I Lied
Nicki Minaj/Musicfire.in Lyrics

I lied, I lied, I lied
I told falsehoods multiple times

To keep you from breaking my heart
To avoid emotional pain from a potential heartbreak

Even though I said I didn't love you, I lied, I lied
Despite telling you I didn't have feelings, I actually did

Even though I said I didn't need you, I lied, I lied
Although I claimed that I didn't require your presence, that was untrue

Even though I said don't touch me, I lied, I lied
Although I instructed you to keep your distance, I didn't really mean it

I can't fall for you, can't give my all to you
I cannot allow myself to become emotionally invested in you

I can't let you think that Imma let the game stall for you
I won't let you believe that I'll pause my life for you

Gotta protect me, you gotta sweat me
I must look out for my well-being and ensure you prove yourself worthy of my attention

You said you thought you was ready
You claimed you were prepared for a relationship with me

And I said let's see
I was skeptical and decided to observe your actions and intentions

But I ain't mean that, I need some fucking proof
I didn't truly mean what I said and required evidence of your sincerity

'Cause what happens if I fall in love, Then you cut me loose
If I allow myself to feel affection for you and you end things, it will be devastating

You just a heartbreaker, won't let you break mine
You have a history of hurting others emotionally, but I won't let you do that to me

'Cause I'll be smashing windows
I will act aggressively and destructively if you cause me hurt

And cutting them break lines
I will prevent you from leaving by damaging your means of transportation

I thought eventually you would let me go
I believed that our relationship would naturally end at some point

That was my insecurities and my ego
My lack of trust and self-importance influenced my perspective

Missed my jump shot, missed my free throw
I failed to have a successful relationship with you

Miss the way we kiss miss, the d o
I reminisce about our romantic moments

Man, it was good while it lasted
Despite its impermanence, it was great for the time it lasted

That shit wasn't real, it was magic
Our connection was momentous, but ultimately illusory

If it was a record, It would have been classic
Our relationship had potential to be timeless

But fuck you though, orgasmic
Despite its eventual end, our intimacy was satisfying

This is what I gotta do to keep me from falling
I need to take these precautions to avoid becoming too emotionally involved

Stalling the truth
I'm hesitating to acknowledge my genuine feelings

Who knew what you'd do If I let you in
I cannot anticipate how you would behave if I allowed myself to be vulnerable with you

My mama ain't raised no fool
I won't let my emotions blind my judgment

I am not your usual typical type
I do not conform to typical relationship norms

Who would protect me if I never hide?
If I remain guarded, I won't have anyone to protect me from harm

Falling so fast, I am afraid of you
I cannot control the speed of my feelings and fear getting hurt

I lied, I lied, I lied
I was dishonest, repeatedly

To keep you from breaking my heart
To prevent myself from heartbreak

Even though I said fuck you, I lied, I lied
Although I expressed anger and aggression, I didn't truly feel that way

I lied
I wasn't truthful

'Cause who knew if I should let myself go with you
I was unsure if I should allow myself to be vulnerable with you

Who knows, who knows, so I lied
I was uncertain of the outcome of trusting you, so I fibbed

To keep you from breaking my heart
To protect myself from heartache

To keep you from breaking my heart
To avoid emotional pain from a potential heartbreak

Even though I said fuck you, I lied, I lied
Despite using harsh language, I didn't truly want you to leave