Outcast
NF Lyrics

Woke up in the cell, where am I at?
I feel trapped and isolated, unsure of my surroundings.

Yeah, it's cold, but I like that
I find comfort in the emotional coldness I experience.

What, am I trapped?
Am I confined and unable to escape my current situation?

Heart's beating out of my chest
My anxiety is overwhelming and evident.

Door's locked, but the keys are in my hands
Although I have the means to free myself, I still feel trapped.

Hm, yeah, I swear it doesn't make sense, does it?
It's confusing and illogical how I can have the solution, yet still feel stuck.

I make songs, I don't make friends, judge me
I prioritize my art and expression over forming social connections, even if others judge me for it.

Might smile, but it ain't that funny
I may appear outwardly happy, but deep down, my struggles and pain are not something to laugh about.

Sing along to the pain, they love it
My audience resonates with and appreciates the vulnerable emotions in my music.

Life's like a merry-go-round
Life is chaotic and unpredictable, like a constant cycle of ups and downs.

And I'm still tryna figure it out
I am continuously searching for understanding and meaning in life.

I like space, I don't fit in the crowds
I prefer solitude and do not feel like I belong in large social gatherings.

My whole life I've been airin' it out
I have always openly expressed my emotions and struggles to the world.

Oh, I'm gettin' into character now
I am embracing my authentic self and embracing my uniqueness.

Feels wrong, but it feels right
Although it may seem unconventional, being true to myself feels like the right path.

My feelings sealed tight real nice
I keep my emotions hidden and guarded, presenting a composed exterior.

But I will fight anything to win
I am determined and willing to overcome any obstacle in pursuit of success.

But I'm not Mike Tyson, I won't bite ya
I will assert myself and express my dislike for someone, but I won't physically harm them like Tyson would.

But I will tell you if I don't like ya
I won't hide my feelings and will let you know if I have a problem with you.

I am not the norm
I do not conform to societal expectations or standards.

I got my own shoes, I ain't tryna fit in yours
I have my own unique identity and do not strive to conform to others' expectations or preferences.

I never been married, but I've felt divorced
I have experienced emotional separation and detachment, even without being in a formal marriage.

Hi, I'm Nate, have we met before?
Introducing myself, questioning if my true self has truly been encountered before.

Somebody told you I was wack? Check the source
If someone claims I am untalented, they should evaluate the credibility of their source of information.

Somebody told you I was back? Yes, of course
If someone said I have returned, that is indeed true.

You got a problem with the fans? There's the door
If you have an issue with my supporters, you are free to leave.

You lookin' for the old me? Check the morgue, ah
If you seek my previous self, you will find it in the past, as I have evolved.

Not a fortune-teller, but I can see into the future better
Although I am not clairvoyant, I have a clearer understanding of what lies ahead.

Ain't no tellin' what'll happen when I pick up the microphone, get the fans together
The possibilities are endless when I engage in my craft and unite my supporters.

Same style, but the songs are better
I maintain my artistic style, but my music has improved and become more compelling.

Been a year and a half, feels like it's gone forever
Although it has only been a relatively short period, it feels like an eternity.

Ain't no drink in my hand, but you know the buzz is comin'
Even without alcohol, the excitement and anticipation for success is palpable.

Big steps in the game, yeah, the Hulk is runnin'
I am making significant progress in my career, akin to the incredible strength and force of the Hulk.

My thoughts are funny, feels like I'm on to something, yeah
My thoughts and ideas are intriguing and entertaining, and I feel like I am onto something great.

I'm high off the music, my head's in the clouds
I am euphoric and deeply immersed in my music, disconnected from reality.

I kinda like it up here, I am not comin' down
I enjoy the elevated state and do not wish to return to a mundane or ordinary existence.

I'd rather be alone, I am not good in crowds
I prefer solitude because I struggle to fit in or feel comfortable in larger social settings.

Which is kinda confusin', I know, been that way since a child
My aversion to crowds has been a consistent aspect of my life, which can be perplexing.

They laughin', they tell me I'll never get out
Others ridicule and doubt my ability to escape my current situation or achieve success.

I'm just tryna be me, I am nobody else
I am simply striving to embrace and express my authentic self instead of conforming to others' expectations.

I don't care what you think, I'm just being myself
I am indifferent to others' opinions and remain true to my identity and expression.

Yeah, I guess I don't fit the mold of rap
I do not conform to the conventional expectations and stereotypes of rap music.

'Cause I'm respectin' women
One reason for not fitting the mold is due to my commitment to treating women with respect and dignity.

I heard your record, I was laughin' at it
After listening to your music, I found it amusing or lacking in quality.

Maybe they would like me more if I got a little graphic with it
Perhaps I would gain more popularity if I incorporated explicit or provocative content into my music.

Nah, I don't wanna blend in with you little rappin' idiots, I'd rather be the outcast
I refuse to conform to the mediocrity and unintelligence prevalent in the rap industry and instead choose to be an outcast.

I ain't never puttin' out trash
I am committed to always delivering high-quality and meaningful music, never releasing anything subpar.

I take a hundred and staple it right to my tongue
I metaphorically attach value and significance to my words, ensuring they have an impact.

I always put the money where my mouth's at, ah
I consistently back up my words with actions and invest my resources accordingly.

Feels good to be here now
I find satisfaction and contentment in my current position and achievements.

I'm a weird person with a weird crowd
I acknowledge and embrace my uniqueness and the unconventional group of people who support me.

What, you don't like that?
Are you disapproving or uncomfortable with my peculiarities?

That's cool, that's great, that's fine, okay, you can leave now
If my quirks bother you, feel free to depart from my presence.

Got a weird smile, but I like it though
My eccentric and distinctive smile brings me joy and satisfaction.

I paint it on me and I'm walkin' to the microphone
I consciously wear this unique smile as I approach the microphone to perform.

And put the caution tape around me like I did in Intro I, yeah
Similar to my earlier work 'Intro I,' I symbolically surround myself with caution, indicating my unconventional nature.

Yeah, they got me reminiscin' now!
I am engaging in nostalgic reflection due to the current circumstances.

Yeah, you didn't know I'm 'bout to go mad
You were unaware that I am on the verge of expressing intense emotions or anger.

Never wanted something so bad
I have never desired anything as strongly as I do now.

Goosebumps through the whole track
My music evokes strong emotions and sends chills down the listener's spine.

Ain't no way I'm gonna hold back
I refuse to restrain myself or suppress my emotions and creativity any longer.

Got me thinkin' that I'm cookin' in a meth lab
The intensity of my thoughts and ideas is akin to a highly volatile and energetic environment like a meth lab.

How I'm blowin' up in front of my own eyes
I am witnessing my own rapid rise and success firsthand, almost in disbelief.

You look a little lost, you ain't get that?
You seem confused or disconnected, failing to grasp the significance of my words.

Comin' from a town where nobody is a rapper
I originate from a place where rap music and artists are uncommon or nonexistent.

Guess I never got the memo, must've missed that
I did not receive the information or notification that I should conform to the norms of the rap industry.

Wow
Expressing astonishment or surprise.

Here I go in my feelings again, I can feel it again
I am entering an emotional state once more, experiencing intense and familiar emotions.

So I lay in my bed, in my cell with the pen
To process my emotions, I retreat to my personal space, using a pen to express myself.

And I dwell on my sins, I keep wonderin' when
I ruminate on my past wrongdoings, constantly questioning and seeking resolution.

Time to open the doors, they don't know who I am
As I consider revealing my true self to the world, they are unaware of the person I have become.

But I pick up the keys and I put on my Timbs
I take control of my destiny, embracing my unique style and preparing to take action.

And I stare at the locks and the tat on my skin
Contemplating the obstacles and symbolism inscribed on my skin, representing my identity and experiences.

And I think to myself, 'I don't wanna fit in'
In this deliberation, I conclude that I do not desire conformity or assimilation.

Yeah, tryna focus
Attempting to concentrate and maintain my attention.

Take a knife to my head then I cut it open
Metaphorically dissecting my thoughts and examining them with precision and depth.

Take my brain, put it on the floor tryna figure out my motives
Delving into the depths of my mind, analyzing my intentions and reasoning.

Y'all thought I was an issue when the door was locked
You saw me as a problem or challenge when I appeared restricted or confined.

Nah, you should see me when the door opens
However, the true extent of my capabilities and impact can only be witnessed when I am given freedom and opportunity.

Every night I can hear voices
I am haunted by the incessant thoughts and opinions that echo within my mind.

Put a camera in my face, might turn Joker like I'm Mike Posner
When faced with the scrutiny of the public eye, I may adopt a wildly unpredictable and eccentric persona, similar to the fictional character Joker or the artist Mike Posner.

Always been a little complex
I have always possessed intricate and multifaceted characteristics.

Difficult to process
My nature can be challenging or perplexing to comprehend.

Some of y'all wanna sit around and try to pick apart my bars
Certain individuals enjoy dissecting and analyzing my lyrics, attempting to find hidden meanings or flaws.

Here's some lines you could dissect
If you are seeking material to analyze, here are a few lines that you can scrutinize.

If I'ma die, I'ma die givin' everything that I have
In the face of potential failure or death, I will give my utmost effort and pour my entire being into what I do.

Take a deep breath, I don't need y'all's respect
I remain unaffected by the need for your approval or admiration, taking a moment to center myself.

I'm a reject kid at recess playin' games with his make-believe friends
I embody the role of an outcast or misfit, reminiscent of a child who creates imaginary companions during recess.

Yeah, I don't ever take a night off
I never rest or pause in my pursuit of my goals and dreams.

Lights off in the room and I write songs
In the darkness of my solitude, I find inspiration and create music.

I might fall into my thoughts once in a while when the mic's off
During moments of silence and reflection, my mind tends to wander and explore deeper thoughts and emotions.

You ain't ever seen no drive like mine, better hop outta my car
You have never witnessed a determination and dedication as intense as mine, so you may want to step out of my way.

I'm about to unlock my doors
I am preparing to unleash my true potential and open myself up to new opportunities.

You ain't got a seat belt on, better find one
If you are unprepared for the wild journey that lies ahead, it would be wise to secure yourself.

Gettin' sick of people tellin' me to smile more
I am growing tired of others' constant demands or expectations for me to appear happier or more cheerful.

T.S. was a chapter I'll never forget, it was therapy for me
My previous work, 'Therapy Session,' holds significant personal meaning and served as a therapeutic outlet for me.

But it's time to turn the page now
Although that chapter of my life was valuable, it is time for me to move on and embrace new experiences.

Hey, shut up! I'm tryna tell 'em my story!
I am impatient with interruptions, as I am attempting to convey my personal narrative or journey.

I'm sorry, I wasn't yellin' at y'all, I was talkin' to the voices
Apologizing for the outburst, clarifying that it was directed at the internal voices in my mind, not the listeners.

I rip out the drums of the industry's ears for tryin' to ignore me
I forcefully command attention from the music industry that has been disregarding or disregarding my presence.

And playin' while singin' this chorus
Asserting that I am simultaneously performing and expressing these sentiments in the chorus.

I'll just be the outcast (let's go let's go)
I will embrace my role as an outcast and confidently be myself, despite societal expectations.

I guess I'll be the outcast
It seems that being an outcast is my fate or identity, and I am accepting of that.