LONELY ROAD
NJP Lyrics
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Hurt myself for you to let go
Why we put ourself up like fake product
I say we you don't see the misconduct
Inhale exhale left lane we faster
Pretty girl baggage feels everlasting
Inhale exhale left is the tragic
Pretty girl could've never seen a beautiful messageMight have held your hand through everything
But pushed too far can't catch
Now I'm falling endlessly feel my anxious attachment
Where'd you go, where'd you go, where'd you go
I don't know, check my phone, check my phone
Oh how'd I know, how'd I know, how'd I know
Now I can't be known
She beat me up like a dead horse
I'm ahead of this race
First place for the losers
Ain't fake but whatcha say
Don't match your self inflicted heartache
I've been going down this lonely road
Hurt myself for you to let go
Why we put ourself up like fake product
I say we you don't see the misconduct
Inhale exhale left lane we faster
Pretty girl baggage feels everlasting
Inhale exhale left is the tragic
Pretty girl could've never seen a beautiful message
Sounds worse the second time coming from ya mouth
Weren't ready why the fuck you display yourself
Free the Mandem with you coke addiction please do
Not be your hell I'm seeing you Kurt Cobain yourself
Are you in Nirvana or in a Sauna
Hot as hell but lashing out I see the drama
Be part of a different crowd
Are we in Nirvana I'm feeling the Karma
Cold as hell but showing love enough of the trauma
If you hurt me I'll give you real and stand by ya
I'll stand by ya
I've been going down this lonely road
Hurt myself for you to let go
Why we put ourself up like fake product
I say we you don't see the misconduct
Inhale exhale left lane we faster
Pretty girl baggage feels everlasting
Inhale exhale left is the tragic
Pretty girl could've never seen a beautiful message
In the song “LONELY ROAD” by NJP, the lyrics convey a deep sense of inner conflict and emotional turmoil while navigating a turbulent relationship. The opening lines suggest that the singer has been on a metaphorical “lonely road,” indicating feelings of isolation and searching for direction. The mention of hurting himself for someone else to let go highlights a self-sacrificial tendency, possibly emphasizing the pain endured for the sake of someone else's emotional journey. The repeated use of “we” implies a shared responsibility or experience, yet also points to a disconnection; the singer feels that their partner is blind to the underlying issues, or “misconduct,” that plague their relationship. This differentiation between perception and reality feeds into the idea that they may be presenting a facade to the outside world, likening their emotional struggle to a "fake product."
The refrain of “inhale exhale left lane we faster” introduces a sense of urgency and perhaps escapism in how they cope with their circumstances. The imagery conjured up by “pretty girl baggage feels everlasting” indicates that the external beauty or desirability of a partner comes with emotional weight and complexities that are often overlooked. The contradiction of moving “left is the tragic” suggests that although they may be trying to take control and move forward, they are still bound to sorrow and regret from the past. Furthermore, the mention that the girl “could’ve never seen a beautiful message” indicates a lost potential for meaningful communication or understanding between them, which adds layers to their emotional disconnect.
As the narrative unfolds, the singer's feelings of abandonment are heightened by repeated questions like “Where'd you go?” and the disorientation that follows. The act of checking their phone becomes emblematic of their anxious attachment; it shows their desire for connection but also highlights their vulnerability. The line “She beat me up like a dead horse” suggests a relentless cycle of pain and emotional exhaustion, as the singer feels both physically and mentally drained yet is ironically positioned “first place for the losers.” This paradox showcases the battle of feeling ahead in a race while simultaneously grappling with heartbreak and emotional turmoil, reflecting how one can feel successful in certain aspects of life while failing emotionally.
In later verses, NJP vividly captures moments of self-reflection and the acknowledgment of unhealthy habits, drawing a parallel between personal struggles and those of his partner, including references to addiction and the destructive behaviors that accompany overwhelming emotional pain. The juxtaposition of being "in Nirvana" versus "in a Sauna" illustrates the contrast between fleeting moments of happiness and the suffocating reality of life’s challenges. The repeated theme of trauma and the desire to stand by someone clashing with the realization of needing to free oneself from what holds them back creates a poignant portrait of resilience against the backdrop of heartache. Ultimately, the song encapsulates the raw emotions tied to love, loss, and the often lonely journey of seeking healing amidst chaos.
Line by Line Meaning
I've been going down this lonely road
I've been traveling a path of isolation and solitude.
Hurt myself for you to let go
I've inflicted pain upon myself so that you can find the freedom to move on.
Why we put ourself up like fake product
Why do we present ourselves as something artificial, lacking authenticity?
I say we you don't see the misconduct
I include us both, yet you fail to acknowledge the wrongdoing happening between us.
Inhale exhale left lane we faster
By breathing through our struggles, we push ahead and speed down this challenging path.
Pretty girl baggage feels everlasting
The emotional burdens that come with being involved with someone beautiful seem to never fade.
Inhale exhale left is the tragic
As we navigate this sorrowful journey, we breathe through the pain.
Pretty girl could've never seen a beautiful message
The girl I admire has failed to recognize the positive intentions behind my words.
Might have held your hand through everything
I may have supported you through all of life's challenges.
But pushed too far can't catch
However, I've overextended myself and can no longer keep up.
Now I'm falling endlessly feel my anxious attachment
Currently, I find myself in a constant spiral of anxiety and emotional reliance.
Where'd you go, where'd you go, where'd you go
I search for your presence, wondering where you have disappeared to.
I don't know, check my phone, check my phone
I am uncertain, repeatedly looking at my phone for any sign of communication from you.
Oh how'd I know, how'd I know, how'd I know
I question how I could have anticipated this unfolding situation.
Now I can't be known
I feel invisible and misunderstood in this moment.
She beat me up like a dead horse
She relentlessly criticizes me, as if I'm already defeated.
I'm ahead of this race
I feel that I have progressed beyond others in this struggle.
First place for the losers
Despite being in a winning position, it feels futile as we are all suffering.
Ain't fake but whatcha say
I'm genuine, yet your words seem disconnected from reality.
Don't match your self inflicted heartache
Your own pain doesn't align with the truth of your situation.
I've been going down this lonely road
I've continued my journey through isolation and solitude.
Hurt myself for you to let go
I've caused myself pain to allow you the space to leave.
Why we put ourself up like fake product
Why do we present ourselves unrealistically to the world?
I say we you don't see the misconduct
I refer to both of us, yet you remain unaware of how we’ve erred.
Inhale exhale left lane we faster
Breathing through our hardships, we accelerate ahead on our journey.
Pretty girl baggage feels everlasting
The emotional weight that accompanies a relationship with someone alluring seems infinite.
Inhale exhale left is the tragic
As we navigate this difficult route, we endure hardship with each breath.
Pretty girl could've never seen a beautiful message
The girl I admire has failed to appreciate the honest feelings in my communication.
Sounds worse the second time coming from ya mouth
Hearing your words again makes them feel even more painful.
Weren't ready why the fuck you display yourself
You weren't prepared for this; why do you present yourself so openly?
Free the Mandem with you coke addiction please do
Please break free from your substance dependency and help others do the same.
Not be your hell I'm seeing you Kurt Cobain yourself
I wish you could avoid self-destructive behavior reminiscent of tragic figures like Kurt Cobain.
Are you in Nirvana or in a Sauna
Are you experiencing bliss or suffering, given the intensity of your emotions?
Hot as hell but lashing out I see the drama
Despite your fiery temper, the chaos in your life is palpable.
But you always wanna bring it back
You consistently attempt to return to a previous state or connection.
Be part of a different crowd
You seek to align yourself with new social groups.
Are we in Nirvana I'm feeling the Karma
Are we experiencing bliss, or are we facing the consequences of our actions?
Cold as hell but showing love enough of the trauma
Though the situation feels harsh, there's still love; it’s time to move past the pain.
If you hurt me I'll give you real and stand by ya
Despite the hurt you've caused me, I will remain genuine and supportive.
I'll stand by ya
I will continue to support you no matter what happens.
I've been going down this lonely road
I've been traversing a path of isolation and desolation.
Hurt myself for you to let go
I've caused myself pain in the hope of providing you the freedom to depart.
Why we put ourself up like fake product
Why do we choose to present ourselves as artificial, rather than genuine?
I say we you don't see the misconduct
I refer to us collectively, yet you overlook the faults in our relationship.
Inhale exhale left lane we faster
With each breath, we drive faster down this complex and challenging path.
Pretty girl baggage feels everlasting
The emotional complexities tied to a beautiful girl seem to persist indefinitely.
Inhale exhale left is the tragic
As we navigate this sorrowful journey, we breathe through the inevitable difficulties.
Pretty girl could've never seen a beautiful message
The girl I find captivating has not recognized the positive essence of my words.
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Noah Perron
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