Borderline
Nico Collins Lyrics
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Drive through, ignore the warning signs
When things blow up I close my eyes
And shake it off as if it's justified
Wash the shame down with another drink
I get high I don't wanna overthink
My body's shaking, my head is weak
Life goes on new day same show
'Cuz if I change I could feel more low
So I do another encore, one more when it hurts the most
Calling it quits I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
I'm in purgatory
Middle of the story
Pulling back and forth from surrender and glory
All the pressure internally
It could very well be the death of me
Caught up in the middle
Center of the limbo
Seeing through the shards of a broken window
If the looking glass disagrees
It could very well be the death of me
Calling it quits I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
Calling it quits, I don't wanna admit
I'm too far gone but I'll never forget
What it feels like being young and dumb
Wondering who I'd become I don't know man
Losing all ambition
The angel on my right no I never listened
The voice in my left ear made the decisions
I'll the pay the price now 'cause I get what I'm givin'
(Get what I'm givin')
Calling it quits, I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind (I gotta make up my mind)
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
I look past all the flashing lights
(It could very well be the death of me)
Drive through ignore the warning signs
(It could very well be the death of me)
When things blow up I close my eyes (I'm left with what I am)
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
The lyrics to Nico Collins's song "Borderline" reveal the struggles of dealing with internal conflicts and trying to navigate through the pressures of life. The song captures the essence of being torn between surrender and glory and the consequences of making choices that may affect one's future. Despite the flashing lights and warning signs, the singer chooses to ignore them and continues to shake off the guilt associated with their choices. They seek a temporary escape through alcohol and drugs to avoid overthinking and dealing with the pain. The singer is well aware of the destructive path they have taken but finds it hard to reverse the damage done.
The song emphasizes the difficulty in admitting defeat when reaching a point of no return. The singer speaks of being stuck in the cracks and going down fast. The internal conflict between making the right choices and following their impulses is apparent. They mention being caught up in the middle and seeing through the shards of a broken window, symbolizing the frail state of their mind. The song ends with the singer acknowledging the gravity of their situation and being aware of their position on the borderline, unsure of their future and what lies ahead.
Line by Line Meaning
I look past all the flashing lights
I ignore the distractions in my life that prevent me from facing the truth
Drive through, ignore the warning signs
I choose to keep going, disregarding the signs that warn me of danger ahead
When things blow up I close my eyes
I try to avoid dealing with problems by shutting down emotionally
And shake it off as if it's justified
I justify my actions and dismiss my mistakes instead of taking responsibility for them
Wash the shame down with another drink
I use alcohol as a coping mechanism to numb the pain and guilt I feel inside
I get high I don't wanna overthink
I resort to self-destructive behaviors to distract myself from my problems rather than confronting them
My body's shaking, my head is weak
My physical and mental state is deteriorating because of the constant pressure and stress
But I'm too afraid to leave
I am scared of change and the unknown, so I choose to stay in my familiar but toxic situation
Life goes on new day same show
My life is a repetitive cycle of the same problems and issues that I refuse to address
'Cuz if I change I could feel more low
I fear that if I try to change my ways, I will feel even worse and more vulnerable
So I do another encore, one more when it hurts the most
I continue to engage in behaviors that harm me, despite knowing the consequences and the pain they cause
Calling it quits I don't wanna admit
I am reluctant to give up on my destructive habits and acknowledge that they are doing more harm than good
That I'm, that I'm
I am stuck in a difficult and painful situation
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
I am trapped and sinking deeper into despair and hopelessness as time passes
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
I need to make a decision and stop making excuses for my actions
My mind, my mind
My thoughts and emotions are causing me great distress
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
I have reached a point of no return and must face the consequences of my actions
I'm in purgatory
I am in a state of limbo, unsure of my fate and my future
Middle of the story
I am stuck in the middle of my own personal narrative, unable to move forward or backward
Pulling back and forth from surrender and glory
I am torn between giving up and surrendering to my problems or fighting and striving for success and happiness
All the pressure internally
I am my own worst enemy, pushing myself to the brink of collapse with my own thoughts and emotions
It could very well be the death of me
My current situation could lead to my downfall and ruin
Caught up in the middle
I am stuck in a difficult and complicated situation
Center of the limbo
I am in the heart of a confusing and uncertain situation with no clear way out
Seeing through the shards of a broken window
I have a distorted and incomplete view of my life, shaped by my own biases and negative thoughts
If the looking glass disagrees
If I see myself and my life in a negative light, it could worsen my situation and make things much worse
Calling it quits, I'm too far gone but I'll never forget
Even though I may be too invested in my current situation to change, I will always remember my past and the good times
What it feels like being young and dumb
I fondly remember the time when I was naive and carefree, without the burden and stresses of adult life
Wondering who I'd become I don't know man
I am uncertain about my future and who I will become, and it scares me
Losing all ambition
I have lost my drive and motivation to pursue my dreams and achieve my goals
The angel on my right no I never listened
I have ignored the voice of reason and conscience that tells me to change my ways and take responsibility for my actions
The voice in my left ear made the decisions
I have been guided by my own desires and impulses, without considering the consequences of my actions
I'll pay the price now 'cause I get what I'm givin'
I will suffer the consequences of my actions and behavior, as I am responsible for the choices I make
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
I cannot change the past, and must accept the consequences of my past actions and behavior
Writer(s): Christopher Collins, Charlene Collins
Contributed by Liliana V. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@rosiedd
I look past all the flashing lights
Drive through, ignore the warning signs
When things blow up I close my eyes
And shake it off as if it's justified
Wash the shame down with another drink
I get high I don't wanna overthink
My body's shaking, my head is weak
But I'm too afraid to leave
Life goes on new day same show
'Cuz if I change I could feel more low
So I do another encore, one more when it hurts the most
Calling it quits I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
I'm in purgatory
Middle of the story
Pulling back and forth from surrender and glory
All the pressure internally
It could very well be the death of me
Caught up in the middle
Center of the limbo
Seeing through the shards of a broken window
If the looking glass disagrees
It could very well be the death of me
Calling it quits I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
Calling it quits, I don't wanna admit
I'm too far gone but I'll never forget
What it feels like being young and dumb
Wondering who I'd become I don't know man
Losing all ambition
The angel on my right no I never listened
The voice in my left ear made the decisions
I'll the pay the price now 'cause I get what I'm givin'
(Get what I'm givin')
Calling it quits, I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind (I gotta make up my mind)
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
I look past all the flashing lights
(It could very well be the death of me)
Drive through ignore the warning signs
(It could very well be the death of me)
When things blow up I close my eyes (I'm left with what I am)
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline
@hiyv222
Love this song I swear if nico notices me one you day I'll cry (lol when there was like 20 mins everyone was talking bout anime)
@NicoCollinsOfficial
Yazmin Villegas hello ❤️
@lostyew5996
Yazmin Villegas OH MEH GAWD HE noticed You!!!!!
@hiyv222
My God my god can't breath
@vorfreude760
he is looking every comment, we have best boi guys💕
@lostyew5996
Zea Asia yup
@Seven-vu3md
As someone who actually has Borderline personality disorder I can tell that this song fits very well with the disorder. The impulsivity, being on the "Borderline" and especially the line "I'm too afraid to leave" cuz borderlines have a serious fear of abandonment
@neb0101
I have emerging borderline, so bpd and all the symptoms but I'm a teenager and you can't technically diagnose a teen with bpd yet. Other than what you mentioned, there's also the intense mood swings "Pulling back and forth from surrender and glory , All the pressure internally" and the sense of a lack of identity with "Wondering who I'd become I don't know man, Losing all ambition" and people with bpd are likely to have depression or substance abuse or various other co-existing disorders like in "Wash the shame down with another drink I get high I don't wanna overthink...Cuz if I change I could feel more low So I do another encore, one more when it hurts the most", these all fit well with bpd.
@iclynnx
I don't self-diagnose and I haven't been diagnosed with BPD, and I'm only a teenager yet, but I fear I have quite a few symptoms, so I get you. This song reminded me of BPD too. But I have been diagnosed with other disorders: mild autism and social anxiety. It's no wonder I have an intense fear of abandonment. I lost all my friends, now I've got only two besties. And one's on the other side of the world, we can only chat through Hangouts these days. We went to the same school before she moved. She and my other friend are the only ones who have stayed as my friends. Others I was either forced to leave behind or they left me because I didn't fit in. And now I'm stuck in this never-ending cycle of being depressed, and fearing that I'll be alone for the rest of my life.
@boperez2841
I have BPD. I'm always stressed and feeling lonely, recklessly eat, have sex, abuse substances, and I have so much anxiety around relationships. Even though I'm not in love I can't leave without severe anxiety. I think about suicide a lot. But I don't consider it an option yet.
I'm always on the borderline of strong mood swings/anxiety and triggers seem relentless.