Kills was born in Bradford, West Yorkshire, UK, to an Afro-Jamaican father and Uruguayan mother, where she attended Bradford Girls' Grammar School. In addition, she studied classical drama at the London Academy of Music and Dramatic Art. She stated in a post on her blog on social website, MySpace that she grew up flying between London and Florida, where she had relatives, resulting in a mixed American and English accent.
Kills made her acting debut at age 9 in 1995 in New Voices. She had a regular role as Sima on the TV sitcom "All About Me" and also played Amy Franks in the BBC's long-running radio drama "The Archers". She began writing songs at 14, some of which were featured in films and television shows, including "Bring It On 4", "Sleepover", "Just My Luck", and "Entourage". After finishing with "The Archers" in 2003, Kills began pursuing a music career and attributes her musical breakthrough to winning a Radio 1 MC Battle in Leeds under the name "Candy Rapper" in 2003. She signed to the UK record company "Adventures in Music" and released her first single Don't Play Nice under the name Verbalicious in February 2005. Kills' told W that her childhood nickname from her mother was "Verbal" because she talked and sang a lot. She adopted the name and variations of it as her stage name at some points during her career.
While writing music for films, Kills posted her self-produced and written demo extended play, "Womannequin" on music social website MySpace in 2007 that attracted the attention of blogger Perez Hilton in 2008, her song received 2 million plays on the website and Kills reached the top of the unsigned artists chart. With offers coming in for concerts and festivals, Kills moved to Los Angeles. In LA, Kills was approached by producers, A&R and labels with contracts. A DJ introduced her to will.i.am after hearing her demo and learning that she did not have a record deal. In January 2008, will.i.am signed her to his record label, "will.i.am Music Group". She did not sign right away as she had reservations about the music industry and will.i.am had to go to London a month later to convince her to record with him. During this time she also co-wrote and appeared on They Talk Shit About Me by French recording artist M. Pokora and met underground director Guillaume Doubet, who would go on to direct many of her videos, in Paris.
Kills explained in an interview that she adopted the stage name Natalia Kills at the behest of her record company, which found "Natalia Cappuccini" hard to pronounce. She had taken on her grandmother's family name a few years prior. She explained in an interview that her stage name is based on the phrase "you killed it", and represents her tendency to be a perfectionist. Kills released her debut album "Perfectionist" in April 2011 in Germany following a top ten placing by the first single, "Mirrors". The album was described as a concept album by Kills, proving that perfection is attainable. It features production by Jeff Bhasker and Fernando Garibay, who had worked with Lady Gaga. The album was accompanied by four singles, Mirrors, Wonderland, Free and Kill My Boyfriend. The first three singles were minor hits in some European countries but failed to chart in the US or UK. Kills opened for Kelis' European All Hearts Tour, as well as supported Robyn on her Body Talk Tour in November 2010 and early 2011. She also supported Ke$ha on the UK leg of her Get Sleazy Tour. Throughout August and September 2011, Kills supported Katy Perry on her California Dreams Tour for eight dates in Europe and São Paulo, Brazil. She also opened for the Black Eyed Peas over the summer of 2011 in Europe.
Kills is featured on a Junior Caldera single, Lights Out (Go Crazy), along with Far East Movement. It was released on March 13, 2012. Kills also features in Tatana's single, You Can't Get in My Head (If You Can't Get in My Bed).
On September 5, the singer announced new video entitled "Controversy" to start the promotion of her sophomore studio album entitled Trouble that's scheduled for release early 2013 through Cherrytree and Interscope Records. She also revealed the artwork with the official viral video.
Kills called Kate Bush and Alanis Morissette her most important musical influences, highlighting them as emotional artists who wrote honestly about their own experiences. She has also gone on to cite Gwen Stefani as her hero. She also claims that Depeche Mode, Prince, Vanity 6 and Freddie Mercury inspire her live performances.
In June of 2015, Kills announced over Twitter that her next album would feature a band, and that her days as "Natalia Kills" are over. She has stated "I always wanted to start a band. I adore Hole & Garbage so that's what i'll do next. I need to go darker + wilder".
In early 2016, Sinclair started a band, Cruel Youth. Their first song, "Mr. Watson", was released on Soundcloud in February, that was then followed by "Diamond Days" in April, which was also released on iTunes. Their third single ,"Hatefuck", was released in early September along with the release of their debut EP +30mg on 16 September.
06. Love Is a Suicide
Natalia Kills Lyrics
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When it's pumpin' like a factory
Ooh, you like your words to cut
You like to choose the best artillery
I wonder who you're thinkin' of
Who am I
Am I the epitome
Of everything you hate
You love me like an enemy
You can run, you can hide
But sooner or later
It's gonna cut like a knife
Sooner or later
Nowhere to go
I'm already inside
You know
No one'll love ya like I love ya
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
It feels so surgical
How you dissect every mistake I make
You're like an animal
You bite me hard with every breath I take?
And when I'm on the edge?
You won't let me fall
Rope around my neck
But you won't take it off
And I'm hearin' voices sayin'
It's time that you know it
Go ahead if you mean it
Go 'head if you mean it
You can run, you can hide
But sooner or later
It's gonna cut like a knife
Sooner or later
Nowhere to go
I'm already ready
You know
No one'll love ya like I love ya
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
Close your eyes
Count to 10
Take the bullet out again
Say my name
Hit me hard
Put that gun right to my heart
Bang
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
The song "Love Is a Suicide" by Natalia Kills explores the themes of toxic love and the power dynamics between two people. The song's opening lines, "You like the smell of blood / When it's pumpin' like a factory" set the tone of the song, suggesting that the person addressed in the song likes to engage in destructive behaviour. The lyrics suggest that the singer is in a relationship with someone who enjoys causing pain and uses words as weapons. The line "You like to choose the best artillery" implies that this person is very calculated in their cruelty.
The chorus repeats the phrase "Love is a suicide," which suggests that the singer understands that the relationship is unhealthy but is unable to break away from it. The line "No one'll love ya like I love ya" highlights the power dynamic at play, with the singer being aware that they are the only one who will put up with the other person's behaviour.
The bridge of the song includes the lyrics "Close your eyes / Count to 10 / Take the bullet out again / Say my name / Hit me hard / Put that gun right to my heart," which imply that both people in the relationship are aware of the danger they pose to each other but are unable to end the relationship. Overall, the song paints a bleak picture of a toxic relationship and the power dynamics at play within it.
Line by Line Meaning
You like the smell of blood
When it's pumpin' like a factory
You enjoy the thrill of danger and adrenaline with every heartbeat.
Ooh, you like your words to cut
You like to choose the best artillery
You take pleasure in using hurtful words, and carefully selecting the most painful verbal attacks.
I wonder who you're thinkin' of
Who am I
I am unsure of your true intentions, and whether or not I am the object of your affection or hatred.
Am I the epitome
Of everything you hate
And you desire
You seem to simultaneously embody everything that repulses and attracts me.
You love me like an enemy
Your affections are so intense and destructive that they resemble the emotions of a sworn enemy.
You can run, you can hide
But sooner or later
It's gonna cut like a knife
Sooner or later
Nowhere to go
I'm already inside
You know
No one'll love ya like I love ya
You may try to escape my grasp, but eventually the pain and love we share will catch up to you. Nowhere you go can protect you from the intense emotions I have for you, for no one will love you as I do.
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
'Cause love is a suicide
Love is a suicide
Love, as we experience it, is a self-destructive force that can cause immense pain and turmoil, ultimately leading to our own demise.
It feels so surgical
How you dissect every mistake I make
You're like an animal
You bite me hard with every breath I take?
You analyze and pick apart every flaw and mistake I make with the precision of a surgeon. Yet at the same time, you seem to be an untamed and fierce animal, biting into me with every breath I take.
And when I'm on the edge?
You won't let me fall
Rope around my neck
But you won't take it off
Even when I feel like I'm about to fall off the edge, you keep me tethered to you with a rope around my neck, prolonging the agony and pain we share.
And I'm hearin' voices sayin'
It's time that you know it
Go ahead if you mean it
Go 'head if you mean it
Internal voices are urging me to confront and acknowledge the intensity of our complicated relationship, and to take action if I am truly prepared to face the consequences.
Close your eyes
Count to 10
Take the bullet out again
Say my name
Hit me hard
Put that gun right to my heart
Bang
Imagery of playing Russian roulette emphasizes the dangerous and unpredictable nature of our love, as well as our willingness to indulge in self-inflicted pain and danger.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: FERNANDO GARIBAY, MICHAEL ANTHONY WARREN, NATALIA CAPPUCCINI
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