The Letter
Natania Lyrics

I remember me tugging your shirt
I vividly recall holding onto your shirt while you tried to leave

While your pulling away
As you were attempting to distance yourself from me

Your eyes were so cold but I could tell
Even though you appeared distant and uninterested, I could sense that you wanted to stay

You were begging to stay
You were silently pleading with me to convince you to stay

I can still feel your button up shirt
I can still recall the texture of your shirt as I clung to it

Holding all my tears
As I cried, your shirt absorbed all of my tears

And even when you were telling me to let go
Despite your insistence that I move on from our relationship

I could feel you lingering on and on
I sensed that you were still attached to me, even if only slightly

I’ll write you a letter
I'll put my emotions into words and send them to you

I’ll put it away
I'll store the letter rather than immediately sending it to you

Maybe December’s when I’ll send it your way
Perhaps I'll wait until the end of the year to send you the letter

Maybe by next year
If I wait a little longer

Things would have changed
Perhaps the situation will have evolved by then

Cause I’ll be better
I'll have improved myself by then

And you’ll be better for me
You'll also have made positive changes for yourself, which will benefit our relationship

Now that your gone and I’m growing I can finally see that
Since you've left and I've had time to mature

You were the ocean and no matter how hard I swam
You were a powerful, unattainable force in my life

I’d never make it past your wave
I'd never be able to fully reach or understand you

I can still feel your salty lips kiss away my fears
I still vividly recall the sensation of your kisses as they calmed my worries

I can still feel your ocean breeze whispers in my ear
I can still hear your comforting words as they brushed past my ear

I’ll ride my bicycle to our grocery store
I'll go to our old grocery store

Our song comes on when I walk through the door
The song that reminds me of you plays the moment I enter

I’ll order chai latte at our old cafй
I'll order the same drink we used to share at the coffee shop

When Tthey ask where you are I don't know what to say
When others inquire about your whereabouts, I'm unsure how to respond

Maybe by next year
Perhaps if I wait a little longer

You would have changed
You may have evolved or grown by then

Oh I’ll be better
I'm confident that I'll have made progress and will be in a better state of mind

And you’ll be better for me
Your changes will benefit our relationship and bring us closer together