Nate
NF Lyrics

Yeah, sometimes I wanna disappear like I just don't exist
I feel like disappearing because I am struggling with life.

I'll find a time machine and take me back when I was six
If I could, I would go back in time when I was young and happy.

Maybe younger, either way, I guess the point of it Would be to tell that little kid that he's gon' take a lot of hits
Regardless of the age, I wish I could tell my younger self that life will be tough.

Yeah, I'd probably grab your hand and tell you life is hard If you got questions or you need advice, then talk to God
If I could talk to my younger self, I would advise them to rely on God during tough times.

'Cause He's the only one that listens even when you think He isn't Even good people are great at making bad decisions (yeah)
God always listens, even when it seems like nobody cares. People make mistakes, even the good ones.

They ain't gon' take it serious You find out pretty quick that life is more than just appearances
People may not take you seriously, but it's important to realize that life is more than just what appears on the surface.

I know some things we could avoid to save embarrassment But everything that breaks you down can also build your character
We could avoid some embarrassing situations, but the challenges we face in life can also make us stronger and build character.

'Cause people love to see you fail, just be aware of it Don't let nobody tell you who to be or write your narrative
People enjoy seeing others fail, so it's essential to take control of one's narrative and not let others define us.

Look, we're all products of the things that we experience But there's a big difference between confidence and arrogance
Our life experiences shape who we are, but it's important to distinguish between being confident and being arrogant.

I know that you won't get it now, but you gon' get it later I know that you feel alone and no one loves you maybe And you gon' cover insecurities with lots of anger
I know my younger self won't understand this now, but they will later. They may feel alone and unloved, leading to covered insecurities with anger.

The weird thing is someday all of this will make you famous You start to write about your life and while they're all relatin' You'll make up a slogan, call it "Real," but feel like you're the fakest
Someday, the struggles I face will make me famous. I will write about my life, and people will relate to it. I will even make a slogan to represent my realness, but I'll still feel fake.

Wish I could tell you that you're future's nothing but amazin' That's just not the case, and I guess I just don't know how to say this
I wish I could tell my younger self that the future will be great, but it's not always the case, and it's hard to explain.

I don't know if you can hear me or not But if you can, I just want you to know You gon' make a lot of mistakes And they gon' laugh in our face That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes (That's just the way that it goes)
I don't know if my younger self can hear me, but if they can, I want them to know that they'll make a lot of mistakes, and people will laugh at them, but that's just part of life.

And I don't know if you can hear me or not But if you can, I just need you to get it I know you been questionin' life Trust me, I know what it's like I'm here for you if you need someone to listen Do you need someone to listen?
I don't know if my younger self can hear me, but I need them to understand that I know they are questioning life, and I am here for them if they need someone to listen.

See, mom and dad are not together, they took different routes But you probably already knew, you gettin' older now Remember back when mom picked us up from grandma's house? And she hid her boyfriend in the trunk and drove a couple miles
Mom and dad are not together, and I am getting older now. I remember when mom picked us up from grandma's house and hid her boyfriend in the trunk and drove away to avoid dad finding out

'Cause she didn't want dad to know she had these type of dudes around 'Cause last time he found out, he had to take us from her You look uncomfortable, I'm sorry, let me change the subject
Mom didn't want dad to find out about her boyfriends because the last time he found out, he had to take us from her. I notice my younger self feeling uncomfortable, so I apologize and change the subject.

You know how we've always struggled with abandonment? (Yeah) And when we feel like someone's leaving, we start panickin'? (Yeah) And yo, I wish I could say I've learned to manage it You think it's bad now, but you don't know the half of it
We have always struggled with abandonment, and we panic when we feel like someone is leaving. I know my younger self thinks it's bad now, but it will get worse, and I still haven't learned to manage it.

Passionate, something we have never lacked We see it the most when we're writing raps They think it's funny now, let 'em laugh I know you think it's just an outlet when you're really mad
Passion is something we have always had, and it shows most when writing raps. Others may find it funny, but it's an outlet for our anger.

But you don't know the platform you're about to have I know some things about the future you ain't ready for I know some things that you gon' cover up, but can't ignore And what hurts is they gon' surface at the worst moments
My younger self has no idea about the platform they will have and the things that they're not ready for. There are things they will cover up and ignore, but they will resurface at the worst moments.

And we gon' act like it don't hurt us, but it hurts, don't it? We walk around with the Devil talkin' on both shoulders Wish I could tell you that he disappears when we get older But that's just not the case, and I know you feel out of place
We will pretend like it doesn't hurt, but it does. We carry around the Devil on both of our shoulders, and I wish I could tell my younger self that he disappears when we get older, but he doesn't. It's hard, and it feels like we don't belong.

And everything is not okay, and life can be a lot to take, but You know how intoxicated people make us nervous? To the point sometimes we shake and it feels so disturbin' Don't be scared, that's just trauma tryna reach the surface
Everything is not okay, and life can be overwhelming. Intoxicated people make us nervous, and sometimes we even shake. It's just trauma trying to reach the surface, and there's no need to be scared.

And tell us everyone we love is gonna try to hurt us Which isn't true, but it's a lie that both of us believe in Yeah, you might get a glimpse of happiness from your achievements But what you'll learn as you get older, every time you reach one Is you'll just make another goal that doesn't lead to freedom
Our trauma tells us that everyone we love is going to hurt us, but that's a lie we both believe in. Achievements may bring happiness, but as we get older, we'll learn that every goal we reach will not lead to freedom.

See, some things about to happen that you can't imagine At twenty-four, you'll drop an album, and you'll call it Mansion At twenty-five, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one
There are things that will happen that my younger self can't imagine, like releasing an album called Mansion at twenty-four, putting out Therapy at twenty-five, and gaining traction. But there will be a really sad track number four.

Yeah, Perception's coming next, we 'bout to reach the masses It sounds awesome, at the same time, it doesn't matter At twenty-seven, we'll make millions, but it's really sad 'cause You'll learn to realize that none of this will make you happy
My next album, Perception, is coming, and we're about to reach the masses. It's awesome, but it won't matter. At twenty-seven, we'll make millions, but it's sad because we'll learn that none of it will make us happy.

I wish that I could look at you with empathy Sometimes I feel like I've become what you were scared to be Which makes it really hard to look at you with sympathy 'Cause if I'm feeling bad for you, then I have to feel bad for me
I wish I could look at my younger self with empathy, but sometimes I feel like I've become what they were scared to be, making it hard to look at them with sympathy. If I feel bad for them, then I have to feel bad for myself.

And that's just something I feel like we don't deserve That's why I'm always looking down on you, I know it hurts I'm sure you have a lot of questions I've been tryna search to find us both some answers I'll be here for you if things get worse
I feel like we don't deserve to feel bad, which is why I always look down on my younger self, and I know it hurts. They probably have a lot of questions, and I'm searching for answers for both of us. I'll be there for them if things get worse.