Crush
Nick Ward Lyrics

Bad boy sitting in his room
A boy who's up to no good, just sitting in his room.

Tryna get high
Trying to get high on drugs.

Kiss the girls
The boy likes to flirt and kiss girls.

Don’t make them cry
He doesn't want to make the girls sad.

Look at him sitting on the sea floor
He is feeling hopeless and lost, like he is sitting at the bottom of the sea.

Doesn’t wanna live in his skin no more
He is uncomfortable with himself and wants to escape his own body.

I thought I lost myself
He is feeling lost and has lost his sense of identity.

I never understood me very well
He doesn't really understand himself or his own emotions.

Once I met a girl and our hearts turned black
He met a girl and things became intense and dark.

Once I’ve said goodbye
Once he says goodbye, he doesn't look back or come back.

I never come back
He never looks back or grants second chances.

Am I being too much?
He questions if he is too overwhelming or intense for people.

Little boy with a crush
He feels like he's just a silly little boy who has a crush.

I know I made that movie
He's aware of his accomplishments and the work he's done.

But I hardly ever cry
He doesn't cry very often.

I wanna when I’m sad
He wishes he could cry when he feels sad.

But my eyes stay dry
Even when he wants to cry, he physically can't.

I don’t care about your past
He doesn't care about a person's past experiences or mistakes.

You give me butterflies
The person he's interested in gives him a fluttery feeling in his stomach.

And nothing you could do
No matter what the person does, it won't change how he feels.

Could make the butterflies die
The person still gives him those fluttery feelings, no matter what happens.

You’re a freak
He sees the person as different and unique.

You’re just like me
Despite their differences, he sees similarities between them.

And i would like to keep you company
He wants to spend time with the person and not be alone.

It’s your voice
He is attracted to the sound of the person's voice.

It’s the way you move
He is also attracted to the way the person moves and carries themselves.

Will you stay?
He wants the person to stick around.

Because I want you to
He wants the person to stay because he likes them.

We’re the king and queen of self-doubt
Both he and the other person struggle with self-doubt and insecurity.

(Just tryna figure it out)
They're both just trying to figure things out and get through their struggles.

You make me wanna be a better man
The person makes him want to improve and be a better version of himself.

Not good enough - that’s just what I am
He feels like he is not good enough and can never measure up.

You look so perfect on your pedestal
He sees the person as amazing and impressive, like they're on a pedestal.

I hate myself (I live for you)
He has a deep self-hatred but still wants to be around the person he likes.

Am I being too much?
He continues to question if he is too intense for people.

Little boy with a crush
He's still just a silly little boy who has a crush and is trying to figure things out.

Just tryna figure it out
He's still just trying to figure things out and learn about himself.