F*!#in' Up
Neil Young Lyrics


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Mindless drifter on the road
Carry such an easy load
It's how you look, and how you feel
You must have a heart of steel

Why do I keep fuckin' up?

I can see you on a hill
Comatose but walking still
Curves beneath your flowing gown
Only I could bring you down

Why do I keep fuckin' up?

Dogs that lick and dogs that bite
Hounds that howl through the night
Broken leashes are all over the floor
Keys left hanging in a swinging door

Why do I keep fuckin' up?





Keep fuckin' up!

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Neil Young & Crazy Horse's song "F!#in' Up" describe the thoughts of a mindless drifter who is carrying an easy load on the road. The drifter is struggling with his own inadequacies and wonders why he keeps messing up. He sees a comatose figure on a hill, who is walking mindlessly but yet her gown is flowing with curves that entice the drifter. The drifter feels like only he could bring her down from that hill.


The drifter then describes the dogs that lick and those that bite, how they howl through the night, and the broken leashes that scatter across the floor. The scene creates a metaphor for the drifter's own behavior, as though he's just as uncontrolled as those dogs, in need of restraint, and he sees the keys left hanging in the swinging door as a symbol of his inability to leave his current situation behind.


The repeated phrase "Why do I keep fuckin' up?" shows the frustration and self-blame the drifter is grappling with. Despite this struggle, there is an underlying sense of hopelessness in the lyrics that suggests the drifter's flaws may be too deeply ingrained within him to overcome.


Line by Line Meaning

Mindless drifter on the road
I am aimlessly traveling through life.


Carry such an easy load
I don't have many responsibilities or burdens to bear.


It's how you look, and how you feel
My appearance and emotions dictate my behavior.


You must have a heart of steel
I need to be emotionally strong to endure my lifestyle.


Why do I keep fuckin' up?
I keep making mistakes and I don't know why.


I can see you on a hill
I can envision a graceful and peaceful image of you.


Comatose but walking still
You are physically present, but emotionally distant.


Curves beneath your flowing gown
Your feminine and alluring figure is revealed by your clothes.


Only I could bring you down
I am the only one capable of causing you harm or distress.


Dogs that lick and dogs that bite
There are friendly and hostile people in the world.


Hounds that howl through the night
The sounds of the night can be ominous and unsettling.


Broken leashes are all over the floor
People often fail to control their impulses and actions.


Keys left hanging in a swinging door
Opportunities are available and easy to access, but often neglected or abandoned.


Why do I keep fuckin' up?
Despite my observations and experiences, I am plagued by my own mistakes.


Keep fuckin' up!
I am frustrated and repeating my mistakes, but can't seem to break the cycle.




Lyrics © Wixen Music Publishing, Silver Fiddle, Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., WORDS & MUSIC A DIV OF BIG DEAL MUSIC LLC
Written by: Frank M Sampedro, Neil Young

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

@TheRAGE154

Mindless drifter on the road
Carry such an easy load
It's how you look, and how you feel
You must have a heart of steel
Why do I keep fuckin' up?
I can see you on a hill
Comatose but walking still
Curves beneath your flowing gown
Only I could bring you down
Why do I keep fuckin' up?
Dogs that lick and dogs that bite
Hounds that howl through the night
Broken leashes are all over the floor
Keys left hanging in a swinging door
Why do I keep fuckin' up?
Keep fuckin' up!



All comments from YouTube:

@neilyoungchannel

Hi, this is Neil. Link to the NYA info-card for this song with press, documents, manuscripts, photos, videos. Look around NYA for fun and listening! ALL my music in high resolution at https://neilyoungarchives.com/info-card?track=t1991_0227_05

@acomplexkid

AcomplexKid.com thinks: Thank you Neil and it's awesome for you to have writing the theme song of my life. And no, I'm not done yet. Peace-out, Mikey

@MrCretemaniam

Thanks Man !!!

@MrCretemaniam

Hey Neil....I know it's ancient history but does it seem possible that about 1972 you could have been cruising with Stephen Stills in a beigh colored pick up from the Topanga Center to the valley ( which fortunately has not yet been sucked into cracks in the earth...yet ) I was 13 and hitchhiking from the beach home to Canoga and 2 guys picked me up like that . The thing that kind of ties it in for me is you guys had a guitar in the cab of the truck between ya and some beer so it was crowded. So the possible blonde haired Stephen guy goes " Hey kid can you hold this guitar back there and be real careful with it !?!? " It was a D28 Martin pretty sure , my dad being a professional player . I didn't know who you guys were yet but shortly thereafter got into your music and saw your picture on album covers and went "Wow , I think these guys picked me up hitchhiking " So where you around Topanga in '71 ? Just trying to figure out if I hallucinated the whole thing or not ! Thanks for everything !

@marciocouto3543

@@MrCretemaniam wait... 71 or 72?

@MrCretemaniam

@@marciocouto3543 Do you mean what year it was that I think Stephen Stills driving and Neil in the truck picked me up hitchhiking in Topanga ? I think I was 13 or 14 ..... leaning toward 14 so that would make it 1972. I'm 62 now . Why do you ask ? If I may ask ?

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@joshwilltraveladventuresco5452

I worked on this music video. Shot at the Troubadour in West Hollywood. Neil is so f*ckin' cool. He wanted a real PA system (not playback) to play it LIVE and LOUD. And he wanted an audience, so I'm sitting at one of the tables down front watching them perform for the master shots. And they shot a live "Farmer John" vid when I was off set too. We also shot the "Mansion on a Hill" video that week at Queen of Angels Hospital.

@artvallejos1460

We Were Born To Rock We'll Never Be Opera Stars.

@chrissemenko628

Cool story!

@SuperC888

Cool

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