my thoughts


But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
I will seal away these painful memories and emotions, refusing to let them consume me entirely


So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I have kept a specific part of my mind isolated for a long time, allowing no one to access or understand it


I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
I constructed a secure space within my mind, forbidding anyone from entering and potentially causing harm


'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back
If I allow others to see the depths of my emotions, I fear they may abandon me and never return


And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
I am deeply afraid of allowing others to witness my vulnerabilities and emotional struggles


So I just leave my doors locked
I ensure that my mind remains closed off, preventing others from accessing the turmoil within


You might get other doors to open up but this door's not
While I may reveal certain aspects of myself, the depths of my emotions remain inaccessible


'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
I guard myself against potential pain by refusing to let others see the true extent of my emotional struggles


And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
If I push others away and they ultimately leave, I will bear the responsibility for my own isolation


I'm barricaded inside so stop watching
I have created barriers around my emotions, preventing others from observing my struggles


I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking
I refuse to engage with others and reject any attempts at connection


I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
Despite feeling trapped, I am reminded that I have the power to free myself from my own emotional confinement


I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
I made the decision to isolate myself within my own mind, resulting in a state of confusion and introspection


I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
While closing myself off may offer temporary relief, it does not address the underlying issues at hand


But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I created this mental fortress as a means of protection, not as a solution to my emotional struggles


I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
I believed that by isolating myself, I would shield myself from further pain and disappointment


But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Despite my attempts to separate myself from the world, my emotions and fears still reside within me


Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
I allowed fear to enter my life long ago, allowing it to take root within me


Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
Perhaps the presence of fear is the root cause of my ongoing emotional struggles


I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
I held onto the hope that fear would eventually dissipate, but it has remained a constant presence


He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Fear has claimed a specific part of my mind as its domain, making itself comfortable within me


Now I'm in the position, it's either sit here and let him win
I find myself faced with a choice: either succumb to fear's grasp or find a way to overcome it


Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
While I may strive to remove fear from my life, it seems impossible to completely rid myself of its influence


'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
To release fear, I would need to expose myself and confront my deepest vulnerabilities


Is that me or the fear talking?
I question whether my hesitation to confront fear stems from my own doubts or fear's influence over me


I don't know anymore
I am uncertain and confused about my own motivations and actions


Lonely (lonely) it's lonely
The isolation and loneliness within my mind is overwhelming


Oh yeah, it's lonely
Indeed, the loneliness I experience is a significant aspect of my existence


Inside this mansion
These feelings of loneliness and isolation are contained within the confines of my mind


Inside this mansion
The walls of my mind serve as a constant reminder of the emotional struggles I face




Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Capitol CMG Publishing, Peermusic Publishing
Written by: David Garcia, Lauren Strahm, Nate Feuerstein

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@Anhdodes

"Mansion"
(feat. Fleurie)

[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion

[Verse 1 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

[Verse 2 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?

[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

[Verse 3 - NF:]
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore

It's lonely
Oh yeah it's lonely

[Fleurie:]
Inside this mansion



@st3ve_y

You know what to do
1- Mansion
2- Why
3- Lie
4- Outcast
5- Therapy Session
6- Like this
7- If You Want Love
8- Wake up
9- Options
10- When I Grow Up
11- Leave me alone
12- Only
13- Change
14- Paid My Dues
15- Hate Myself
16- Dreams
17- I Miss The Days
18- Lost In The Moment
19- Let Me Down
20- My Stress
21- The Search
22- How Could You Leave Us



@x941bri_

"So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside"

I wish this weren't me.



@v_bubz9632

[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion

[Verse 1 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

[Verse 2 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?

[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

[Verse 3 - NF:]
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore



All comments from YouTube:

@nui7685

This boy knows how to talk about everyone's issues i swear

@rachelrich4772

MyDay 6 without swearing.... that's the tough part

@snowyprince3103

It's called testifying,

@ripxxxtentacion29

r/woosh

@BaconFaceMcGee

MyDay 6 Why do you swear?

@moarroz

@@rachelrich4772 took me like 5 songs to realize he wasn't. With his emotion that's a lot of scratching words off of the paper lol.
Ppl r sleepin on your comment. I liked it

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@the234lis

" Broken legs but i chase perfection " hit me so hard

@benharp9042

So true

@loganghafouri9799

It is true.

@itzzshade

So true!!!!!!

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