Dear Old Nicki Lyrics
Nicki Minaj Lyrics

Maybe you died 'cause everybody ask me where you at
People keep asking me where you are, but I believe you may have passed away.

I try to channel you in hopes that I could stare you back
I try to conjure your spirit to bring back your presence.

But its like every intersection we just missed each otha'
We never really found the opportunity to connect.

You got your fans waitin' tell me you ain't six feet unda'
Your fans are waiting for you, making me think that maybe you are not dead.

And tell me that you coming back that you just took a break
I want to believe that you'll come back soon, that you just needed a break.

Maybe I blamed you for everything that was my mistake
I may have unfairly put all the blame on you for things that were really my fault.

In hindsight I loved your rawness and I loved your edge
Looking back, I realized I appreciated your authenticity and your uniqueness.

'Cause it was you who talked me down from jumpin' off the ledge
You were the one who talked me out of making a mistake that would have cost me everything.

Your earrings bamboo, your long nails too
I remember all the little details of your appearance, like your bamboo earrings and long nails.

Your B.M.W. every time you came through
I recall how you used to drive your BMW every time you visited.

You was the braveheart
You were fearless and strong.

You stole Wayne heart
You captured Lil Wayne's heart.

You never switched it up
You always stayed true to yourself.

You played the same part
You never changed your role in our friendship.

But I needed to grow
I needed to mature and learn about myself.

And I needed to know
I needed to have a better understanding of myself.

That there were some things inside of me that I need to show
I had things inside of me that needed to be expressed and shared.

So I just deaded you
So I cut ties with you abruptly.

Left you in all black
I left you without any closure or explanation.

But dear old Nicki
But my dear old friend Nicki,

Please call back
Please reach out to me and reconnect.

Yo, did I chase the glitz and glamor
Did I prioritize fame and success over our friendship?

Money, fame and power
Did I get caught up in the wealth, fame, and success that came with my career?

'Cause if so that will forever go down my lamest hour
If that was the case, it would be my biggest regret.

I shoulda kept you with me gettin' at them nameless cowards
I should have kept you by my side, fighting back against our anonymous enemies.

There was no match for you, couldn't defeat your prowess
You were too powerful and fierce to be challenged or beaten.

I had to make them changes, I hope you understood
I had to change things in my life, and I hope you can understand and forgive me.

You see for every bad, I did a ton of good
Despite my mistakes, I did a lot of good things too.

But you was underground, and I was mainstream
While you were still in the underground music scene, I had become a mainstream artist.

I live the life now, that we would daydream
Now I'm living the life we used to daydream about together.

My only wish is you come enjoy it with me
I wish you were here to enjoy these experiences with me.

Get on them conference calls, go meet the lawyers with me
I want you to be a part of my business dealings and legal meetings.

The money came yea, tripled and quadrupled it
My income grew significantly and rapidly.

But I still miss us when we was on some stupid shit
I still miss our old, foolish conversations and antics.

But its still fuck the media
I still dislike the media for how they treated us.

They ridiculed you, never believed in ya
They treated you unfairly and were unwilling to believe in you.

They just deaded you
They abandoned and ignored you.

Left you in all black
They left you without hope or support.

But dear old Nicki
But my dear old friend Nicki,

Please call back
Please reach out to me and reconnect.

And yes I'm holdin you, holdin' you, holdin' you
I'm determined to keep holding onto our friendship.

Oh yes I'm holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you
I won't let go of you.

And yes I'm holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you
I'm holding onto you and our shared history.

To that
To the promise you made to always be there for me.