Thoughts
New Gen Lyrics

They say the homes where the heart is
The popular saying is that a home is where someone's heart is, which means that my home is my neighborhood where I grew up with my friends.

Then my heart's where the hood is 'cah my homes up in the hood that's where it started
Since my house is in the neighborhood, the place where I grew up with my friends, the 'hood' is where I feel like I belong.

With my niggas we ain't parted
My friends and I are still together and we are not separated.

The same mind frame
My friends and I have a similar mindset.

Eat the whole cake then lick the plates then we want afters
We are ambitious, and we want more once we achieve a goal.

Their hoping that I drop off or get nick or in the box
Some people are hoping for me to fail, go to jail, or even get killed.

Or stay up on them blocks shotting them rocks and never make a lot
Those same people expected me to stay in the neighborhood and sell drugs without much success.

Got to much to grind for
I have too much to work for.

To much to die for
I have a lot of things to live for.

To much dedication I'm filthy rich in the making, ay
I am so dedicated that I am destined to become successful.

I'm on a mission where there's marble in the kitchen
I have a mission to achieve my dream of becoming successful to the point where I have luxurious items like marble in my kitchen.

And the gardens out of vision
My dream is so big that I cannot see everything that is involved in achieving it, like a beautiful garden that is out of sight.

Ending deep down in the distance
My dream is far away, but it is at the end of the path I am taking.

Wid a diamond who ain't obsessed 'bout herself and she just listens
At the end of my journey, I want to find a partner who is not self-centered and is willing to listen.

Who respect me for success but don't judge me how I did it
My partner should have enough respect for my success that they won't judge me based on the method I used to achieve it.

Bruddas in the same position, ay
My friends are in a similar situation as me.

Now that's winning
That is what success is.

Right now I'm in a race and my feet dem are fucking killing
I am currently in a race to achieve my goals, and it is causing my feet to hurt.

I'm tryna stay ahead I ain't shoulder rubbing to fit in
I am trying to stay ahead in the race without sacrificing my integrity.

'Cah niggas here either trap or they begging man for a bring in
Because people here either sell drugs or beg for money, I have to stay focused on my goals.

Straight head shots for dem niggas dat stay singing
Those who are not focused on their goals and only sing about their success may face repercussions.

See I can hold a note but you'll never hear 'bout me singing
I have a talent in singing, but I don't use it to gain fame and instead focus on my goals.

See I could write a book of all the drama that I been in
I could fill a book with all the struggles and hardships I have faced in my life.

But fuck feeling sorry for myself I'm still living
Instead of feeling bad for myself, I am still pushing through my struggles and living my life.

To that girl that loved I won't forget you
To the girl I used to love, I still remember you.

That conversation by the bridge on the bench it was special
The conversation we had by the bridge while sitting on the bench was particularly memorable and meaningful.

It's funny how we fell so deep in such a short time
It's strange that we developed such deep feelings in such a short period.

We would go halves on a date it weren't all mine
We would split the bill on a date in a way that was not romantic.

Sort of like a friendship
Our relationship was more akin to a platonic friendship.

Told her that I loved her and I meant it
When I said I loved her, I was being genuine.

Then I broke her heart and weren't man enough to mend it
I broke her heart but did not step up to fix it and apologize.

But years past and tears dried
Years went by, and the heartbreak eventually faded.

You built walls I built mine
We both put up emotional barriers between us.

You always said I use to show my feelings at the wrong time
You thought I never showed my emotions at the appropriate moments.

Maybe it was, maybe it weren't but lemme change up
Maybe you were right or wrong, but I will change my approach.

I'm tryna live the dream while these haters hoping I wake up
I am trying to live my dream while others hope for me to fail.

Truth is I've been awake
In reality, I have been aware of what's going on around me.

Been plotting on some bigger cake
I have been planning to achieve something even greater.

Word to rave holidays the only time I take a break
I only take a break during rave holidays.

To be honest I don't know where my mind be
Honestly, I'm not sure where my head is at.

I'm staring dead in this mirror I'm tryna find me
I'm looking into a mirror, searching for myself.

Reasoning wid Jus
I am having a conversation with my friend Jus.

He's like my unrelated Siamese
He's like a brother from another mother, someone who's always there for me.

Always pushing me to write 'cah the scene ain't got nothing like me
Jus encourages me to write because he believes that my music is unique.

He's says Live life love it
Jus advises me to enjoy life and love what I do.

Tek gyal fuck it
He also suggests that I should explore my sexuality and have sex with women.

went and got that 16 plate car wid da buckets
I bought a car with a fashionable 16 plate and custom bucket seats.

Half German girl tryna put a baby in her oven
I'm seeing a half-German girl who wants to have a baby with me.

So I hold it in after the session after we fucking but
I avoid impregnating her after our sexual encounters.

I ain't ready for another child I ain't learn my lesson
I am not prepared to have another child, and I have not learned from my past mistakes related to parenting.

Not my first but my second that I hardly mention
I already had a child before, but I rarely talk about it.

They never got to live and I'm a part the reason that is
My previous child did not get the chance to live, and I played a part in that.

Selfish mind religious crime
My selfish mindset has committed a religious sin.

Man I need the Masjid
I need to go to the mosque to seek forgiveness for my sins.

I fell off deen and went and got my P's up
I lost touch with my faith and focused on making money.

Yeah I'm better off for money but my situations fucked
Although I am better off financially, my overall situation is still messed up.

Working 7 days a week, there ain't no breaks out on that block
I work every day, even weekends, and there are no breaks when I'm selling drugs.

And if it ain't that dirty rock I'm selling tickets for that gwop
If I'm not selling drugs, I'm selling tickets to make money.

Cousins in jail, found guilty on the trial
My cousins are in jail after being found guilty in court.

But we're just some good kids tryna get it and get out
We are just good people who are trying to work hard and get out of our current situations.

While these niggas want the fame they only thinking 'bout the now
While some people want fame, they only think about their current situation.

I tell em what about your future nigga what about your future
I ask them to think about their future and what they want to achieve.

Kids growing up wishing that they never knew ya
The children who grow up around them may end up wishing they never knew them.

Man it's different 'round my local
The environment is different around my neighborhood compared to other areas.

I've been distant I ain't social
I have been distant and have not been socializing much lately.

Been stabbed chased niggas down and been chased down
I have been in risky situations, like being stabbed, chasing others, or being chased myself.

I've been bad it's all changed 'round I got a kid now
I used to be involved in negative things, but my life has changed since I had a child.

Oh no no, no no no
The artist emphasizes that they do not want something to happen.

Said oh no no, no no no
The artist repeats that they do not want something to happen.

Why you seem so brand new?
Why do you seem like a completely different person?

Why you seem so brand new?
The singer repeats their question.