NF is the stage name of rapper and composer Nate Feuerstein from Gladwin, M… Read Full Bio ↴NF is the stage name of rapper and composer Nate Feuerstein from Gladwin, Michigan. Feuerstein endured a hardship-filled childhood in which his parents divorced, his mother's boyfriend physically abused him, and his mother eventually killed herself. Music was his escape, and he began recording songs on a karaoke machine, with instrumentals on one microphone and his raps in the other. Placing second in a nationwide Fine Arts Festival rap competition in 2008, and first in Michigan the following year, he independently released a debut album, Moments, in 2010. The album attracted the attention of Xist Music, which signed him to a recording deal in 2012, by which time Feuerstein had taken on the stage name NF. The label announced the release of an EP that same year, but it never appeared, and NF and Xist parted ways. NF spent the next two years looking for a label and working with local producer Tommee Profitt in his studio; they came up with the song "Wake Up," which convinced Capitol Christian Music Group to sign him. CMG released a six-song (including a Manny Marroquin remix of "Wake Up") self-titled EP late in the summer of 2014. His debut album, Mansion, was released in early 2015 and reached number 62 on the Billboard 200 while topping the Christian Albums chart. The aptly titled Therapy Session followed in 2016 and also topped the Christian Albums chart with its raw emotions and honest lyrics. The following Summer saw the release of the singles "Outro" and "Green Lights", in anticipation of the arrival of his third studio long player, Perception, which dropped later that October. NF achieved mainstream popularity in 2017 with Perception; the album charted at number one in the United States and was certified platinum, while its third single, "Let You Down", reached number twelve on the U.S. Billboard Hot 100, and was a top-ten hit internationally. He achieved similar commercial success with his follow-up The Search (2019). Feuerstein's most recent album, Hope, released on April 7, 2023, had commercial success and peaked at number 2 on the US Billboard 200.

Paralyzed
NF Lyrics

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When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things

I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed

When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (oh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed

I'm paralyzed
I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
But it's still alive

And it's taking over me where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why
I'm in the race of life and time passed by
Look, I sit back and I watch it
Hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside

I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed)
Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (oh how come I'm not moving why aren't I moving ay yeah)
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)

Overall Meaning

NF's song "Paralyzed" is an introspective and emotional expression of the singer's internal struggles, particularly with depression and anxiety. The lyrics convey a sense of detachment from one's own emotions and the world around them. The opening lines ask, "When did I become so numb?" and "When did I lose myself?" This suggests that the singer is acutely aware of the changes in their emotional state but can't pinpoint when they began.

The chorus of "Paralyzed" repeats the phrase "I'm paralyzed" several times, which seems to reflect a feeling of being stuck or trapped. The singer acknowledges that they "no longer feel things" and that they know they should. This suggests a sense of guilt or frustration with their own inability to connect emotionally. The second verse expands upon these feelings, with the lines "I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die" showing the singer's struggle with anxiety and the fear of the unknown. The final lines of the song, "I'm paralyzed, but I'm the one who locked me in" demonstrate the singer's sense of responsibility for their own emotional state.

Overall, "Paralyzed" is a powerful and honest expression of the struggles many people face with mental health issues. Through the use of poetic lyrics and haunting melodies, NF captures the feeling of being trapped and unable to connect with one's own emotions.

Line by Line Meaning

When did I become so numb?
At what point did I lose the ability to feel emotions or sensations?

When did I lose myself?
When did I lose my identity or sense of purpose?

All the words that leave my tongue feel like they came from someone else
I am speaking words that don't feel like my own and I feel estranged from myself

Where are my feelings?
I can't locate my emotions or sensations

I no longer feel things
I have lost the capacity to experience sensations or emotions

I know I should
I am aware that I am supposed to feel something, but I can't

Where is the real me?
I have lost my true identity and feel like a different person

I'm lost and it kills me inside
Being lost makes me feel pain and suffering

When did I become so cold?
At what point did I become emotionally detached and distant?

When did I become ashamed? (oh)
When did I start feeling embarrassed or guilty about something?

Where's the person that I know?
I feel like I have lost my previous self and can't recognize myself anymore

They must have left
My previous self must have left and I don't know where they went

With all my faith
My belief and trust in myself has disappeared along with my previous identity

I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
I am afraid of both living and dying, and cannot find a way to escape my paralysis

And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
If life is full of suffering, then I have repressed my own pain for a long time

But it's still alive
My pain still persists and has not disappeared despite my attempts to suppress it

And it's taking over me where am I?
My pain is consuming me and I don't know where I am in life

I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
I desire to experience any sensation, as I am emotionally devoid

But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why
Even though I want to feel something, I still can't, and I am unsure why this is happening

I'm in the race of life and time passed by
I feel like I am competing in life, but time is slipping away and nothing is changing

Look, I sit back and I watch it
I observe my life from a passive standpoint without interfering

Hands in my pockets
I am not actively doing anything with my hands while I sit back and watch my life unfold

Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I am being hit by powerful emotions, but I let them wash over me and do not react

I just watch 'em
I continue to watch the waves of emotions without resistance

I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it
I feel submerged in my emotions, yet I am still mentally above them without being affected

I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I am at my lowest point, but I don't understand the root of my troubles

I'm in a box
I feel confined, with no escape or freedom

But I'm the one who locked me in
I am responsible for creating my own limitations

Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen
I am struggling to keep breathing as if all life has vanished.

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: Nate Feuerstein, Tommee Profitt

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@saisree6694

5y↑2.3K

“ You see those stars in the sky.

Some of them got names.

Others don’t.

But still they are there.

And so are you.

Living is only option you got.

A star never leaves the sky even if it can not shine as the other one.

You are such a star.

Everyone got a role to play.

So have you. ”

@belmadai94

5y↑5

Simply bc He is God and He can... just surrender....

“The Desires Of My Heart”

I had been praying for something I wanted very badly. It seemed a good thing to have, a thing that would make life even more pleasant than it was and would not in any way hinder my work. God did not give it to me. Why? I do not know all of His reasons, of course. The God who orchestrates the universe has a good many things to consider that have not occurred to me, and it is well that I leave them to Him. But one thing I do understand: He offers me holiness at the price of relinquishing my own will.

“Do you honestly want to know Me?” He asks. I answer yes. “Then do what I say,” He replies. “Do it when you understand it; do it when you don’t understand it. Take what I give you; be willing not to have what I do not give you. The very relinquishment of this thing that you so urgently desire is a true demonstration of the sincerity of your lifelong prayer: ‘Thy will be done.’”

So instead of hammering on heaven’s door for something that it is now quite clear God does not want me to have, I make my desire an offering. The longed-for thing is material for sacrifice. “Here, Lord, it’s yours.”

He will, I believe, accept the offering. He will transform it into something redemptive. He may perhaps give it back as He did Isaac to Abraham, but he will know that I fully intend to obey Him.

Excerpt from A Lamp Unto My Feet: The Bible’s Light for Your Daily Walk, by Elisabeth Elliot

@alinarose5465

5y↑66

I'm paralized, where are my feelings? I no longer feel things. I know I should

Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside, I'm paralyzed.

Is it that so wrong that whenever I wanna cry, tears just won't come out of my face? I felt this lyrics in another level

@jessicaxnumb2228

@@wadealford6283 I know how you feel. I have a few things that keep me going:
1. The pain only makes you stronger
2. Jesus knows what is good for you and he's only allowing this to happen for the better
3. I will make it out alive no matter how long it takes
4. doing bad things to yourself because you are hurt won't get you anywhere
5. There is always at least one person looking out for me in life
6. You don't need love or attention to stay alive
7. Keep fighting because there's hope ahead of me
8. You always have at least two choices in life
9. You have a right to feel however you feel
10. If people hate you let them hate you for who you are! It's better to have people hate you for who you are then to have people love you for someone you aren't.

Also if this song describes you then here are some other songs:
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All comments from YouTube:

@lilyyy1270

5y↑2K

Nf is my only friend. He's never met me, but I feel like he's the only one who understands my pain. He's the one I always go to

@solpoblete5368

5y↑27

If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I may not understand your pain but I can hear you. Remember you are loved. You are cared for xX

@jponeill1275

5y↑27

You don’t know me just like I don’t know you. But, we have something in common. We came here and we listened to this mans music. You don’t ever have to feel like your alone or like NF is your only friend. People are here for you. And for what it’s worth if you need someone I’m here to listen. I anyway I can.

@staybin1941

5y↑10

Every person that understands you is your friend.

@yvyax

5y↑1

Hey I'm here for you your not alone if you ever needed someone to talk or chat with I would be glad to be your friend and i could also give you my ig. I may not know the period your passing by but i also passed by a hard time bcs of depression I know i don't know what's wrong with you but talking helps.

@SnakeMomma

5y↑6

I know what you mean because I feel the same way

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@gracem8805

5y↑2.6K

“I’m lost and it kills me” “im scared to live but im scared to die”😫

@gachakaely7652

5y↑24

I lost my ability to cry when i was 3 years old and life just got worse from that day😔😔

@gracem8805

5y↑12

Kaely Fireman 😕 keep ur head up high girl

@gachakaely7652

5y↑9

Im trying

@themockingjays346

5y↑8

@@gachakaely7652 i lost the ability to show my feelings 4 years ago when my dad died i cant even cry when ive been rejected and when i was cheated on

@gachakaely7652

5y↑5

Im just really hurt physically and emotionally

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@Mystyyx

5y↑114

These comments are a whole mood. I do miss the old me, it's like I've been broken so many times idk how to feel anymore. It doesnt help with anxiety and depression are constantly on your back hugging you from behind bringing up things that killed you so much in the past.

@shaquannajohnson-o8w

18w

Amen

@Bigfartsniffer1234

The trick is to say a sweet goodbye and begin the new chapters of your life.

@dull_demon4717

5y↑2.4K

When you're happy you like the song.

When you're depressed you understand the lyrics

@armyforeverbtsnicole5505

5y↑18

So true! 😭

@vertigo5016

5y↑41

“When your happy, you listen to the music, when your sad you listen to the lyrics.”

@dull_demon4717

5y↑6

@@vertigo5016 that was the quote i meant, just couldn't remember it word for word.

@katarzynasowa1127

5y↑4

I do understand this song

@SKY-so9rc

5y↑2

Totally agree!!

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@MaverikMatt

2y↑27

"where are my feelings" the most relatable verse in any song I've ever heard

@tesnb

5y↑7.7K

This song hits different when you wake up every day not wanting to live anymore

@AmericasDevilllee

5y↑88

True 😭😭😭

@eadiecatterill3531

5y↑43

💔

@Lachlan2564

5y↑47

Deadrider No 💔💯

@tesnb

5y↑402

Guys, I was depressed as fuck when I wrote this. Actually almost attempted suicide a few days later. But now I'm doing much better. Keep your head up, trust God, u will get through it

@tesnb

5y↑76

@Flavia De Brito it's not about the cards you were dealt, it's about how you play them. Keep your head up

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@humanbeing6362

5y↑1.9K

Are suicidal thoughts a habit? Always feeling worthless? Never having much emotion so I have to take some smiles cause I don't know how to feel? Are those habits or just me?

@robertstubbs49

5y↑16

Me too

@elirml

5y↑36

That isn't a habit it's depression but I know how you feel

@paolaleon3948

5y↑9

Me too

@juliemorris6840

5y↑7

Always me

@budicas5259

5y↑8

nah not just you.

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@nikkiswineford1268

5y↑837

These comments really hit 😩 God bless everyone

@justinlaymance2792

5y↑4

Thanks

@davystepp9335

5y↑2

I guess thanks though my GF broke up with me

@ALIVECF

5y↑1

@@davystepp9335 same

@genxbeuwhshdves941

5y↑1

U too nikki swineford

@ivetacosta2870

@@davystepp9335 nobody really asked

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@jdfkalfd

5y↑88

this song feels like when you're sitting alone late at night, curled up in a ball, breathing shallow, wishing you could cry, but you're just... there

@carterbrogdon8317

5y↑1

Yes it does....

@IsmelindaSantiago

1y↑3

Me every night. It’s what happens when you have a toxic family and you don’t have a voice to stand up for yourself. 🥺😖😣😫😭

@slavica.panova

42w

I play this song on repeat hopping it will make me cry... so that I can fil something... 😢 AND NOTHING. more death than before

@CanadianMade84

3y↑33

Every beat, every tune, every piano key.... every word in this song ....hits me hard like a crashing wave... everytime i hear it. .... 🙌 💯

I wish I could hug NF... the pain he feels...

@KEYNL.

5y↑5.3K

What makes you happy?
- Sad songs.
- And what makes you sad?
- Happy songs.

@EnzoEchoPlays

5y↑41

신 게이머Amar206 yeah that's how it is

@aprilhartwick3126

5y↑19

Yalp

@orange_orange1985

5y↑25

true tho

@morgan.f7050

5y↑19

Thats so true

@morgan.f7050

5y↑15

Thats so true

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@nureensyazwanie3911

5y↑847

i dont know how to express my feelings....listening to this song is just my hobby when im depressed. just suicidal thoughts i have here.

@arshadparvez832

5y↑16

I feel the same which is like being suffocated from inside but others don't understand this feelings...

@jobiz711

5y↑2

@@arshadparvez832 I do I'm there to

@randomman4801

5y↑7

Awwww stay strong guys...but life is full with struggles...don’t give up....be strong 🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

@naomipizza

5y↑4

The Unknown Girl ~~yes, yes indeed..~~

@genxbeuwhshdves941

5y↑2

Same

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@saisree6694

5y↑2.3K

@tabs3251

5y↑33

You can still see a start after it dies

@budicas5259

5y↑37

living isnt the only option dying is too

@saisree6694

5y↑14

@@budicas5259 why do u wanna die?

@budicas5259

5y↑29

@@saisree6694 death is better then a living hell

@saisree6694

5y↑14

@@budicas5259 but why do u think so? U are worth living

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@ohleex9347

5y↑299

You wish to talk to somebody about how you really feel.. Then the thought of being the one who's always down comes to mind & so you decide to keep it in for years; Depression doesn't have a face... It gets the best of us...

@Fandomedits20049

Yup

@brianabrown9612

And a good heart and a great blessing

@brookebeaudette4910

Yep

@ChuyasTransMan

That's accurate.........

Maybe to accurate to understand because depression is something that makes us confused even when the answer is right in front of us

@FluidLovesPeople

1y↑8

For those who are still struggling.. you're not alone, you're loved, and I know its hard but this pain will end.. i used to be the most depressed person I knew.. but I am not trapped anymore.. im free.. and ik you can too.. it takes so much time to heal from it.. but its possible, so don't give up okay?

@sarabarker5945

That's not true the pain of losing my daughter will never end please don't give people false hope there are some pains that never end

@familylancaster317

5y↑58

This song hits hard when your childhood was rough and when you feel like you weren’t enough

@raquellemitchell655

Completely relate, but it's not we that are the problems! It's reflections of themselves! They really have no idea how damaging there behaviors are right? Then we are left to clean them up!

@cangayaonicole8666

5y↑58

"Where is REAL ME, I'm LOST and it KILLS ME INSIDE"
This line ughhhh 😭💔💔💔💔

@markandcheese5434

5y↑62

I’m happy that I found NF he puts my feelings in music he’s the best singer and if everyone found out about him what would we do? Everyone would listen to him and we would be left looking for someone else I’m happy no one else knows about him because we keep our music to our self without people knowing our music I’ve been sad lately and suicidal but NF describes how I feel and it makes me rethink, I stay up all night thinking about my mistakes and everything I fucked up and NF has been there for me, even if he doesn’t know me he is amazing 🖤

@kimberlyrose6237

3y↑2

I love NF his music helps with the depression and suicidal thoughts. You should also check out Citizen Soldier they help me too.

@katrinastradley1621

I could not agree more. He's amazing. One of my new favorites.

@jsantiago8979

2y↑47

I miss the old me . This song hits straight to my ❤

@Sarah_and_Finny

2y↑21

You don’t realize how good this song is until you listen to it one day and you can relate to it.

@amon87

5y↑330

The chorus reflects my actual life.Good luck to everyone who's in depression like me.

@novagaming8375

5y↑6

Good luck to you to we all deserve to be happy

@Zombae13

5y↑2

:( i hope things get better, I know life can suck alot but one day it'll be better.

@sajithsaranatha4649

5y↑2

I feel sad for you god pls bless this and I hope you will have a happy ending in your story life time and I think you will be rich and wealthy pls be happy even if your a stranger I understand you I faced and had experience so I have aloft of compassion towards strangers😇😇😇😇😇😇

@amon87

5y↑2

@@sajithsaranatha4649 Thank you, I hope you live a beautiful life 😊🙌

@ChuyasTransMan

3y↑1

Thanks and good luck to u too

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@maisieboca5175

4y↑11

Currently crying, my therapist recently said I’m healthy enough to live my life, she changed my life, I had anxiety I had depression I had ptsd I was struggling with my dad, I was struggling with divorce of my parents, she changed my life. So I’m buying her something special and asking her to never forget me cuz I’ll never forget her 😭 thank you my therapist ♥️

@user-eo9zp6xm7n

5y↑80

2:28 best part

@chrissylove9403

Yes

@gluxx8256

X1.25 speed aswell 🔥

@starboling2561

5y↑79

This one of the realists song I've heard in a while and it truly hits home when you wake and don't even want to look in the mirror ashamed to see the person looking back at you.....

@emilyqueen426

5y↑322

“I’m scared to live but I’m scared to die”🤧 “ where’s the person that I know🥺”

@larryw.forresterjr.8240

5y↑5

Its ok to not be ok

@ChuyasTransMan

But it's not safe to stay that way

@scarlettquine

5y↑182

Video:
"Im paralyzed"
Me:
Im paralyzed, w-
Sis:
walks in
Me:
Where are my feelings? I know i should
Sis:
😓😥

@scarlettquine

@Emma Gonzalez cookie werewolf?

@valeriealejandro9846

4y↑1

Bro my sis would tell me to shut up and stop being sad🙄

@echolaughs6120

6y↑747

"I'm paralyzed, where's the real me"

@loveyouhoneybees8871

5y↑8

Yes

@staybin1941

5y↑5

I relate to that

@RandomPerson-te7wd

5y↑4

I only understand the “Where’s the real me” because I can relate to it.

@daynerrrz755

5y↑2

Stay strong

@ximemajuarez8165

4y↑2

i lost my identity. who am i?

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@farif9814

5y↑65

I just realized how much I relate to this song and it's fvxking scary

@depresseddino7433

same here

@staybin1941

5y↑288

The lyrics relates to me. This singer should get more recognition because this song is about life and reality not about dating, hoes and money. And for the other people who also relates, all that i can say is everybody deserves to be happy.
You can cure your sadness inside by praying or thinking about good things. Always remember,
God loves all of us in this world. Even the sinners. 👭👬👫✝️🌎🌏🌍

@danzo3376

5y↑6

🤲🙌🙏🤲🙏🤲🙏

@bossg8447

5y↑3

Real

@bobthebuilder480

5y↑5

He does deserve more recognition u r 100% correct

@staybin1941

5y↑2

@@bobthebuilder480 yes

@emilymorrison565

4y↑1

literally

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@justsuzie2150

5y↑15

Due to a quite dramatic event that happened to me Last year, for eight months I was suffering from depression. Even when I wasn't hurting anymore, I still felt empty and broken. Now I'm starting to be myself again.
So I wanna say to everyone out there that you are VERY STRONG because I know that some People suffer from depression for a lot longer than eight months.
CARRY ON MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS, THERE'S ALWAYS A RAINBOW AFTER EVERY RAIN... 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😘😘

@spartan4245

4y↑29

Hurts so much when you try to find reasons to keep living but the reasons hate you.

@yesikagarcia375

5y↑25

This hit home 🥺 who ever is going through something atm I promise...I do promise..... ur not alone and ur ok ..... don’t give up please and god bless you

@Gummybearedits-k3u

*God

@tobiasluecke2292

5y↑15

It's hard not to cry while I listen to this masterpiece, cause I feel exactly like this.
But if a song is so close to you you gonna have the power to deal with the pain no matter what.

@taleenamayy9436

1y↑2

3:13 am and I can genuinely relate to this, especially when this song randomly played on it's own w/o auto play😢 thank you NF 🙏

@haileycarron2875

5y↑29

This song hits hard when you feel so alone in the world...

@sylviaalvarez787

5y↑134

"When did I lose myself"🥺

@sylvia7439

4y↑2

@anxiousrambling3558

5y↑63

I just asked my best friend of 7 years to be my girlfriend but we're keeping it secret because her family is accepting and mine isn't and I love her so much I feel guilty that she's gotta deal with me and my problems I've been suicidal for years and she always stuck with me, I feel so bad but I'm also happy to have her.

@jdfkalfd

5y↑3

hey, I know how you feel. Not in dating, but with my close friends, I've felt the same way. And honestly, it's super hard for both of you no matter what way you look at it. But dang, those are the most genuine relationships you'll ever have. Praying for you.

@Zombae13

5y↑1

Congratulations 🙂 I hope things start to look up hun ❤️

@anxiousrambling3558

@@Zombae13 thanks, I hope you're doing well.

@anxiousrambling3558

5y↑2

@@jdfkalfd thanks and yeah she really is amazing. I'm just really glad to have someone that cares about me. I hope you're doing well.

@anxiousrambling3558

@@kimdokjaspants yeah..i know, I'm really thankful for it too.

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@bobthebuilder480

5y↑186

I’m scared to live but I’m scared to die hits different

@addisonmcgarry972

5y↑2

For real

@bobthebuilder480

Yea and I’m not gonna be that person that tells u I understand what u r going through bc there is no possible way I can know but what I will tell u is that life is gonna beat u down to pulp and all u have to do is prove life wrong and hit it right back bc that’s all that u can do really

@emilymorrison565

@pcpxbotendorastermace9948

48w

4 reel

@caseydavis6512

20w↑86

Just help. Any friends here? No sob story. Only pain

@jonathanbanks4427

15w↑5

Real ones are hard to come by

@caseydavis6512

15w↑1

@jonathanbanks4427 are you a REAL ONE? Wanna find out? Possible friend

@caseydavis6512

15w

Nothing else JUST FRIENDS. sorry the words typed different from what they sounded

@LauraSmith-i4t

14w↑1

True friend hard to find that’s why we all on here alone

@LauraSmith-i4t

14w↑1

Friends can save lives i learned that the hard way. Regrets forever I will live with my advice never letting you by until you can’t see a friend because you never know it last time you see them

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@abbiestrait7907

5y↑211

Every one in this comment section. Your not alone, life's rough. Never give up, even when you want to. Don't ever give up, you'll survive I promise even if you feel like your at the bottom of the ocean lost in the deep blue darkness... I promise every one has there destiny a purpose. I love you all. ❤

@aalaanassar4332

STFU

@2ndsizta116

5y↑3

@@aalaanassar4332 ...rude. @Larry and Max made my day until I saw your comment.

@shmiggies9218

5y↑5

When we feel uncomfortable, it's common for us to resort to humor. It might be that the guy who said STFU was uncomfortable with how the comment made him feel, and was trying to be funny to relieve the tension. Even if meant seriously, it was probably a result of his own pain. Anger usually gives way to despair and sorrow. Borne of it.

Hell... I kind of chuckled at what he wrote. It was so stereotypical of the internet that I felt a certain irony behind it.

Anyways, I'm just commenting to offer "clarity"... From my perspective, I see either a person really resenting the overt compassion (which is common among those with depression), a person trying to lighten the mood because they are uncomfortable with the tone and don't know how else to react... Or maybe be just an asshole.

@2ndsizta116

5y↑3

@@shmiggies9218
Wow, you're totally right.
I was thinking more of the person who first commented with something I found motivational despite the rough day I was having. If I was in their position and someone responded with "STFU," I would be, to say the least, offended and hurt, and for some reason I wanted to get my point across. Oy.
It pays to look at both sides of everything, like I always try to. It seems I'm still getting there :/

Whether they intended their comment to be any of those that you mentioned, or (possibly but unlikely) just a mindless insult with no real reason behind it, thank you for providing said clarity, and your perspective.
It helped a lot. :D

@ashertonfwmen

4y↑1

@@aalaanassar4332 ?-?

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@ellaadams3495

4y↑6

This is how i feel every day.

This is exactly how I feel. Only when I do feel stuff, its just anger, or sadness.

This song, and so many more, are just the truth, and i can relate to them so much.

@depresseddino7433

4y↑46

all the dislikes are from people who don't relate to this song everyday. stay strong guys

@Zombae13

5y↑15

I really love this song because it describes how I "feel" alot of the times. I could be in the happiest position and if still feel numb inside like nothing matters at all and this song always makes me feel like I'm not alone . ❤️❤️

@Amunda617

37w↑4

My mom passed away on June 23 and lately I’vd been numb, not happy nor sad. I listen to this song and hits home, all of his music. I can relate to it so much.

@JubaronHill

36w↑1

R.i.p to your mom may she rest ❤

@Amunda617

36w

@@JubaronHill Thank you

@kailaholiver5445

38w↑3

I wish I remembered this song earlier, I got bad postpartum depression and I haven't felt the same since. I finally reached out once it got to the point I felt like my kids were the only things anchoring me to life. I go to my first psych consultation on Wednesday

@miastarrs4963

5y↑16

This song hits close. Stay strong everyone were in this together 💕

@MsMeals

5y↑53

One time, one of my cousins drowned in the Tennessee river. Everyone in my family was super depressed.....except me. I was annoyed by their tears, i was cold, i was heartless. I didn’t want to go to her funeral a little. Looking back, i now knew that I should’ve cried with them instead of seeing them as crybabies. I can hardly believe that I was so unfeeling when one of my flesh and blood passed. I would’ve at least say “I’m sorry”

@renafathima8626

4y↑2

It's alright.... sometimes we don't understand ourselves.....you did that because you were depressed.....just believe in yourself

@certified_geek7536

4y↑2

How old where you? Maybe you were just too young to understand

@robertesparza8250

5y↑338

When your mad at God while asking why me God.....

@Kruk1103

5y↑35

I've been told that God never gives you things he knows you can't handle, sometimes i feel like he thinks i'm stronger than i actually am. Just try to have faith, you aren't alone in doubt and negativity toward him.

@joeyhubbard9754

5y↑21

How would we ever know God will take us to the mountain, unless we’ve been in the valley. God allows this to happen, but we all know that all things work to the good for those that love him and are called to according to HIS purpose . I was brought here by googling some lyrics that I saw someone post on social media. Instead of filling our minds with depression we should reach out for God and stop blaming the very one that is gonna pull u out!! What we need is a real experience with Jesus Christ The Son of the Living God!

@hipxd268

5y↑15

God is preparing you, he is with you... trust me ive been there, he saved me from killing myself

@belmadai94

5y↑5

@markusdarri2158

5y↑5

I learned to think "why not me" why someone else insted of me? I dont want anyone to deal with these things so i will take the challanges no matter how tough.

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@yourmom-mw9wl

5y↑8

To anyone whom is reading this: you are not alone. I too am going through what you are, many are. Never forgot how important and unforgettable you are. Depression is known to downgrade your self-worth, and it’s absolutely terrible. Remember that you are here for a reason, and your story is not over yet. I’m trying my best to obliterate my suicidal thoughts, it’s almost impossible. We’ll all get through this. I know it doesn’t seem that way now, but the future holds may great things. Know that I’m here for you, If you ever want to talk.

@coryc5545

1y↑2

just know theres no going back. you'll never find that same person you once was before the hurt. thats the painful part because you feel the grief, the loss and the mourning. Thats also the beauty of it, you rise from the depths of the darkness. the old dies so the new can be born and have a chance at a new start. wish everyone the best. ❤

@luna_the_wolf7698

6y↑558

I think i need a therapist....💔💔💔

@poptartbrown207

6y↑25

Look up therapy session by nf

@Erika-dn7hf

5y↑10

i have one but she doesn't help.

@Mystyyx

5y↑3

@@Erika-dn7hf same

@Its_Monaee

5y↑11

Don't do it... The seem to make the pain worse, they try to tell you how to live your life...

@dafamuhammad4770

5y↑2

but my parent dont care :/

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@pauledwards5700

5y↑8

To be loved and not known is superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear.
I think that's why NF has so much appeal to me; he gets what it's like to go through life feeling like no one knows the real you, and those who might don't care. To press on in spite of that takes courage and hope that things will change, and there are days when I just don't want to muster the effort to leave my bed. Though to finish the quote: To be fully known and fully loved is what it's like to be loved by God. That's the only thing that keeps me going in this broken world, and NF gets it too. That's why he's my favorite artist.

I may not know you, or what you are dealing with, but I do care. Please be well, and know that you are beautiful, you are precious, and you are truly loved.

@mpnbwnn

4y↑10

To anyone listening to this right now, sending my hugs with you❣️ you're not alone, keep on going.💕

@Laura-de3vo

4y↑2

Ty I really needed that <3

@mr.noname4413

31w

I'm not sure if you still using this account, but I just want to tell you that this comment might help somebody out there including me

@animationfreak1673

I haven't been the same recently. I miss the old me. She was happier, friendlier, and more positive. But then her two best friends, her most favorite people in the world, showed their true colors. The world has always been cruel to me but damn this is hard right now. I just don't want to live anymore 💔

@narutoninjagoandtheflashar4256

That’s the reason I have trust issues. And now, I can’t trust NO ONE. It’s tough man

@teenyqueen

21w↑1

Not only did I lose my pop pop but I also lost my father. Since that heart wrenching day I lost the only person that was always there for me, never turned his back on me in my addiction. I need to find an outlet, music is helping me somewhat

@EndreyMusic

16w

💯💯

@cxntrolxerz4589

6y↑66

This song makes me remember my best friend and it makes me cry

@kawther3857

Me tooo😖💔

@ashertonfwmen

did your best friend died?

@shannonking9860

4y↑1

I dont have no friends because my imaginary friend says to me you dont need any friends

@Doesalittlejigg

5y↑125

"Im scared to live but im scared to die." Exactly how i feel.

@braydencobb9100

Same bro

@IsmelindaSantiago

Same here, all we can do is trust the process. It just means we’re made for something stronger. God is preparing us. I know that probably not what you wanna here. I know you don’t wanna be in this world knowing your completely useless, knowing that no one cares. I know ur probably going threw hell right now, and I don’t wanna promise you things will get better….cause then I would be lying to you. But what I can say, is that…you…are…in…control. It’s you at the end of the day that has the power to stay strong. And it’s hard I know, you might be giving up right now, but ur not alone. Okay, your worth it, you are so worth it all.
Stay strong. Cause guess what….the world NEEDS you! So please, don’t give up, don’t let those demons win. You WILL have victory, you will rise and win the battle, and the war. YOU WILL! You can do it, I know you can.@@braydencobb9100

@shaïnatibere-y4o

43w

Me too

@dark_sky318

6y↑174

I agree with this video.....

@Rowan69229

Yep

@pcpxbotendorastermace9948

48w

I agree with this comment.

@bluebabethrine

1y↑1

Every word resonates with my lost soul

@saraharig8162

4y↑2

the amount of people who feel the same way is crazy to me. but it just proves that you aren’t alone! it gets better, and it won’t always be great, but it does get better and i try to find peace in that. appreciate the little things and keep going. your future self will thank you 💓💓

@alinarose5465

5y↑66

@Jcx-be2xh

47w↑19

Leaving this comment so that someone else remembers this.

@branditwilligear8212

3y↑7

I used to have a friend that was emotionless and when I listen to this it reminds me of her

@Trevor7

2y↑2

2:27

@tomholland8604

1y↑1

We can’t stop the thoughts they just come and go when they please

@kelticviking3333

5y↑6

You guys can't give up be strong i've been depressed for a while but I'll never let depression or people break my spirit. Never give in to depression never let it defeat you.

@zeroorasf

5y↑46

Lyrics
When did i become so numb, when did i lose myself, all the words that leave my toungue, Feel like they came from someone else Im paralyzed where are my feelings? I no longer feel things. where is the real me, im lost and it kills me inside, im paralyzed. When did i become so cold when did become a shamed oh wheres the person that i know they must have let they must have left with all my faith. Im paralyzed, where are my feelings? I no longer feel things. I know i should. im paralyzed, where is the real me? Im lost and it kills me inside, im paralyzed. Im paralyzed, Im scared to live but im scared to die, and if life is pain ive buried mone, a long time ago but its still alive, and its taking over me, where am I I wanna feel something im numb inside but i feel nothing i wonder why, im in the race of life, and time passed by look i sit back and i watch it, hands in my pockets. Waves come crashin' over me, but i just watch 'em, i just watch 'em, im underwater but i feel like im ontop of it im at the bottom but i dont know what the problem is, im in a box, but im the one who locked me in suffocatin' and im running out of oxygen. Im paralyzed, where are my feelings? I no longer feel things, I know i should, im paralyzed, Where is the real me? im lost and it kills me inside, im paralyzed. Yeah im just so paralyzed Yeah im just so paralyzed I have no feelings How come im not moving why arent i moving Where is the real me? Where is the real me? Im paralyzed, im paralyzed, im paralyzed

@hellothere8446

. . .

@zeroorasf

5y↑2

@@hellothere8446 what

@aubreighcarmack

5y↑4

it’s a lyric video

@hellothere8446

Chepa r/IHaveRedit

@hutao1422

Umm the lyrics are on the screen

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@SophiaOrjala

4y↑4

I relate to this song so much it hurts . This song needs to be played on the radio so more people can hear it and know that they are not going through this alone . Fight me if you think that I'm wrong .

@sihamalali8967

4w↑1

Wow, hearing this song while high and depressed hits at a place so deep

@madisonjeffries1931

To those who see this,
This is a message to you. Please never give up! You are amazing, loved, and cared for even if you think your not. I love you for you and if you feel alone you never are! I know none of you know who I am, but i'm someone who has dealt with depression for 17 years. I always felt alone but once I started talking to people and helping them it helped me find my purpose in life. You all have potential and is here for a reason. Never Give Up! And NEVER forget your worth!

@hailey2010

Ive talked some of my friends out of it and ive talked to people about it and it didnt help im only here because my family and friends need me. But you have a good message

@madisonjeffries1931

3y↑1

@@hailey2010 thank you so much. You know sometimes people just need a little push

@allisonjura1506

5y↑8

I used to be happy. I was bubbly and excited all the time. Then life hit me like a ton of bricks. I lost my v-card to a 36 year old man I’m 13.....he was my moms bf. she still talks to him😔 I changed.... I stoped caring. I don’t feel bad when someone cry’s I don’t try to be good anymore I let myself go. It’s like I’m not even myself anymore I’m a shell of what I used to be. I self harm and am constantly thinking about suicide. I told someone and she told me I was fine and was just saying it for attention. I don’t even know if I’m going to make it to 16 before I just give up.

@AlexMcMillan-t1t

45w

Life gets hard, We have things we gotta deal with but sometimes we just have to push through

@josephwomack3113

2y↑5

I love listening to his music cuz it makes me feel like I actually have a true friend and I just sit here listening to him and feel like he's standing right beside me try to calm me down

@kaitlynnpeters2288

5y↑25

This is my song to God bc I can’t find the words to express how I feel.

@Ebie_

6w↑1

There's a top comment (for me at least) that says "This song hits different when you wake up every day not wanting to live anymore" I had liked it..but I haven't listened to this song in years. Knowing that a young teenage me just casually related to that hurts. Glad things do get better <3

@tiktokgacha9431

4y↑1

Imagine being 4 relating to this song knowing all the lirycs and now being 10 and don’t want to live anymore but still do because of you’re family😁🥺🥲

@lalalaggin

5y↑6

"they dont want people like us no more"
.
"My time has come to an end, friend"
.
"I know it never changes for the better. If it did I would've been the happiest person on earth by now"

@roseachieng4167

1y↑5

I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die....hiding from reality....NF's songs the only thing I can turn to when I'm down

@skyedwards8959

2y↑6

Being emotionally numb doesn't mean that you don't feel anything, it means you feel everything yet nothing at the same time, it means that no matter how hard you try you just can't seem to feel anything, it means that when others are happy you aren't but at the same time you don't feel sad, it means that when you try to smile it doesn't work yet when you try to cry nothing comes out, it means that you can't seem to care about things you used to love, its means that you can't seem to get out of bed and do things that you need to do, it means that you feel drained in multiple ways, it means that it feels like the world is gray. Being emotionally numb is the in-between, its not a lack of emotions

@Prithvikalra660

words of truth

@bluntlybold5962

1y↑2

My son introduced me to NFs music. And I've been addicted ever since. My addiction is music thank God 🙏, this man is a true artist. I honestly believe NF and Jackson Browne could write some beautiful music together. Amazing artists

@ZackSutton-hl2yb

22w↑1

This song hits diffrent when your in a very deep stage of depression, life has gotten really hard these past few years, this song really speaks for me. Thank you NF for speaking words I couldn't speak for myself❤

@MandaOakley

5y↑6

This song hits home. I have traveled this road more then I'd like to admit. This song discribes those weeks hours, minutes, each and every exact moment I was pushed to far over the edge. Every inch and how much weight that it carried with those thought patterns that dragged me into the abyss of mind numbing darkness.. For those who need to hear it. I can garentee that if you remove toxicity today, yourl brave a breath of fresh air tomorrow. Don't give up!!!!🤘✌️you got this. Your in control. Peace

@alissajackson9590

5y↑15

He’s pulled me through some of my hardest times. I hope to one day than him in person for that.

@emmak7682

4y↑3

This song hits hard. One part that especially got to me was, “where’s the person that I know, they must have left, they must have left with all my faith.” It hits hard because I do miss my old self. I miss the happy, naive, young girl I used to be. Everything is different now and I’m lost and confused. God bless everyone, have a good day.

@autumntaylor-andrews4201

4y↑2

"I'm lost and it kills me" WHY CAN I RELATE SO FUCKING MUCH TO THESE LYRICS?

@kateenaclemens-c2g

7w↑1

Makes me cry every time I can’t hold it 😢

@katelynnschroeder

2y↑4

This song makes me feel sad and happy because of my cousin and my great grandma and grandpa 😔😌

@narutoninjagoandtheflashar4256

It’s especially hard when the people you know and love leave you like that (without saying anything) 😢

@brianalindsey824

5y↑21

when you lose someone these lyrics hit so much different. my best friend of 15 years passed away 3 months ago. i’m quite literally numb. my subconscious is hiding my feelings from me because it will cause an overwhelming amount of depression and pain that i can’t handle.

@katie-lb5sm

5y↑2

Hey I know you don't know be but I promise you'll get through it I've been through the same type of pain. It's ok to be sad. Just be safe and talk about it trust me it helps to talk.

@sylvia7439

4y↑1

I'm so sorr, I can't even imagine how hard it must be for you. just remember things will get better, no matter how sad u feel. stay strong princess 💗

@hyrienplayzgames

2y↑7

Me coming back to this song after not listening to it for almost 3yrs

@narutoninjagoandtheflashar4256

1y↑1

I actually just found this song recently. Don’t ask why! But anyways, the more I listen to it, the more I realize how relatable it is to me. And it hurts a lot

@wadealford6283

4y↑1

I have walked this endless world for 61 years and I have now transformed from being Comfortably Numb to now being Paralyzed. I beg of all those who's Please soul cries don't allow this to happen to

@wadealford6283

I have walked this endless world for 61 years and I have now transformed from being Comfortably Numb to now being Paralyzed. I beg of all those who's soul cries out with pain at hearing this gut wrenching song, please don't allow this happen to you. Be stronger than I ever could be and conquer the demons which crawl through your body, seeping into your blood to attack your heart. I sit on the edge, trying to think of reasons to continue to fight, but so tired of the constant struggle. There has to be a way out of this pain but I have been too blind to find it, let your eyes be brighter than mine. Crawl your way out of the depth of pain which is suffocating you so you can finally grasp a breath of air no longer contaminated by your past. Someone has to be able to get out alive, if not me, please let it be you.

@jessicaxnumb2228

@GabiBaby-xb8wp

12w↑1

Don't give up, there's hope out there.. Hit your knees and pray.. I don't know if you have faith... God my friend is the only one who can heal the pain... I know.. I hit my knees and cried begging him to take the pain... There's no instant gratification. Please hold on and don't give up. I lived numb for so long. Reach out to me.. I will not judge... I've been where you are.... God bless keep your head up down only to pray

@landoncook403

24w↑3

This is still hits me hard after a year how my life is going and how hard things are, this is exactly what I'm screaming in my head on a daily. Im tired

@Mason-k1s

17w↑4

Take life like a toddler 💯, one step at a time 💙💜

@winter_love7766

5y↑12

This song hits differently when you wake up everyday knowing that your not going to have a moment when you get to smile for real and have to lie about how you feel because your parents just get mad at you
When I mean "you" I mean "me"

@dariaszydlowska484

2y↑1

Sometimes I put the song on right, I listen to it nd start overthinking, whenever my heart starts to hurt nd I understand every single word, when I get deja vu, when my eyes are tearing up. I'm turning it off.

@atticus1017able

18w↑1

It is okay to feel the way that you do. It’s okay to be sad and it’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be angry, just remember your anger comes from you protecting yourself or others. I don’t know if the numbness feeling ever really goes away when you carry so much pain but take today to be kind to yourself, celebrate the amazing person you are with all of your flaw’s and perfections.

@LauraSmith-i4t

14w

😢 feel that but hard

@samanthasura4566

5y↑94

Yes I'm paralyzed no longer feel things and ashamed with myself

@kaiya4119

5y↑13

I have often thought about suicide But I haven't done it so far because my best friends give me a lot of strength always think of the positive think of your family and friends who would miss you talk to someone about your problems only then they will get better

@christinasmith1225

Stay strong life can be gd !!

@LoonaStanGTNH

2y↑1

this is exactly how i feel
i have so many reasons to be sad right now, but bbc’s mistreatment and expulsion of chuu was what did me in
i’m numb and scared

@AngieBlackburn-mb8vt

14w↑1

This is basically me and my younger brother after our mother died. I just don’t feel anything anymore I just keep losing everyone I ever loved and feeling as if no one will ever understand or care.

@sarabarker5945

I understand I lost my daughter November 8th 2024 and my sister December 11 2024 and this pain is forever and I'm not going to pretend that it's going to get better people telling me that it gets easier or better with time are liars and just don't know what to say so they say that dumb shit if you don't know what to say to someone who is in pain like this then don't say anything and just give the person that is suffering a hug