Undertow
Nick Kingswell Lyrics

I was wading in the undertow
Feeling lost and aimless, not knowing which direction to take in life, I found myself caught in the pull of the undertow.

Set adrift with feather-weight-like bones
Without the solidity and weight of purpose, my indecisiveness made me feel weightless and unanchored like feathers being carried along by the current.

Unaware of where my heart would flow
Without clear intentions or direction, my heart was as adrift and unpredictable as the undertow that pulled me aimlessly along.

Can't touch the bottom
The depth of my situation was beyond my grasp, and I struggled to get a foothold on anything solid or reliable.

Sitting to a tumble
Stymied by confusion and disorientation, my emotions were thrown and shaken by the waves crashing around me.

Waves that me shake out
The turbulence of the water jolted me out of my comfort zone and pushed me to confront the unknown in my life.

Out of my skin
The unfamiliarity and uncertainty of my circumstances made me feel like I was out of my element and struggling to adapt.

Never been so easy
Navigating through life had never felt so difficult or confusing, and I struggled to make sense of my situation.

Losing my direction
Unable to see the way forward clearly, I felt like I was losing my sense of purpose and motivation.

Our bearings have me south of home
My sense of direction had been thrown off, and I found myself far from familiar surroundings or my typical way of life.

I've been wrong before
Having made mistakes in the past, I was worried about repeating them and making things worse for myself.

In the Waterfields
The metaphorical space where I found myself lost was like a vast and unfamiliar landscape of water, where anything could happen.

Like a friend I've not seen in years
Despite the sense of newness and strangeness in my situation, it felt oddly familiar and comforting in some ways.

So familiar and strange at once
The duality of my situation made it both uncomfortable and captivating for me as I struggled to find my way through it.

Like a lover whom lost her touch
The passion and familiarity of my old way of life had faded, and I felt as though I had lost a profound connection I once had.

At first I was hesitant
Initially unsure of how to handle my unfamiliar circumstances, I hesitated to make any big decisions or commitments.

Now it seems all so curious
Despite my initial hesitancy, I had become more intrigued and curious about the new situation I found myself in.

How I've wind up so far from home
I was surprised and puzzled by the unexpected turn my life had taken, and how far my current situation was from what I had originally planned for myself.

When I barely had left ashore
Despite not feeling particularly adventurous or daring, I had somehow ended up in deep waters without even realizing it.

I was dreaming of a love
In my mind, I had been clinging to a lost love as a symbol of stability and comfort, even though it was no longer realistic or attainable.

I lost I fell asleep within an autumn flow
The loss I had experienced had made me feel powerless and vulnerable, like a leaf swept away by an autumn wind.

I never knew I'd drift so far from home
Despite my hopes and plans for the future, I had ended up far from the familiar surroundings of my past experiences.

Undertow
The powerful and unpredictable pull of the sea had come to represent the larger, unstoppable forces at work in my life that I was struggling to understand and navigate.