Cold
Nerdee Lyrics

Keep my head way down
I feel defeated and depressed, so I bury my head in my pillow to hide from the world.

On this soft bed I sleep in
I'm using my bed as a safe haven to escape reality and rest my weary mind.

Trying to rise up
Despite feeling low, I make an effort to overcome my inner turmoil and improve myself.

But something's wrong deep inside me
I'm struggling with an internal issue that is hard to identify, let alone resolve.

And I don't mind if you're not here with me
I'm so detached and disillusioned that I don't even need your presence to feel complete.

'Cause all I do is waste another day
I'm stuck in a rut and don't make productive use of my time; it's all slipping away from me.

And I am filled with bad blood inside out
My emotions are turbulent and negative, and it's affecting my mind, body, and soul.

And I don't care
I've become numb and apathetic to everything that used to matter to me.

Listening to the phone
I'm desperately hoping you'll call me, even though I know you won't.

Ring a thousand times
The phone keeps ringing, but it's never the call I'm waiting for; it's torture.

I pull the cord of the wall
I try to shut out the noise by unplugging the phone, even though it's irrational.

Just to make sure that it's not you
I can't resist the urge to check if you've finally reached out to me, even though it's unlikely.

And I don't know if I'm serious with myself
I question my own motives and sincerity in my actions and thoughts.

Don't care if a car drives over me today
I'm so detached from life that I wouldn't mind dying, be it by accident or suicide.

I'm prepared to see the other side
Death seems like a viable option to escape my pain and emptiness.

All alone
Even in death, I'd be alone, which I've grown accustomed to by now.

With every move that you make
Your actions affect me deeply and further damage my fragile heart and psyche.

Little bit my heart you break
Each time you hurt me, it chips away at my heart until it becomes numb and unresponsive.

That's why it's made out of stone now
My heart has turned into a cold, hardened mass that shields me from further pain and vulnerability.

With every word that you say
Your words can cut deep and cause lasting damage to my delicate soul and self-confidence.

Little bit my soul you take
Each time you disregard my feelings, it diminishes my very essence and self-worth.

That's why I'm a little bit cold now
I'm no longer the same person you used to know; I've become jaded and emotionally distant.

Close my eyes for a while
I retreat into my thoughts and memories, trying to find solace and a sense of purpose.

I feel these memories trapped inside
My past experiences and regrets haunt me and prevent me from moving on.

There's no words left to say
I'm at a loss for words to describe how much pain and confusion I'm going through.

This silent moment keeps on blinding
The silence only amplifies my inner turmoil and makes me feel more helpless and isolated.

But I put all the hope in the love
Although I've been disappointed and let down so many times, I still believe in the power of love.

That I thought we shared
I held onto the hope that we had a deep, meaningful connection that could withstand anything.

All the emotions and dreams
I invested all my emotions and dreams into this relationship, but they were never reciprocated.

Though you never cared
I have come to terms with the fact that you never truly loved me or valued our bond.

I cried my tears on the nights
I've shed countless tears of pain and heartbreak, silently crying myself to sleep.

That you weren't here
Your absence and indifference intensified my pain and longing for you.

And everything is clear
I've finally reached a point of clarity and acceptance, realizing that I need to move on and heal.