I'm Sad
NJP Lyrics

Big bag
NJPs dreams are represented by this big bag, which could symbolize his aspirations and desires.

On me in my dreams
NJPs dreams are what he's referring to; he's saying he sees himself carrying the big bag in his dreams.

I had
NJPs had this big bag in his dreams.

Lost in between
He is lost between achieving his big dreams and the reality of his daily routine.

The past
NJPs has something that he's gained from the past that he's clinging to, but he doesn't know what it is.

Don't know what I mean
Even he doesn't completely understand what he's trying to say or why he's feeling like this.

I'm sad
NJP is expressing that this story or situation that he's talking about is making him sad.

And you don't know the half of that
There is much more to his story than what he's let on so far.

Take another bottle down and then I throw the fucking cap aye
He's coping with his sadness by drinking and then exclaiming the activity.

Ima settle down someday I do pray
He hopes that his life will become more stable and consistent very soon.

To find some peace of mind but I can't let go hey
He's seeking for a sense of serenity, but he can't let go of his present stressors.

So you know that I'm
He's going to inform them that he's still focused on his dreams despite being sad.

Running outta time
Time is running out and he hasn't accomplished everything he wanted to yet.

Don't know what I'll find
He's uncertain of what he'll come across next in life.

I'm losing my mind and
NJPs is becoming angry and anxious, and he's about to snap.

So I spit a rhyme
He's using his music as a coping mechanism and is writing rhymes to relieve his stress.

Feeling all this dread
NJPs is experiencing terror and turmoil.

Existential crisis
NJPs is having a deep, critical examination of himself and his mortality.

Don't know what is going on
He's so lost that he can't even tell what's happening in his life.

Not even in the slightest
NJPs doesn't have even a small grasp on where his life is going.

I'm so fucking down and I'm so tired of getting through it
NJP is extremely unhappy and he can't deal with it anymore.

Gotta scream it to myself get off my ass and fucking do it
He's telling himself to get up, be proactive and accomplish his goals.

I could never fix the pieces that were broken if I glue it
Just like an object, if the pieces are too damaged or the cracks too large, repairing it with glue wouldn't be effective.

I'm just tryna catch a break I'm getting baked to get me through it
NJPs is getting high so he can take a breather from his despair.

I don't exist and I don't know my name
NJP is having an identity crisis and is feeling nonexistent.

I'm just a ghost and I'm feeling insane
NJPs is stating that he has reduced himself to feeling like a ghost, and that he's now losing his sanity.

Got to keep going I'm chasing the fame
He feels that becoming famous will help him feel better and so he continues to chase it.

Stack gold like I'm Midas we one in the same
NJPs feels like he and Midas (Greek myth who could turn everything he touched into gold) are similar since they both want to accumulate lots of gold.

Big bag in my dreams
The large bag that he carries is still prominent in his dreams.

I'm so fucking sad but I won't leave
He's in a miserable place but he doesn't want to back down and abandon his dreams.

Cause I can't leave
He's saying he can't leave because he has to pursue his dreams.

Gotta live out my dreams
He needs to persist and live out his dreams.

Gotta live out my dreams yeah
This phrase emphasizes that he's determined to live out his dreams, no matter how difficult it may be.